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Today is Father’s Day 🧸

Today is Father’s Day but I don’t miss my biological father who physically kicked my mother in the stomach when she was carrying me in her womb. In fact I still don’t respect my own mother who is also deceased because what kind of mother remains married to a man who would attempt to threaten the life of her unborn child?

I’m posting this information not to garner any sympathy but to help people understand that not all of us here had desirable childhoods or pleasant memories of our parents during these traditional Hallmark card American created Holidays.

I’m not even a tad bit sentimental or regretful today because both my parents failed me and they were in a sick codependent relationship with one another and when my mother found out my father was schizophrenic she was even considering an abortion and deeply worried that I myself would develop schizophrenia like my father since it is after all hereditary.

Well my father had a complete nervous meltdown when my mother became pregnant and she told me he had kicked her hard then spent several months in treatment in the hospital for his mental condition.

Medication and talk therapy can only do so much for anyone suffering from delusions and I knew my father became a completely different person when he got angry with me or my mother. You could literally see his dark, black pupils become so enlarged his brown eyes became pitch black and he no longer looked human.

My father was very abusive to me…I have good memories of him when he showed genuine compassion towards me but his cruelty outweighed anything good he showed me and If I could go back in time as a young child I’d love to relive all those scary instances but ideally I would have left my home physically and spent more time outdoors or at the library and escaped his blind rages.

Not every father is ideal for the position of parenting so only a handful of lucky people out there had good, healthy relationships with their mothers and fathers. At the very least some of us as children were blessed to have a good role model either in the form of an uncle, a teacher or a close family friend.

I myself spent a good part of my childhood and puberty hiding in fear from my father who was not only diagnosed with schizophrenia but truly possessed by demonic entities. I’d love to understand what on earth I must have done in a previous incarnation to deserve such a frightening childhood but I know it shaped my character and made me a more sensitive child more empathetic than my peers.

I remember also being bullied by children my own age from five years old to age 16. At times I’d defend myself and the children would eventually learn to steer clear of me if I decided to defend myself properly. Most of the time I didn’t do anything to defend myself and I’d just cry quietly to myself at home. If my mother found out I had been bullied she usually didn’t have sympathy for me at all; in fact she genuinely became angry at me and wanted to know how I could let any of these peers take advantage of me or beat me up.

I learned to avoid and isolate myself from children in my school and at times I’d fight back when enough was enough and I had had my fill. I certainly didn’t mind fighting back and I at times learned how to adequately defend myself from my father’s tantrums and misdirected anger.

I never celebrate Father’s Day here on my Facebook wall but I know it’s a special day for at least a few blessed people out there in social media who knew what it felt like to be deeply loved unconditionally and respected by their fathers.

I leave this here on my wall not to garner sympathy but to help others understand that we don’t all celebrate this Holiday. Some of us don’t to this day understand why we ended up with the parents we had. I know a psychic reader I hired last year acknowledged to me what I had already known. My father was indeed a Channel for Spirits…all Spirits even Malevolent Spirits. He couldn’t control what he received so the doctor’s misdiagnosed his clairvoyance and prescribed him with pills and other medications that no doubt made his visions that much worse and skewed his reality further.

My parents were VESSELS …they were important in that they brought me here. I’m alive and I myself am clairvoyant and clairsentient and clairaudient. I know how to ground my own energies and I’ve never allowed any entity to ” take over the steering wheel ”

I can filter what it is I wish to receive and I function well on my own independently . I truly do not desire nor crave anyone else to “compliment” or “complete” me. I’ve had so many things taken from me but I’ve endured it and I’m content. I would never refuse genuine help if it were offered up to me but I learned the hard way that help is rarely offered unless there are “strings” attached.

My upbringing made me more sensitive and strong. I learned not to expect too much from anyone and I learned as I got into adulthood that people you date can abandon you when you need them the most especially if you let your guard down and bared your true feelings to them.

Anyone can disappoint you at anytime. The key to being truly happy is self reliance, self respect and unconditional self love. You must be there for yourself and learn to hold your own hand during the darkness.

By the way I do not give readings to anyone.  I sometimes might give my clients advice and pick up information they may need to hear from their Spirit Guides or “higher power “; but I don’t want to “probe” anyone I don’t know personally and interfere in their journey.

