The Shaman The Tantrica The Butterfly who Expands Consciousness in Others
Tantra Kundalini: Union of Shiva and Shakti
It is my personal understanding that Tantra is a weaving of male and female energy and the weaving is a natural act of nature that unifies our spiritual bodies and connects all of us in a common thread of cosmic consciousness. In Tantra there is no division or disconnection between you and me because we are all weaved from a common thread of a common loom and it is our natural inclination to have this desire to connect, exchange energy manifest our desires and create bonds both pleasurable and sometimes harmful based on our need to relate to others. My understanding is that energy is free to all and as a student in the art of both tantra and Reiki I understand my need to harness as much free, usable energy or Prana as I can consume so my power as a channelor or conductor of this energy is strong enough to sustain me and the person I am healing.
In essence we are all manifestors of energy and we are all playing a role in cosmic consciousness on a daily basis. The Akasha for instance is considered the substance out of which we are formed. Both the words Tantra and Akashi are sanskrit words and they coexist in their fundamental meanings in which both words involve a weaving similar to a tapestry and the weaving of spirit. The Akasha was the first manifestation of the crystallization of spirit and it is highly sensitive to the slightest vibrations such as our collective thought forms. It is indeed true what we feel can give birth to a living and breathing entity so be careful what you believe for your belief will have an effect on the delicate fibers of the Akasha or collective consciousness. I understand the importance of affirmation because of this; and I know if I send my body loving and healing messages my body will become the manifestation of “heaven on earth” but if I send disturbing messages I will indeed manifest “hell on earth”.
According to the study of Tantra there are two entities that have created our Universe. One entity or God is known as Shiva and Shiva represents the male deity but Shiva is immovable and represents the unmanifested consciousness so Shiva can exist but can not manifest or change. The other entity is Shakti the female Goddess and she is the Mother, the creator and the divine priestess. It is from the Goddess that all things are formed and born, hence the term “yoni” means womb or birthplace and other translations of the term yoni is lotus flower and creation because the Hindus understand that without the Mother or the Shakti energy we could not be. Tantra is therefore a religion based on the belief that the Goddess is the creator of all things and therefore celebrations or Pujas take place in these Ancient Rites celebrating the Goddess and the honoring of the yoni as a way of showing devotion to the Goddess. The union of Shiva and Shakti gave form to this world and it is the beauty of this union which creates the potential for deeper understanding of our own male and female energies that are united in our own bodies. Each of us inside is a manifestation of both male and female and it is this delicate interplay that balances our own ability to create and live a more powerful life if we learn to recycle and balance our own male and female energies within us. In other words we are our own universe or power house of energy!
Shakti is called Kundalini and she is the Snake Goddess that resides at the base of our spinal column; a sleeping and coiled snake with the potential to awaken and release our latent abilities to realize our own God or Goddesshood. When Kundalini energy is awakened by conscious meditation either through the practice of white kundalini yoga or conscious tantric sex we have the ability to become our own higher power and to get a true taste of the connection between our physical body and our spirit body. We can see things more clearly, hear things more profoundly and it can be as subtle as a vibratory awareness of our own spirit body leaving our physical body or a buzzing or humming coming from our ear drums. I have worked with a few gifted clients in my personal practice who have awakened these latent abilities either through a physical trauma or a personal crisis like the loss of a dear family member. We can awaken Kundalini energy simply by grieving profoundly for a beloved because the intensity of the grief or the shock will awaken this sleeping goddess energy and create sensations in your body akin to a feeling that you are part of the ether or spirit world. There will definitely be a feeling of greater closeness and this feeling that spirit and physical form intrude upon each other,
For example, two months prior to a great tragedy known simply as 9/11 where our country was bombarded by savage attacks and violence my body went through some very profound but unhealthy changes. I had my Kundalini energy awakened at a very young age during a near life and death experience. Since I was a child I could recollect spirit entities that took on the real physical form and it became a part of my own natural reality so I naturally assumed that all people could see these spirits or hear voices just as easily as I could. As i got older of course I only see these images during times of extreme stress or extreme pleasure! Nonetheless I have always had a hard time keeping focused because I can see the potential of positive and negative like two fishes swimming against the stream or away from the stream. My body went through some powerful changes prior to 9/11 to the extent I could feel spirits touching me and my own aura or force field of protection around me became thinner and thinner to the point where there were holes like a piece of holey Swiss cheese forming in my esthetic field. I no longer felt I had boundaries around me and so I could interact with these harmful entities and feel cold electrical feelings in my body that did not make me feel safe or loved. I can tell you not all kundalini awakenings are pleasant in nature and some people might even be frightened into believing their own sense of reality is so skewed that they are indeed in need of anti psychotic medications. Because I was blessed with my early kundalini awakening I can differentiate the belief systems I might have and know that a new golden door or pathway of ecstasy awaits me once I can calm down my mind or ego and just “experience” these delightful feelings or vibratory electrical impulses that can become triggered at random moments in my life.
I have a very fond memory in my life that I wish to share with you. It is my first hand knowledge that when Shakti or Kundalini energy is awakened fully she will not only take you on a powerful bodily journey but she will become your own Divine priestess or personal Shaman.
When I was in my early twenties I decided to finally live on my own away from my parents and embark on the journey of finally becoming an “adult”. I was fearful and excited but when I slept alone in my new bed in my beautiful new loft apartment in a section of Chicago known as River North I suddenly felt flooded with oppression and depression hit me in such a way that I lay down on my bed upon my back and with my eyes barely closed I silently wished I could just die. I felt so powerless and alone in the world. I didn’t have the inner faith that I could live without anyone supporting me and I didn’t know if I could earn enough money to support myself so I just lay there and sent a clear message to the Universe or God that I was tired and that I wished so deeply for someone to just take me physically out of my body and let me be at peace. Before I closed my eyes fully all of a sudden my body became paralyzed and I was unable to open my eyes or close them completely. My hands and arms felt like lead but I felt a surge of electricity both scaring me deeply and nurturing me as if I was a moth soon to become a butterfly.