Archive for May, 2014

Frida Kahlo addressing her love Diego in her Diary ❀

Frida Kahlo addressing her love Diego in her Diary ❀

For my Diego

the silent life giver of worlds, what is most important is the nonillusion. morning breaks, the friendly reds, the big blues, hands full of leaves, noisy birds, fingers in the hair, pigeons’ nests a rare understanding of human struggle simplicity of the senseless song the folly of the wind in my heart = don’t let them rhyme girl = sweet xocolatl [chocolate] of ancient Mexico, storm in the blood that comes in through the mouth — convulsion, omen, laughter and sheer teeth needles of pearl, for some gift on a seventh of July, I ask for it, I get it, I sing, sang, I’ll sing from now on our magic — love.

Frida Kahlo

Tantra Mantra Puja Celebration and Liberation of your Soul ✿

Tantra Mantra Puja Celebration and Liberation of your Soul ✿

We are spiritual beings living in a physical world and trapped in a physical body. We want to soar and not have the limitations of our physical “cage”! We want to go without thirst, without cravings, without hunger, without lust and without pain or self doubt. Our natural state is “bliss”. We are born unto bliss and bliss is our birth rite. Tantra is the study of bliss and is the key to our inner contentment and our ability to see the unseen. When we feel trapped we feel powerless but when we learn how to travel outside of our bodies into the realm of the astral in the form of mindful meditation we grow “wings”.
Tantra involves a connection to Source and we expand and travel outside of our bodies therefore liberating our spirit body from our denser physical body. The word tantra is compose of two words in Sanskrit. Tanoti means quite literally to stretch out or expand and the second word Trayate means to free up or liberate. We use Mantras, yantras, meditation, breathing, pujas and pranayama during a tantra healing. If you have the time to schedule a 2 to 3 hour ceremony more than likely you will have a true taste of the yantras the symbolism behind each Chakra that we work on opening up together.
Tantra is the practice of keeping your energy high and maintaining your sexual energy for creative purposes and rejuvenation. Tantra teaches you the practice of mindfulness and your study of tantra as a form of meditation will also enhance your ability to appreciate all your mundane activities until they become infused with the extraordinary. You will take small bites of your food and take in each morsel. You will find new ways to create sacred space in your own home environment because you will become extra sensitive and you will require more art and more colors as you free up your inner clutter and give yourself the permission to explore the newness of everything around you.

Tantra seeks to unite all of us and create a sense of oneness rather than isolation. The act of partnering up with your lover or your tantra teacher creates an act of give and take and ebb and flow. As you connect with your partner you might even find your breathing patterns are in synchronicity and connecting becomes like second nature to you. Your bodies relax together and it’s as if you can feel the same pain or the same thirst. During a tantra healing you must remember to breathe consciously into your own heart chakra so you feel energized because you will be sharing your own heart energy with your partner and you will in essence be feeding each other pranic food.
How can you not evolve and expand under such lovely circumstances? We all go through phases in life. Sometimes we find ourselves busy in activity so we can hardly make space to learn anything new. At other times we might go through periods of worry or a lack of abundance. During these times we have more time to ponder different aspects of our personality and to decide what it is that really drives our passions. During these quieter times we have to reinvent ourselves and we can take this time to acquire new skills or change our location and move to a different city. Tantra will change you. Tantra will assist you in your growth no matter how painful or scary it is to change you can use tantra yoga to help you balance your relationship with yourself and give you the strength to set boundaries with others so you can express your needs and be “seen”.

Goddess Diana
Tantra Butterfly Muse

Let me be your Tantra Guide and Muse (your city or Mine) ❀✿

ImageDo you have a special desire to learn tantra the right way and in an intimate gathering such as your home environment?  I am available for very small, intimate retreats.  I suggest we meet briefly for coffee and make special plans for you and your closest friends.  I am a skilled tantra teacher very open to meeting with your and a small group of your friends in your home where you feel safest.  We can explore the basics of breathing exercises together and learning how to touch with intention and authenticity.  There are many ways to touch your lover or close friend.  When you incorporate proper breathing techniques and reiki your partner will feel the difference whether your intention is to incite desire or send someone some tender and healing vibes.