My psychic abilities have lead me to understand that I should place complete faith in myself first because of my own bodily signals or slight panic attacks.  I learned from firsthand experience that if I do not honor my own intuition I will be misled or reap the consequences of being completely taken advantage of by people who don’t have my best interests in mind.

I have experienced what it feels like numerous times not to be listened to and not to be taken seriously especially by people who were in a position to guide me or offer me help.

I suggest that if any of you reading my blog get a nagging gut feeling within you that some path isn’t right for you that you honor yourself first and pay close attention to your body’s signals.  If you feel nauseous or sweaty or truly ill before a decision you’ve made you may need to change your intended course of action and back away and try another alternative plan.

No one will be able to predict an outcome for you because we always have free will and the ability to change our minds frequently.  In honor of Father’s Day seek out answers within you more often.  Never question your own intuition and never put all your faith in one entity or one set way of doing something.

In honor of Father’s day learn to create sacred space within yourself first. When you wake up each day keep track of your thoughts.  Are you sending comforting thoughts to yourself and your physical body or are you silently criticising yourself ?

You alone carry all the answers within you and you alone intuitively understand how and where to begin the process and long journey of self healing and renewal.

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Please don’t judge me based on my career Path!

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I wanted to share this with everyone here today! Sadly the work I do is not always revered or regarded with respect by a majority of people who reside here in the United States or other countries for that matter.
Just two days ago I was victimized on Craigslist because I responded to an ad from a man seeking a “gal friday” in exchange for reduced or no rent and a potential to earn extra money on the side.

I was toying with the idea of spending a month in Miami beach soon and I was hoping to find a nice live in situation where I could work and trade my skills which includes writing and cooking for a place to live.

I innocently responded using my email address butterflyshadows@aol.com and I asked how I could be of use to this man so I could share a space in exchange for work. This man without even responding to my email somehow linked me to my tantra website and started sending me text messages to my cell phone accusing me of being an “unwelcome pet” and he was going to monitor my account and my IP address as a violation of conduct.

So why am I the victim of harassment? Why did he decide that I am unworthy and I am a horrible human being because I teach tantra yoga and because I work with sacred sensuality? Am I committing a crime for wanting to help people and restore balance in someone’s life? Am I a horrible human being because I wanted to offer my skills or my ability to cook and clean and organize someone’s office space?

Instead of people judging first I wonder why people can’t be more civilized and humane and simply call directly on the phone rather than project their fear and their previous bad experiences or “wrongs” onto others. I feel this man had the need to misjudge and victimize me and report my account because he was taken advantage of by someone from his past and he felt the need to judge me and lash out on me because he sent me three angry text messages and said my account was going to be reported and monitored simply because I wanted to have reduced rent and respond to his ad using my real email address.

We have such a long long way to go before sex workers and healers are considered as equal as any other professional in this country. I don’t feel ashamed of who I am or what I represent I just wonder why there is so much ignorance and anger sent towards people in my field.
There seems to be so much misdirected angst and anger and so much healing that needs to be done on our inner psyche.

Why should we project a sense of anger or unworthiness unto anyone without first getting to know that person first? Shouldn’t we be judged by our actions and our conduct first?

Kundalini Awakening is different for everyone but always uniquely yours to experience

What is kundalini Energy? Unless you have had a lucid dream or unless you have awakened in the middle of the night with an out of body experience it’s hard to understand exactly what a kundalini activation feels like.

I have had several kundalini experiences and MOST of them were non sensual in nature. I do have good memories of a rather soothing kundalini activation right after I received a good sports massage that was not sensual at all but rather healing. After my therapist left the room I received warm, soothing vibrations of gentle electricity along each of my vertabrae. I was unable to move my limbs or even open my eyes. I heard a gentle humming vibration buzzing and sounds in the room became muffled. I was a bit scared but realized it was me. My own energy was surging and I just had to go with it and relax without being scared and without judging. I must admit it is a bit scary when you feel your limbs are going numb or tingling but if you simply allow the energy to flow it can be revitalizing, uplifting or emotional. You might find yourself especially raw or over emotional for a day or two afterwards so I am not saying it’s fuzzy and cotton candy enjoyable. Sometimes a kundalini awakening is raw and jagged and jarring. You feel like you are becoming more irritable but if you see it as a process or a building block towards enlightenment then it is a trip worth taking and it is completely organic in nature.

