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Today is Father’s Day 🧸

Today is Father’s Day but I don’t miss my biological father who physically kicked my mother in the stomach when she was carrying me in her womb. In fact I still don’t respect my own mother who is also deceased because what kind of mother remains married to a man who would attempt to threaten the life of her unborn child?

I’m posting this information not to garner any sympathy but to help people understand that not all of us here had desirable childhoods or pleasant memories of our parents during these traditional Hallmark card American created Holidays.

I’m not even a tad bit sentimental or regretful today because both my parents failed me and they were in a sick codependent relationship with one another and when my mother found out my father was schizophrenic she was even considering an abortion and deeply worried that I myself would develop schizophrenia like my father since it is after all hereditary.

Well my father had a complete nervous meltdown when my mother became pregnant and she told me he had kicked her hard then spent several months in treatment in the hospital for his mental condition.

Medication and talk therapy can only do so much for anyone suffering from delusions and I knew my father became a completely different person when he got angry with me or my mother. You could literally see his dark, black pupils become so enlarged his brown eyes became pitch black and he no longer looked human.

My father was very abusive to me…I have good memories of him when he showed genuine compassion towards me but his cruelty outweighed anything good he showed me and If I could go back in time as a young child I’d love to relive all those scary instances but ideally I would have left my home physically and spent more time outdoors or at the library and escaped his blind rages.

Not every father is ideal for the position of parenting so only a handful of lucky people out there had good, healthy relationships with their mothers and fathers. At the very least some of us as children were blessed to have a good role model either in the form of an uncle, a teacher or a close family friend.

I myself spent a good part of my childhood and puberty hiding in fear from my father who was not only diagnosed with schizophrenia but truly possessed by demonic entities. I’d love to understand what on earth I must have done in a previous incarnation to deserve such a frightening childhood but I know it shaped my character and made me a more sensitive child more empathetic than my peers.

I remember also being bullied by children my own age from five years old to age 16. At times I’d defend myself and the children would eventually learn to steer clear of me if I decided to defend myself properly. Most of the time I didn’t do anything to defend myself and I’d just cry quietly to myself at home. If my mother found out I had been bullied she usually didn’t have sympathy for me at all; in fact she genuinely became angry at me and wanted to know how I could let any of these peers take advantage of me or beat me up.

I learned to avoid and isolate myself from children in my school and at times I’d fight back when enough was enough and I had had my fill. I certainly didn’t mind fighting back and I at times learned how to adequately defend myself from my father’s tantrums and misdirected anger.

I never celebrate Father’s Day here on my Facebook wall but I know it’s a special day for at least a few blessed people out there in social media who knew what it felt like to be deeply loved unconditionally and respected by their fathers.

I leave this here on my wall not to garner sympathy but to help others understand that we don’t all celebrate this Holiday. Some of us don’t to this day understand why we ended up with the parents we had. I know a psychic reader I hired last year acknowledged to me what I had already known. My father was indeed a Channel for Spirits…all Spirits even Malevolent Spirits. He couldn’t control what he received so the doctor’s misdiagnosed his clairvoyance and prescribed him with pills and other medications that no doubt made his visions that much worse and skewed his reality further.

My parents were VESSELS …they were important in that they brought me here. I’m alive and I myself am clairvoyant and clairsentient and clairaudient. I know how to ground my own energies and I’ve never allowed any entity to ” take over the steering wheel ”

I can filter what it is I wish to receive and I function well on my own independently . I truly do not desire nor crave anyone else to “compliment” or “complete” me. I’ve had so many things taken from me but I’ve endured it and I’m content. I would never refuse genuine help if it were offered up to me but I learned the hard way that help is rarely offered unless there are “strings” attached.

My upbringing made me more sensitive and strong. I learned not to expect too much from anyone and I learned as I got into adulthood that people you date can abandon you when you need them the most especially if you let your guard down and bared your true feelings to them.

Anyone can disappoint you at anytime. The key to being truly happy is self reliance, self respect and unconditional self love. You must be there for yourself and learn to hold your own hand during the darkness.

By the way I do not give readings to anyone.  I sometimes might give my clients advice and pick up information they may need to hear from their Spirit Guides or “higher power “; but I don’t want to “probe” anyone I don’t know personally and interfere in their journey.

My psychic abilities have lead me to understand that I should place complete faith in myself first because of my own bodily signals or slight panic attacks.  I learned from firsthand experience that if I do not honor my own intuition I will be misled or reap the consequences of being completely taken advantage of by people who don’t have my best interests in mind.

I have experienced what it feels like numerous times not to be listened to and not to be taken seriously especially by people who were in a position to guide me or offer me help.

I suggest that if any of you reading my blog get a nagging gut feeling within you that some path isn’t right for you that you honor yourself first and pay close attention to your body’s signals.  If you feel nauseous or sweaty or truly ill before a decision you’ve made you may need to change your intended course of action and back away and try another alternative plan.

No one will be able to predict an outcome for you because we always have free will and the ability to change our minds frequently.  In honor of Father’s Day seek out answers within you more often.  Never question your own intuition and never put all your faith in one entity or one set way of doing something.

In honor of Father’s day learn to create sacred space within yourself first. When you wake up each day keep track of your thoughts.  Are you sending comforting thoughts to yourself and your physical body or are you silently criticising yourself ?

You alone carry all the answers within you and you alone intuitively understand how and where to begin the process and long journey of self healing and renewal.