I will take my time retraining you and giving you the basic steps you can use to infuse your touch with heat and tenderness.  My focus is to allow each of you to become a live demonstration and each one of you will also have the chance to assist me in a six handed massage so that by the end of the workshop you have a chance to be receiver of a true tantra massage ceremony and a Tantra God or Goddess– a shaman that helps facilitate healing.

I am available for small tantra retreats and immersions here in Chicago and your home city.


My favorite place to retreat is my chair and my writing table ✮☯

so you want to know the secret to creating opportunities?  It’s not hard it is simple.  You create opportunity by learning to say yes

and not saying no.  You decide that when you elect to try something new if it seems like a bad idea you forge ahead and you try to the best of your ability to keep your mind unpolluted and see for yourself what the activity brings.  Just imagine if you feel just a tinge of nervousness and you don’t create time or space to make something occur.  Now that is an adventure you lost and you can’t retrieve it.  I keep my heart open.  I give people choices because everyone is allowed time to make up their minds to figure out what it is exactly they are seeking.

I am sure it’s not easy to say yes to meeting a complete stranger for the first time and try out for yourself what a tantra massage is like.  But if you let your nervousness get in the way or if you let your “expectations” of what a tantra healers must look like you might miss what it is you were yearning to experience.  It’s best not to judge people based on your fears but that is something that commonly happens.  Once someone schedule a session with me but he was very cold to me and at the end of the session I had asked him why he was behaving so cautiously and he explained it really had nothing at all to do with me but in a way I looked exactly like his first girlfriend who had rejected him brutally and parted ways with him without healing his pain of abandonment.  I tried my best to give this man a wonderful session but I can only perform to the best of my abilities as a healer when I am given complete trust.

Once in a while I get a weird gut intuition that a session will either be super powerfully infused with laughter and energy or I receive the strange feeling of a last minute cancellation based on an accident or a delay or cold feet from my new guest.  I try my best not to take these signs personally but being human and having tender feelings I have to wonder how much of this was fate or how much of these strange events were based on my new guest’s unfounded fears.  When you fear something you block love.  When you block love you block your ability to perceive change and heal and grow. 

If all you do is contemplate trying new experiences but you never make them happen you are dreaming away your life.  When you connect with your healer don’t second guess your judgements, your sanity or yourself.  You picked someone because they are a reflection of you.  Your mirror is nothing for you to fear.  If there are subtle blocks going on in your life your teacher or your mirror is going to reflect all those doubts and fears and energies right back at you and you have the unique ability to heal your wounds and resolve the subtle blocks by facing your prejudices and your fears head on.

I can’t stress this enough—do not turn away from the opportunity to rebuild your inner ego by having new experiences even if they are from people you do not typically meet daily during your work environment or within your inner circle of friends. 

Sometimes my favorite place to retreat to is my chair and my writing desk.  I find sanity here.  I can collect my thoughts and pause and reflect and try to make sense of people and sometimes I don’t understand why someone does not try to reschedule after a last minute set back but I feel it’s not within my power to judge or doubt I just have to allow chances to unfold and be here open and capable of being judgement free.  The only time I decide to turn anyone away is when there is a long term repetitive cycle of missed appointments or an established lack of trust either from my end or my new guests point of view.  Where there is a lack of trust there is no ability for the body to heal itself of older and more wasteful energies.