During tantra we breathe a lot together. In fact during a session I will often take a moment to breathe deeply into my heart so I can activate my heart more fully and give more of my heart energy to my guest. I will encourage my guest to breathe fully so that energy is not just trapped in one chakra or space but circulates everywhere.

Last night I felt a more intimidating activation that was more forceful in nature. I was awakened from a lucid dream to a “back massage” and my spinal column felt as if there was a hand held back massage machine going over each area of my spinal column. By the time the vibration hit between my shoulder blades I even felt my heart palpitating! Obviously the kundalini energy I was storing these past few months was released and the energy was deeply felt by me to the point where my own heart chakra was being awakened and healed.

If you think Tantra massage and Tantra yoga is for “entertainment” purposes only then think twice. If you think you are ready to be awakened and make progressive baby steps towards becoming more spiritually and physically alive and awakened then tantra is a viable tool that will allow you to let go of what you don’t need. You will find that your priorities are changing and you will find yourself being more open to engaging in new activities and new routines or people and places.

Because kundalini energies can express themselves differently depending upon your energy level and where you are right now you can expect that your own sensitivities will be much different from mine because you are unique and my journey is not yours. I can only promise you that you will eventually be able to have a “safe” kundalini activation when the time is right for you for you to receive YOUR OWN unique ENERGIES.

If you feel ready to begin your first tantra healing with me I can be reached at (312) 339-7707. I strongly advise you to combine tantra massage, tantra kundalini yoga, white tantra and reiki together so that you feel more benefits. You will potentially become more open minded and less fearful of trying new ways of being and existing. You will definitely become more aware of your body and potentially become more in tune or psychic. I am open to working with you in tiny baby steps or you can explore a full day of tantra with me and learn all the basics in one day.

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The true intention of tantra massage is Not about achieving orgasm; it is about activating your ability to feel pleasure!

Everyone wants to know what it feels like to achieve a full body orgasm but few people understand that the true intention of tantra massage is to attain greater body awareness, mindfulness and a better connection to your own body. How do we learn to let go of our expectations? We learn to let go of our goals by simply focusing on our body. If you can be still and relax in the moment during a tantra healing or a tantra massage your body will feel “safe” and you are then giving your body permission to do what it needs to do to let go and feel blissful.
Bliss can either be attained through a yoga class, meditation, tantra massage or any pleasurable activity that takes you away from your ego or your mind. Yes I know this sounds very esoteric or erudite but tantra massage is so much more important than just a bodily response to pleasure.
It is true that we trigger all our pleasure zones or centers during a teasing tantra massage and light touch can be just as healing as a deep sports tissue massage. Never underestimate that a light, sensual stroke can uplift your spirits and heal your heart center in a way that is far more profound than a swedish massage. I recommend that if you are to fully appreciate a light touch you let go of all your prior expectations of what you have heard about tantra.
Some people are under the misconception that tantra is just about the sensual pleasure and the art of Eros; but true tantra is a spiritual journey and a real oasis you can return to often anytime you wish to balance out your body’s desires to be held sacred and your raw sexual energy. I would not go into a tantra ceremony with a long list of goals but focus on the breath and the results you achieve gradually over a few month’s time.
One needs to be patient with their tantra teacher and once you realize that the orgasm is simply a wonderful after affect of the energetic process of sensual awareness you can overcome your sense of fear and your lack of confidence with others.
You approach a tantra massage with an open heart and a willingness to learn more about yourself and your boundaries. If a touch is exceedingly pleasurable this is where you want to stretch out the breath and try and enjoy the sensations without guilt and without judgment. Do not think of having an orgasm. The major goal here is to feel a sense of being out of your body and out of your own mind. Do not think, do not doubt and just let the sensations unfold slowly. When you begin to feel numbness or tingling or warmth that is a good sign that your energy centers are beginning to communicate with each other and your sexual energy is traveling through all the different conduits slowly. Do not be disappointed with yourself if you only feel numbness. Do not worry if nothing seems to be build into the ultimate pinnacle of pleasure. You should relax and breathe in every sensation allowing the energies to flow where they need to be because energy tends to congregate in those areas of your body that needs the most healing.