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Goddess Massage in Metro D.C., Maryland, and Alexandria, Virginia

art work by Chie Yoshii  sphinx

art work by Chie Yoshii
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Do you know that we spend at least half of our time connecting and breathing together during our shared tantra Ceremony? It’s so easy to get lost in thought even if you are receiving a healing massage because most corporate men and women are used to being “switched” on all day. You are used to your planned out day or ritual so you can make the most use of your time. You wake up at a certain hour to make sure you are not late. You read your notes for the day to make sure you are well prepared for your meeting so you don’t look foolish to your peers. You squeeze your lunch hour in somehow all the while constantly checking your phone for incoming emails and last minute emergencies or conference calls and then you go home and do your home ritual to make the most of your leisure time either alone or with your close family members and friends.

When do you actually take time for the breath? When do you find time to unplug and just be? When you decide that you have extra time to indulge and co create sacred space please consider me as your personal Muse and Tantra Guide. I will give you lessons on the Ocean breath which will help you relax and calm down your overwrought central nervous system.

Just like a good athlete you will need a few moments of complete rest or a breather from your normal routine to relax the most overworked muscle of your body—your brain.

Your brain and heart requires oxygenation and when you engage with me during one of my Tantra Ceremonies here in Metro D.C. and Maryland I will teach you how to breathe fully and with ease so you won’t be able to think of anything but the sounds of the room or the touch of my hand.

I will guide you in a calming meditation that will recharge your Chakra centers and hopefully retrain your nervous system to give up control and be more sensitive to all types of touch. My hands will be guided to certain power centers of your body and after our time together your body will memorize where my hand has been almost like an imprint you will feel energetically.

Please take advantage of my presence here now that I am visiting Maryland, Metro D.C. and Virginia.

Visit my website http://www.tantrabutterfly.com for many optional ceremonies and I will be here to discuss anything that arouses your curiosity.

Graciously,
Goddess Diana of http://www.tantrabutterfly.com

If you feel more comfortable traveling to your home in Georgetown, Du Pont Circle or any part of the Metro D.C. area just provide me with a taxi or Uber driver round trip and I will happily offer my healing instructions at your home or hotel. I am easily reachable between the hours of 9am till midnight. I work with small workshops, couples and individuals who wish to lose track of all time and get lost in exploratory touch. I am skilled with alternative healing, Reiki, deep tissue, and Tantra Yoga. I will be available in Maryland, Virginia and Metro D.C. to work on your ability to be fully present and in the moment.

How to initiate a Traditional Tantra Session with your Partner ❤♥

"Resting Maiden", probably a portrait of Marie-Louise O'Murphy, mistress to Louis XV of France, oil on canvas, 1751.

“Resting Maiden”, probably a portrait of Marie-Louise O’Murphy, mistress to Louis XV of France, oil on canvas, 1751.

Are you up for a true challenge this Christmas? I always am and I am currently visiting Orlando, Florida hiding away from winter snow because I happen to love tropical weather and walking around in my sandals without worrying about wearing a coat. I am always ready for change and a change of scenery.
If you are a couple here in Orlando, Florida and you feel you are a ready to establish a more meaningful connection with your lover I would love to help you facilitate something special this December.
Many people need more play in their life. I realize many of you are Ceo’s and are professional so you are expected to show up at your work place calm, ready for anything and well polished.
Tantra teaches us to be comfortable with being ourselves. You are not expected to be anything or pretend to be someone you are simply expected to be ready to be accepted and loved unconditionally.
We begin the practice of unconditional love by sitting in silence with our partner. You may love the outdoors so maybe you might want to take your lover outside in a private place without distractions and stay seated in front of each other comfortably. You can gaze into your lover’s eyes and the just be present for her or him. You are not allowed to think of anything. Now that is more difficult than it seems. We sometimes think of the past, present and future but during this exercise you are a blank canvass, releasing all concerns and you are going to beam a strobe of complete, unconditional love into your partner’s eyes. You can try practicing this for fifteen minutes initially and then as you get better at it maybe prepare to spend a full 45 minutes just staring and smiling at each other contentedly. You will breathe together, holding hands and in this way all your chakra centers are in complete alignment.
These are exercises that are for couples seeking unity, understanding and an opening of their heart chakra centers.
Many people are confused about the true intention of tantra yoga. Yes you will grow as a couple more intimately and yes you will even crave each other more but this is created from a true heart intention and if you are able to make your partner feel safe and loved without raw, physical contact; just imagine how much more profound your love making ritual will grow once you become more sensitive to who your partner really is. You will be asking very little of each other but the honor of seeing through each other without judgement and without any hurry to go anywhere after the exercise is finished.
I am sure that many couples misconstrue the meaning of learning tantra. There are couples who are impatient and only want to get to the excitement of kama sutra and sexual positions but when they skip over the honoring of one another and deny the slow moving spiritual path of this work they will not reap the healing benefits of transitioning from a physical experience to a spiritual elevation.
I am open to teaching couples in the Orlando, Florida area now that I am here enjoying winter with all of you in this lush, laid back environment. I hope to attract a few couples or singles who have a half day to let go of their normal routines or their opinions of what tantra yoga is and is not.
I am here, present, open and willing to share my knowledge of tantra yoga for private sessions and couples sessions and I hope to connect with you during the week of Christmas. If you have time to grow please contact me this week in Orlando.