We are here to heal each other.  We are here to support each other.  We are here to be in our power and also be in our truths.  But if you are here in a stuck place the only one responsible for creating opportunities is your own inner and higher being.  Your higher being knows what is best for your evolution so go with your gut intuition first and carry out your original intentions so you can get to the other side of any hurdle.Image

Jungle Flowers in the West Loop yes We have flowers in the West Loop

Jungle Flowers in the West Loop yes We have flowers in the West Loop

“I am not the first person you loved. You are not the first person I looked at with a mouthful of forevers.
We have both known loss like the sharp edges of a knife. We have both lived with lips more scar tissue than skin.
Our love came unannounced in the middle of the night. Our love came when we’d given up on asking love to come.
I think that has to be part of its miracle. This is how we heal. I will kiss you like forgiveness.

You will hold me like I’m hope.
Our arms will bandage and we will press promises between us like flowers in a book.
I will write sonnets to the salt of sweat on your skin. I will write novels to the scar of your nose.
I will write a dictionary of all the words I have used trying to describe the way it feels to have finally,
finally found you. And I will not be afraid of your scars.
I know sometimes it’s still hard to let me see you in all your cracked perfection,
but please know: whether it’s the days you burn more brilliant than the sun or the nights you collapse into my
lap your body broken into a thousand questions, you are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.
I will love you when you are a still day. I will love you when you are a hurricane.”

~ Clementine von Radics, “Mouthful of Forever”

If you wish to receive my best work I need something special of you ~your trust and your respect ❀

So it’s the end of a very hectic and long aggravating work day for you and all you want to do is relax in your hotel space and not have to worry about leaving your comfortable room or having to flag a taxi in the rain or the sleet or the snow.  You just crave touch and you randomly find my website on your lap top or you ipad or your phone.  You really really need a healing NOW — not later, not tomorrow not the weekend but right NOW. There is only one major flaw in this missing recipe and special ingredient…you have made no prior plans or attempts to reach out to me during your hectic day not even a warning call to advise me that you have a deep desire for a special out call so I might not be in the right frame of mind to hustle over to your room at your convenience.

I am not trying to be rude I am simply going to give you an inside view into my world.  First of all I love my career and I would never be in this field unless I really loved people. Innately I am a people pleaser and nothing makes me feel better than knowing I have healed some new guests simply craving and desirous of healing touch.

Please understand though that you will receive the very best I have to offer if you follow some very simple and basic guidelines.

If you know for sure you are going to be in my home city then give me a full day’s notice or at least call me very early in the day and tell me what time you expect me to go to your hotel.  My preference will always be to offer sacred space from my own temple space because I don’t have to worry about finding a taxi at the last minute and not forgetting to bring oils with me.  If you truly can not take the time to visit me here then I need a few hours notice from you so I can make sure I am near your hotel at least 45 minutes prior to our session.  You will have to understand that it is rude of you not to include my taxi cab fare because I am going out of my way to make sure you are well rested in your hotel space at a special time and I should not have to incur extra traveling expenses to make sure you do not have to leave the comfort of your room.

Please know your hotel space is within your control so you can have a few candles lit with aromatherapy or some freshly cut flowers in a tiny bud vase to make the setting more soothing for our ceremony.  Typically I might have some alter candles and incense burning in him sacred space so if you wish to create a loving setting have a bit of food for us to enjoy.  It does not have to be elaborate but create a home like setting so we both feel at home and peaceful together.  Music is very essential to a good tantra healing and I will always bring special music with me but if you know your hotel space does not have a stereo system you might want to borrow something from the hotel space so we can have a relaxing ambiance to enjoy together.

I really need a couple of hours notice for out call ceremonies.  I would be less than inclined to hop in a cab at eleven o’clock in the evening without prior warning and without a bit of cab fare to take care of my expenses.  If I am given ample notice or better yet if you can provide a driver for me at a specific time I can assure you I will arrive promptly at your hotel ready and willing to give you all the nurturing and pampering and unconditional love you deserve.

