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Today is Father’s Day 🧸

Today is Father’s Day but I don’t miss my biological father who physically kicked my mother in the stomach when she was carrying me in her womb. In fact I still don’t respect my own mother who is also deceased because what kind of mother remains married to a man who would attempt to threaten the life of her unborn child?

I’m posting this information not to garner any sympathy but to help people understand that not all of us here had desirable childhoods or pleasant memories of our parents during these traditional Hallmark card American created Holidays.

I’m not even a tad bit sentimental or regretful today because both my parents failed me and they were in a sick codependent relationship with one another and when my mother found out my father was schizophrenic she was even considering an abortion and deeply worried that I myself would develop schizophrenia like my father since it is after all hereditary.

Well my father had a complete nervous meltdown when my mother became pregnant and she told me he had kicked her hard then spent several months in treatment in the hospital for his mental condition.

Medication and talk therapy can only do so much for anyone suffering from delusions and I knew my father became a completely different person when he got angry with me or my mother. You could literally see his dark, black pupils become so enlarged his brown eyes became pitch black and he no longer looked human.

My father was very abusive to me…I have good memories of him when he showed genuine compassion towards me but his cruelty outweighed anything good he showed me and If I could go back in time as a young child I’d love to relive all those scary instances but ideally I would have left my home physically and spent more time outdoors or at the library and escaped his blind rages.

Not every father is ideal for the position of parenting so only a handful of lucky people out there had good, healthy relationships with their mothers and fathers. At the very least some of us as children were blessed to have a good role model either in the form of an uncle, a teacher or a close family friend.

I myself spent a good part of my childhood and puberty hiding in fear from my father who was not only diagnosed with schizophrenia but truly possessed by demonic entities. I’d love to understand what on earth I must have done in a previous incarnation to deserve such a frightening childhood but I know it shaped my character and made me a more sensitive child more empathetic than my peers.

I remember also being bullied by children my own age from five years old to age 16. At times I’d defend myself and the children would eventually learn to steer clear of me if I decided to defend myself properly. Most of the time I didn’t do anything to defend myself and I’d just cry quietly to myself at home. If my mother found out I had been bullied she usually didn’t have sympathy for me at all; in fact she genuinely became angry at me and wanted to know how I could let any of these peers take advantage of me or beat me up.

I learned to avoid and isolate myself from children in my school and at times I’d fight back when enough was enough and I had had my fill. I certainly didn’t mind fighting back and I at times learned how to adequately defend myself from my father’s tantrums and misdirected anger.

I never celebrate Father’s Day here on my Facebook wall but I know it’s a special day for at least a few blessed people out there in social media who knew what it felt like to be deeply loved unconditionally and respected by their fathers.

I leave this here on my wall not to garner sympathy but to help others understand that we don’t all celebrate this Holiday. Some of us don’t to this day understand why we ended up with the parents we had. I know a psychic reader I hired last year acknowledged to me what I had already known. My father was indeed a Channel for Spirits…all Spirits even Malevolent Spirits. He couldn’t control what he received so the doctor’s misdiagnosed his clairvoyance and prescribed him with pills and other medications that no doubt made his visions that much worse and skewed his reality further.

My parents were VESSELS …they were important in that they brought me here. I’m alive and I myself am clairvoyant and clairsentient and clairaudient. I know how to ground my own energies and I’ve never allowed any entity to ” take over the steering wheel ”

I can filter what it is I wish to receive and I function well on my own independently . I truly do not desire nor crave anyone else to “compliment” or “complete” me. I’ve had so many things taken from me but I’ve endured it and I’m content. I would never refuse genuine help if it were offered up to me but I learned the hard way that help is rarely offered unless there are “strings” attached.

My upbringing made me more sensitive and strong. I learned not to expect too much from anyone and I learned as I got into adulthood that people you date can abandon you when you need them the most especially if you let your guard down and bared your true feelings to them.

Anyone can disappoint you at anytime. The key to being truly happy is self reliance, self respect and unconditional self love. You must be there for yourself and learn to hold your own hand during the darkness.

By the way I do not give readings to anyone.  I sometimes might give my clients advice and pick up information they may need to hear from their Spirit Guides or “higher power “; but I don’t want to “probe” anyone I don’t know personally and interfere in their journey.

My psychic abilities have lead me to understand that I should place complete faith in myself first because of my own bodily signals or slight panic attacks.  I learned from firsthand experience that if I do not honor my own intuition I will be misled or reap the consequences of being completely taken advantage of by people who don’t have my best interests in mind.

I have experienced what it feels like numerous times not to be listened to and not to be taken seriously especially by people who were in a position to guide me or offer me help.

I suggest that if any of you reading my blog get a nagging gut feeling within you that some path isn’t right for you that you honor yourself first and pay close attention to your body’s signals.  If you feel nauseous or sweaty or truly ill before a decision you’ve made you may need to change your intended course of action and back away and try another alternative plan.

No one will be able to predict an outcome for you because we always have free will and the ability to change our minds frequently.  In honor of Father’s Day seek out answers within you more often.  Never question your own intuition and never put all your faith in one entity or one set way of doing something.