Tantra is about renewal, regeneration and being fully present in each moment. We need to be patient with ourselves no matter how much or little we feel during a tantra ceremony. It is important to know that our body’s are wise and our body’s have an innate knowledge of what we are ready to experience regardless of whether we are able to achieve orgasm or not.The Mermaid

Tantra is the practice of achieving complete self actualization and personal power ♡❤

Dear Audience, what I am about to share with you is very sensitive but truthful information on how to open up your heart to more love and self awareness. Unless you have taken the time to have a reiki session or a kundalini yoga class you might not be aware of how you are judging yourself or the world around you.
Tantra yoga which is something I teach to my students is the quickest route to self healing, self realization and an opening up of all the chakra systems in your body.

During our day to day life we are faced with people’s opinions and judgments of us. We can be influenced and swayed a certain way if we are not firmly grounded into our own body and our own being. It’s hard to read people’s motives because we all have varied and vast life forming opinions based on how we were raised and our environmental stimulus.

When we are bombarded with information and other people’s opinions we can lose sight of what we need and what we create which is more important than what other people want you to believe.

We create our own reality based on what we think other people want or need of us. Tantra teaches us to fine tune our thinking. We stop and we listen to our bodies and we breathe deeply and more profoundly taking the time to honor yourself. We want to connect to our body’s ability to heal itself. We want to be aware of the temperature of the room, the sounds of our environment and the depth of breath we are taking in. We pause and we sustain consciousness.

I want everyone to let down their guard and just think about the fact that we are made of pure energy. Each wheel of energy has an affect upon the other energy circles or chakras. Tantra is a lot like Reiki because we focus on circulating our energies everywhere envisioning a circle or egg shaped circuit beginning with our base chakra or root chakra and traveling to the top of our heads and circling back down to our tail bone.

We use our sexual energy to recharge and refreshen all of our energy bodies not just one part. We want to synchronize and heal any old wounds and traumas by envisioning our sexual sacred energy as a powerful conduit of energy that can reestablish a lost connection between all our chakras. Each part of our body becomes more sensitive and more acutely aware of the power that resides within us.

Ultimately the goal of tantra is to reconnect you with your own intuition or inner voice. We want to reprogram our body into being fully open and empowered or “awakened”. I want to be a part of that important catalyst and help people learn that being “open” and loving is their given birth right. When you doubt your own ability to heal you are halting your own progression.

Every time I establish a new connections with someone who comes to me for a healing I know that I am calling forth to me someone who is vibrating at a very similar state of consciousness as I am. If there are issues that I myself am not dealing with personally I will have a natural tendency to attract anyone to me who is on a very similar path.

We need to learn we are all part of the same fabric. We learn together; we grow together and we feed each other vital energy on a daily basis whether we actively seek this out or not.

Human beings need to be “seen”. We need to share and we need to be held “sacred”. We all need respect and we all have to be honored for our uniqueness and our boundaries.

I love teaching people how to be more mindful of themselves and how to touch with intention and purposeful slowness. We are more than just “thinking” machines; we are pure energy learning how to create and manifest miracles in a human body.

Goddess Diana of Tantra Butterfly
Muse, Shaman,
Spiritual Entity having a Human experience in a physical body
We don’t achieve greatness by being still but being
STill will propel you to Greatness in due time.
Bliss is achieved when we achieve confidence
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Happy to be of service when you need to realize your dreams
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The Art of Becoming or evolving into a Sacred ♡♥ Intimate ❤

What to you is the true definition of Intimacy? What does the word Sacred mean? I believe that if you infuse an act with love and meaningful intentions that is creating a state of Being holy or Sacred. The word Sacred is used in many religious cults and belief systems. When we call someone or something sacred we immediately create a Silent act of consecrating that person or that belief system with an out of this body experience or Spiritual connotation.

I myself would rather be referred to as a Sacred Intimate rather than a “provider” yet we all use the word “provider” because we are of Service and we can be of use to someone as a service during a time of need. I see myself as a Sacred healer, a shaman, a muse, a confidante and a Guide but I still have human needs and I still possess weaknesses, ego struggles and inner conflict just like every one else on this Earth.