I create sacred space 24/7 in my home meaning I have soft Indian music playing here to create a higher vibration at all times.  I love to light incense here and light special resins on charcoal brickettes so that my home is always uplifting and sweet smelling.  I have candles lit and the temperature is always warm so you need not worry about drafts in my temple space.  Please remember a hotel space can sometimes be a bit drafty and a hotel space has certain rigid rules about candles being burned and incense being lit.  If you have even one candle burning sometimes the hotel staff will warn you about the fire alarm going off in your room.  We can always make any space sacred with creativity and I certainly do not mind creating a space where you feel safe and loved but you must respect my boundaries as a healer and give me enough time to get to you without me feeling rushed or pressed for time.  Include a tip that will cover my cab fare and a simple gift of flowers and you will receive much more than you anticipated.  You will receive the very best I have to offer when you are prepared and respectful of my time.

Here is a brief recap:

if you require an out call tantra healing give me 2 hours notice

* have light food and beverages available for us

*have my ride waiting for me at a specific time or include an extra $50 for my time

*keep me informed through out the day if there are any changes in your schedule

*partial payment in advance will assure me you are serious and intent on keeping our appointment at your space

*Never call me after 10pm at the very last minute for an out call I will not be at my freshest and I won’t accept

*please use your real name and never an alias.  I feel a deeper sense of trust when you use your real name

*I can not offer discounts when you expect me to do an out call but I can always offer sliding fees when you come to me

Courtesy and respect gives you best of my best and I want to give you the type of session you feel you deserve so please honor my simple boundaries so I can impress you with my skills!

Goddess Diana


How to process energy after your first tantra healing

All energy healings deal with balance of the chakras and learning to make progress not only on  a psychic level but a spiritual

level.  It is not enough to walk away from a tantra healing or a reiki session and keep up with your old negative habits like a

lack of exercise or eating too much sugar.  As you learn to evolve psychically your body naturally wishes to let go of these old patterns which opens up the potential to keep getting more fit on a physical level.

More and more I am seeing evidence of people who want to give up certain food groups because they have noticed their stomach reacts differently to the old food choices.  For instance I recently decided to give up my addiction to sugars  and breads and pastas because it felt as if my stomach was burning on fire after my bread and sugar consumption.  I avoided all meats, dairy, sugars and breads since this past Easter and I feel so much better and lighter.  My body is preparing me for a major shift and the planet is receiving new energies so our bodies are going to need to be prepared to receive the new energy so we can be better channels and better able to evolve.

Who wants to go to bed feeling achy inside?  Why continue on the same path if you feel so good after your first reiki healing or tantra healing.  You want to maintain that level of lightness and euphoria for as long as possible by practicing the breathing exercises daily on your own or sharing the exercises with a close friend or partner. 

Now that the sun is out take advantage of these warmer days and go outside to enjoy the light without guilt.  Take your work with you and do your work outside for a change.  Be active, listen to your body because now that you tasted what it is like to feel complete bliss it’s wise to keep up the maintenance on your own and to schedule small sessions in intervals maybe once every three to four weeks. 

There is nothing like body wisdom to teach you what you really need and not what you crave.  What ever you decide to do immediately after any kind of tantra or reiki session you must drink a full gallon of water to flush out any toxins your body was holding onto.  Let that old toxicity go.  Feel what it’s like to have a pure, healthy and light physical body and if you notice certain food groups are creating pain or a heaviness in your solar plexus then make a note to yourself to substitute your old foods that were more acidic with a more alkaline diet.  Alkaline foods are fresh fruit and vegetables.  See how easy that is for you to remember?  Meats are highly acidic and so are certain types of sugary deserts especially ice cream.  At least figure out how your body reacts to certain types of foods and help your body heal by picking those foods that do not cause your digestive tract any stresses or strains.

It’s good to feel vital and infused with energy.  All good reiki sessions and tantra massage sessions will make you feel lighter and better able to concentrate for longer periods of time.  Keep up your new level of happiness don’t let yourself go back to square one.  Now it’s up to you go enjoy reiki circles so you can receive energy and practice with others.

I am available to support you in your ongoing process and progress. Don’t be discouraged or hard on yourself.  Sometimes it takes tiny bites of pure energy work to make a huge difference in your outlook.

Goddess Diana of