In honor of Father’s day learn to create sacred space within yourself first. When you wake up each day keep track of your thoughts.  Are you sending comforting thoughts to yourself and your physical body or are you silently criticising yourself ?

You alone carry all the answers within you and you alone intuitively understand how and where to begin the process and long journey of self healing and renewal.

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Goddess Diana ❤ Benefits of Tantra Massage in Chicago ♡

Tantra is a skill and a form of meditation that has been practiced by Tibetan monks, Buddhists and Hindus for well over 9000 years. We can trace Tantra yoga’s origins to the mountains of India where religious sects practiced sexual, sacred ceremonies called Pujas for a specific purpose such as planting seeds of abundance for a good harvest or simply leading one to a path of higher enlightenment by using sexual energy as a magical component to awaken the third eye via Kundalini Shakti.

Today people are intrigued enough to meet with a Tantra provider to see if there is anything Tantra can do for their emotional frame of mind or simply out of complete curiosity.

Today’s culture embraces a more pragmatic ritual where we combine a full body hands on healing rather than a random puja ritual of meeting in a sacred circle to team up with a complete stranger for a sacred sexual act to consecrate the land.

Modern Tantrikas invest their time in you– teaching you the right way to breathe fully and connect with you so that you are fully in the moment and not distancing yourself or detaching from your own body.

Modern tantra yoga involves full body Tantra Massage, belly breathing, eye gazing, mutual touch, mutual connection, and opening up your boundaries during peaks of pleasure. All your erogenous zones are awakened playfully and are used to tenderly heal your old emotional wounds to prepare you for sacred space.

You will learn to give up your need to control as your tantra guide stimulates your sexual energies with compassion and slow, soothing strokes. This is not about an end result nor is tantra about obtaining an orgasm.

Tantra helps you use your own sexual energy as medicine for your body. If you have a hard time falling asleep at nights your tantra session will help get you in a more relaxed frame of composure; but if you are too tired all the time tantra can also give you that extra zing for life and boost your energy level because Tantra can either be a stimulant for those who are too tired to function or it can act as a sleeping aide for insomniacs. Your body will determine what it needs from the tantra session so what ever does happen will be for the best.

Here are some wonderful reasons to try a tantra session for the first time.

1. Relax and Restore your Body and Mind

Your first tantra massage with me as your guide will include a firm, deep tissue massage and your Scalp, neck, shoulders, back and feet will be kneaded with meticulous care and attention to detail.

I carefully and methodically tune into your body’s individual needs so that you feel balanced and restored. Many of my clients feel a sense of complete relaxation yet they remain at a heightened state of arousal as I work with your energy centers (Chakras) and guide you into sensual pleasure. You will feel safe, loved, relaxed and aroused all at once.

2. Improve Your Breath and Circulation

My goal as your Tantra Muse and teacher is to help you be still in the moment and to be still in the moment is to let go which means you are free to be who you are and let go of your guard at last. We will gaze at each other, pause, laugh, connect and breathe deeply. If I see you have stopped breathing I remind you to calm your energy down long enough to take a deep heart breath or belly breath.

Breathing carries your sexual energies everywhere in your body and this helps your heart rate slow down and improves your circulatory system keeping you in a balanced form of hormonal stasis.

As you learn how to slow down you retrain your body to react slower to stimulation prolonging your body’s ability to sustain waves of orgasmic pleasure. You will taste of the pleasure in slow sips and nibbles and this new way of “being” becomes habitual and changes your outlook on every aspect of your life from dining out to trying on clothing.

3. Emotional Healing

One’s journey into Tantra involves emotional healing and the pealing of all your layers so that you evolve and become more open and honest with yourself. Tantra is designed to help you receive love with a more open heart.

As I teach you breathing techniques your chest cavity is more open and this leads to emotional healing and more heart openness. You will deal more honestly with yourself rather than burying your feelings.

You might find yourself crying or laughing during your state of openness and all this leads to greater compassion for yourself and others. Your emotional blocks are skillfully addressed during an extended ceremony as you let down your shields and learn the art of self acceptance.

When you learn how to receive pleasure and unconditional love your self esteem grows and your relationship with others is enhanced and improved.

4. Experience PEACEFULNESS AND Pleasure

Peace of mind is achieved during our shared Tantra ceremony. We will both experience mutual pleasure because I love making sure you are enjoying yourself and getting lost in the moment which brings me pleasure because I love making people feel good.

Your pleasure will come in many forms which includes complete muscle relaxation, full body waves of bliss, emotional restoration and the physical release that comes from having a spiritually infused orgasm which is called Kundalini Shakti activation and leads to even more bliss.

5. Tantra leads to Self awareness

The true goal of any tantra student is to attain Nirvana in a very natural and non invasive way. As I teach you how to breathe deeply into your Chakra bodies I may have you visualize that your pineal gland is getting brighter and clearer and this helps activate your Crown chakra leading you to a greater connection to Source.