I strive to create a sense of play, sacredness, enthusiasm and Reverence during my daily walks with my dog or errands or healing tantra massage ceremonies. The term ceremony is an act of creating a time out of body experience that establishes boundaries, communication, symbols and intention. I am not just giving a “session” I am giving of myself. I want to infuse our time together with all of my positive energy and connect with you in a way that you feel “touched” and held sacred.

Sometimes it can be a struggle for any two people to connect and form a bond of intimacy. The act of having a conversation is intimate and just as important as sitting in silence, gazing quietly into your partner’s eyes. I allow you to simply be you, in the moment with me. I am offering much more than a deep tissue massage or a few hours of pampering; I am actually offering you the capacity to heal fully and transcend through trauma or pain to full joy.

You can always contract the services of an escort if you crave a bit of touch but you can make a conscious choice to select a Guide with real skills in the healing arts who can offer you not only a bit of companionship but true tools and skills you will learn and be able to integrate with all your future partners and relationships.

A Sacred Intimate wants to see your heart soar and take flight. A Sacred Intimate possesses intuition. She can see clearly into your pain or your craving to be seen and touched. She will cherish you and make you feel free to experience unconditional love for yourself. She is the Empath, the Mother and the Muse who awakens your Spirit and causes you to Question yur identity and current belief systems.

The Sacred Intimate is the Sacred Mother always smiling upon you and allowing you to make choices even if they are poor choices she never judges. The art of Sacred Intimacy involves safe boundaries. You both agree or make a Sacred pact and contract to speak to each other with complete attention and full respect. If anything triggers you or makes you feel unsafe or enraged you delicately request of the Sacred Intimate to stop and speak with you about your feelings as they are occurring. You share your joy, your memories and your fears. You explore these array of feelings with her because you know she will not judge you or the situation. If you feel the need to stop the session midway through you share that with her and you may want to continue at a later date or never again. Again there are no judgements here for as long as you are willing to try and be who you are in your authenticity.

Your agreement to begin your journey is all that your Sacred Intimate requires of you. If you are willing to at least let go of your fears and feel what the energy is like as opposed to just “imagining” what it can be like then that is all that matters. Try new things with your Sacred Intimate. Go outside and explore the city with your Sacred Intimate; you don’t have to be restricted or confined into one activity in an inside area. You are free to explore every sensual aspect of yourself.

I hope you join me this week in Chicago or maybe you might wish to sponsor me in your home city.

Goddess Diana
Sacred Intimate, Muse, Reiki Master, Massage therapist
and Confidante

Couples welcome!
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How Tantra can change your outlook on life and well being ♬♫

First of all if you are one who always resists change the practice of tantra and allowing a tantra Muse or tantra Guide to work with your intimacy issues or open your chakras will help you release old belief systems. You can hold onto your anger, your grudges, your sadness and your fear but in time your body will be rebel and you will be forced to change whether you are ready for the change or not.

We are in a constant state of flux day to day, second by second and as years go by we release our patterns or find road blocks showing us that if we don’t change our health may suffer or we might lose jobs that we once thought were always stable. If we don’t adjust our outlook and become a bit more creative and flexible we find that opportunities might cease to exist.

The practice of yoga, tantra massage, deep tissue massage and breathing helps us “release” anything in our consciousness that no longer serves us. Have you ever noticed the same body injuries repeating themselves in your life? Repeat illness or injuries are strong signs that you are going to need to change because there is a pattern in your life that you may be overlooking and you might ignoring your psyche.

We evolve each time we have a reiki healing and we can release old energy patterns each time we try something new. If you have never before tried Tantra with your partner I suggest contacting me in the city of Chicago this week because I wish to explore Couples Tantra with Beginners.

Tantra Couples for beginners need only take 90 minutes of your time and one of you will be the recipient of my Conscious touch with breathing instructions and guidelines so that your partner can learn some basic touch and breathing skills that you can practice on each day during your work week. If you can make time out in your lives for this Co creation of Sacred Space you can release all the negative toxins that may be preventing you from learning and growing together in your partnership.

I am here in Chicago and so excited to help you release your fears and help you move onto a better place within yourselves ready and able to change and move forward.

Goddess Diana
Reiki Master, Conduit, Tantra Muse,
Counselor and Couples Tantra Educator
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