Most people I meet here who are true native Chicagoans don’t make sense to me at all.

I’ll give you an example. I was at chiya chai in logan square over the weekend and this random female stranger with her friend knew my name and sat down beside me so excited because she said she’s a “HUGE fan of mine”.

She said she watched and appreciates my YouTube videos because she’s deeply interested in tantra.Yet when I asked if she personally subscribed to my channel she said No.
She is a licenced massage therapist who works In Chicago and said she sees me everywhere and she just invested $6000 of her money towards an online long distance course so she can be certified in sexual energy work.
She said part of the course required her to hire and receive sexual healing services from a trained professional yet she admitted she’s getting people she knows off the internet who aren’t truly trained but who are obviously excited about these studies so they are all working on eachother for free as trades yet not one of them is formally licensed yet.
She said she was THINKING of hiring me but she hasn’t supported my public Facebook pages nor has she subscribed to my channel nor has she called me to discuss the possibility of booking a session for herself. Oh and furthermore while she’s actively enjoyed my YouTube channel she hasn’t ever brought herself to actually hire me. Here’s the funny part though; she strongly suggested I contract her massage therapy services but isn’t that solicitation?  In other words I should hire her but I’m not professional enough according to her standards to be hired for my knowledge of traditional tantra massage and yoni healing.
She admitted to me her mother recently died leaving her with money and this woman is my age and definitely doesn’t take good care of her physical health because she definitely didn’t age well yet she’s deeply desirous of obtaining a degree long distance online yet not interested in hiring a trained professional to work on her– yet I’m supposed to believe SHE’S A FAN WHO ADMIRES ME!?

oh yeah so then she offered me a free passcode into her online course illegally so I could take the course instructions for free and cheat this school?!

I’ve learned a lot in my lifetime…mostly that my peers are hypocrites.

They claim to be admirous of the work I do yet they aren’t keen on hiring me, nor liking my Facebook pages, or referring me to friends or even subscribing to my channel. For some odd reason I’m viewed here as an oddity or a stigma.

I’ve nothing more to contribute today…

I’m tired of trying to understand what motivates people into deceiving themselves and others.

One thing I truly hate most though are liars and hypocrites.  If you can’t support fellow healers by OPENLY liking their public pages or YouTube channels then you’re not a TRUE FAN.  When you decide I’m simply not good enough to hire for private reiki or tantra healings then don’t profess to be my fan.

I hate lukewater people. You either decide to forge ahead with a session to give their services an honest try for yourself or you’re deceiving yourself.

Sex workers should support eachother.  I’ve been following my true passion for 25 years and if my own Native Chicagoans can’t fully honor my convictions and my skillset then don’t profess to be my fan or ally. You are neither.