As you gain trust in your ability to connect to a higher Power or your own inner power you begin to trust in your inner voice and inner intuition. There will be no more room in your life for self doubt; you will simply trust yourself each time you schedule a tantra session. Practice makes perfect and the more you learn to breathe and simply “Be” the more you will begin to have faith in yourself rather than relying on others to guide you.

6. Your Quality of Life Improves

Tantra yoga teaches you self discipline because we do everything slowly together and I teach you how to curb your impulses and your natural inclination to get to the “good stuff” first.

Whether you decide you wish to hire me to focus on your pleasure only or you wish to learn the art of sexual orgasm I am here to teach you how to touch with intention and with slowness so that you are not rushing into anything for the sole purpose of an end goal.

There is no end result we need to achieve. Our shared time is considered sacred and life in itself is an act of celebration and we make mistakes and learn along the way. Its okay to make mistakes and repeat sessions for the sake of learning how to slow down.

We focus on the present moment and we are not worried about where you were or what you need to become. We share a moment in time during our tantra ceremony and I teach you how to expand time so that you can no longer feel the passage of time and space.

Men who are concerned about ejaculatory control or premature ejaculation will find benefits to spending time practicing tantra massage and tantra breath with me. I will make sure you are not worried about an end result. You will feel more composed and secure so that your quality of life will improve as you keep yourself focused on the now.

8. Acquire Abundance

So you are probably wondering how abundance comes into play with our sacred ceremony. After all you are spending good money to see me and you wish to invest your money into a positive experience that will potentially benefit you emotionally, spiritually, physically and financially.

There is a special sacred ceremony we can partake in together during your session and it is called a Muladhara Chakra awakening or prostate activation.

Prostate massage is a gateway to help you establish a better sense of trust and self awareness. You learn to let go as I gently penetrate you with my finger and send you healing but powerful energy that will help awaken your kundalini energy and bring you the abundance you crave.

I personally find that men who are by nature very secure in their ability to make a good living love prostate massage the most and they are completely open and trusting feeling waves of insurmountable pleasures as I activate their prostate.

It is interesting to note that men who have a hard time giving up “control” and men who do not feel completely secure have a tendency to tighten up and feel nervous as I attempt to activate their kundalini energy this way.

Everything takes practice and patience and if the thought of acquiring abundance intrigues and excites you; but the thought of being penetrated repulses and alarms you then we can take slow steps getting you to the point where you trust me enough to stimulate you in this way.

I can assure you that if this idea appeals to you but you are too afraid you can let me know your boundaries ahead of time and I can still activate your prostate from the outside without fully penetrating your anal area.

Energy is energy and intentions can carry energy just as skillfully as a more firm touch or caress.

9. Combat Stress and Fatigue

Tantra massage is a gateway to helping you combat fatigue and stress due to adrenal fatigue failure.

During my sessions I place a very strong emphasis on your core which is your third Chakra or solar plexus. Your solar plexus is your mini solar system and helps you with your intuition as it helps you with body signals.

I am sure you know what it’s like to feel butterflies in your stomach right before a performance, a speech or before meeting with someone you have deep feelings for.

Your stomach carries a great deal of stress and so I will be massaging your tummy during our session so you can feel safe and loved. This massage aides your digestive system and encourages your body to produce less cortisol so you are not in a constant state of fight or flight.

If you see me on a regular basis I can assure you you will be on your way to greater rest, less stress, and you can start losing weight with ease.

During your belly massage I will encourage you to take deep, slow belly breaths and all this deep breathing will improve your energy levels and get oxygen flowing to your brain and other organs decreasing your fatigue and helping you to get to a prolonged feeling of ecstasy when we address your erogenous zones.

Any massage will help those dealing with stress, but the tantra massage takes it one step further than simply relaxing your body. Since tantra focuses on your emotional, physical, spiritual and sexual health all at once, you will leave with a renewed sense of self and lowered stress levels as a result of your tantra ceremony.

In summary if you want to gift yourself the pleasure of unsurpassed sensuality, dedicated deep tissue massage and the ability to withhold and sustain heightened sensory awareness then call me immediately and schedule an extended tantra ceremony with me soon!

Please read my personal website first http://www.tantrabutterfly.com for a complete list of ceremonial options then call me directly 312-339-7707

Goddess Diana
Goddess Diana of http://www.tantrabutterfly.com
Sensual Healer honoring Individuals seeking a Sensual and Sacred Journey and Couples who seek intimacy and understanding
Certified Therapist, Energy worker and Tantric Educator
A Specialist in Unconditional Love*
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The following paragraph is a Disclaimer:

I DO NOT ENGAGE IN SEXUAL INTERCOURSE as part of my Tantric practice with any of my students. I have a deep respect for other men and women in my field who do offer the full Kama Sutra experience; but I myself choose to remain celibate as a means of extending my own energy and integrity during each of my sessions. I practice a combination of toning exercises, deep breathing, eye/soul
gazing, and Tantra massage but I am not an “escort” service. I can create an ecstatic and harmonious experience for you during our shared time as we Co create Sacred Space but sexual intercourse is not included during our ceremonies.