Dear Compassionate Audience I am sharing my experience of a healing that somehow was not meant to be. I guess it is the tenderness in me that wishes to give every wounded soldier a try. Sometimes on the phone you can be deceived into thinking that there is good energy match between you and a new student of tantra.

Some newcomers to Tantric yoga are truly sincere and they are not simply seeking an entertainment purposes only session nor are they seeking an empty, carnal experience.

I am sharing my hurt today because again I am not a perfect being and I can attract a client (not a genuine seeker) but a client who wants to experience something not in my realm but rather an escort romp.

During one of my prior visits to the city of Chicago I received in excess of 20 text messages, 10 emails and no true voice voice phone call from an anonymous man or shall I call him “child” begging me for a late evening out call Goddess Worship ceremony at 1am to his hotel near O’hare airport. I explained to him that I prefer connecting with everyone more personally and could he kindly call me from a non blocked number rather than sending me numerous text messages and numerous emails. He used a very suspicious account and referred to himself as a Mr. Jack Meoff. I am not kidding you. I guess I should have just hit the delete button based on his choice of a screen name.

He shared with me a message board affiliated with adult’s only fun for adult boys and his ID membership MO is Wow. I was pretty scared to even respond to something so graphic but hey I have a light hearted side and I have a great sense of humor so I figured I would see if this man might be persuaded to receive a luxury bathing session at my space and actually receive a more authentic healing and the extra benefit of my beautiful flute music, a roomier more elegant setting and bubble bath for two.

He said he was trying to impress clients and finally he took some time out later that night on a Sunday to reach out to me and he said he was entertaining his clients at Gibson’s Steak house. He was very open about what he did for a living and I asked polite questions. He then asked me my pricing for three hours of Goddess healing and I told him all prices were clearly posted onto my site. He told me what he could afford so I charged him a sliding fee to be kind.

At about midnight I arrived at his hotel which was a run of the mill hotel chain near O’hare. Once he saw me he initially seemed happy but I could tell how nervous and tired he was. He was very tired and run down and he said what he needed more than anything was a really good deep tissue massage so he paid me $400 for three hours.
I was a bit upset considering he did not have any extra money to compensate me for a late night out call to his hotel nor did he realize my cab fare cost me $65 of that money so in essence I was mistreated and taken advantage of from the beginning.

Apparently I know this man suffers from a disorder of ASPD which is a psychosis and only certain people with this disorder appear oh so charming but he was also a liar. He deceived me into thinking he had a desire to learn how to pleasure the Goddess but all he wanted was a nude massage which anyone from off the street could have given him.
I donated extra time to him since he said he was not doing so well financially and he went on to complain about his home town in Detroit, Michigan and said how dangerous that city was. I listened intently and we shared a lot of laughter. If I had realized he wanted to be in complete silence I would not have replied to him but allowed him the silence he desired.

I found out only today that this person IB6UBWbeB69in wrote a false review of that evening . He posted a negative and false review of me on The Erotic Review insinuating that I was a chatter box, my rates were exorbitant for what you are getting (even though he decided against tantra) and that he visited me to a hotel room at my location and I had multiple cats. As far as I can say I left my cat at home in Chicago and this gentleman is not only rude but Psychopath who enjoys hurting women, and boldly lying to get his way.
I contacted him at his email address and he swore he never wrote the article even though his screen identity matches his email address perfectly.

Again I am not always able to read people as closely as I wish. I always try and help when I can and I try to adjust my offerings so I can meet a variety of people. I had no idea that my generosity would be taken advantage of.

here is what this man had to say about me. It appears my one large cat multiplied like the Movie “The Matrix”.

here is what he wrote about our shared time together:


VIP only


VIP only


VIP only


VIP only

general details
OK first off be forewarned she has cats, I was unaware of this and did not expect it as it was a nice hotel.
OK Cat one big black one I saw and I assumed others.
Easy to contact and talk to on the phone, wants to talk to get to know you and talks quite a bit
I perhaps should have taken this as a clue the session despite promises of being quiet and relaxed
was her non stop chatter.
Anyway arrived at her hotel easily, clean upscale location. I was greeted at the door with a hug like
we were long lost lovers. We got comfortable and the session started with a massage.
VIPS read on, Non VIP I do not think I would repeat due to the cost and service provided as well
as the excessive chatter.
The Juicy Details

Since none of this did happen I decided to share this with anyone anyone at all who understands the nature of someone who likes to get what he wants, connives and lies over the phone then back stabs as an out right act of passive aggression because he can not communicate his needs in a healthy way.

Perhaps he was expecting an escort to come over in heavy make up and high heels. Perhaps he wanted something only an escort related service would provide. He lied on a general message board and slandered me . My next step is to obviously go through my phone records and permanently block him then warn others in my field against working with him or trusting his antics.

I have no clue what made him take out all his anger out on me. I decided to share this with other Goddesses in the event this information helps them decide how to screen more carefully. I know I sometimes listen to my intuition and sometimes I am stubborn and I want to reach out, cuddle and make everyone laugh but I found out today the hard way that not everyone wishes to be healed. Some people want to be in a miserable, stuck place of anger and negativity.

Namaste and Goddess Bless
My next article will be about My ideal Student so this ends on a much more upbeat note!