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First of all let me say my personal email address is tantragoddessdiana@gmail.com and butterflyshadows@aol.com. There is an imposter by the name of Stephanie who embedded my website title Tantra Butterfly into the body of a phony gmail account and she owns a personal blog known as the The Sensual Foodie.
Although Stephanie looks nothing like me she used pictures from my website http://www.tantrabutterfly.com and promised certain students that they would be meeting up (with me) but instead she is an escort service as a side job and a chef by trade.
This outrages me especially since I put in a lot of effort to educate myself and when I found out what Stephanie was doing I was not only hurt but I requested she cease and desist. She now linked this blog to her TER review message board profile under her fake alias otherwise known as Butterfly.
I don’t go by the name Butterfly I use my birth name which is Diana. Eventually anyone who does follow the tantric path will begin to see a shift in their personality. It will be harder for a true tantrika to be able to handle baser energies from seekers or competitors.
I can not be held responsible for plagiarism and since Stephanie won’t cooperate with me and take down her fake gmail account and unlink her profile from this blog eventually I will have to invest in the legal services of a good attorney.
To avoid confusion the best way to reach me will always be my one and only cellular number which is 312-339-7707 and my email accounts affiliated with http://www.tantrabutterfly.com
Tantra is a journey of self love and boundaries. We honor our own choices and we learn from our students and our teachers integrating each new technique and making it our own.
Have you ever felt an instant connection with someone just by feeling their vibe on the phone? Sometimes all it truly takes is a voice vibration and you feel deeply connected to your student or teacher or you simply feel uncomfortable and uneasy.
Go with your initial instinct. Don’t be afraid to state your goals when you first meet your teacher.
A true Dakini or Tantra priestess is a woman who is in her spiritual power. She does not need to look behind her or ask the counsel and advice of other Goddesses. She is self assured and in her spiritual power because she has experienced a Kundalini awakening most likely a strong feeling of energy rush through her prior to engaging in the Tantric path.
In tantra yoga the woman is both healer, priestess and Sex Goddess but her power lies not just in her beauty or the shakti power between her genitals– her true power is in her ability to see her Goddess hood.
So now I ask of you — What does it take for a woman to own her power and call herself a true Goddess? A goddes is poised and she does not seek approval from men in order for her to feel her divine feminine energies awaken. A Goddess inspires a man to feel like a God. Must a Goddess wear make up and tight mini dresses and high, spiky heels to prove to her man that she is worthy of his love and approval? Is A Goddess required to wear an erotic harem outfit for her lover in order for him to feel fully aroused as he greets her? A true goddess does not rely on plagiarism or copying someone else’s style. She is self possessed without being “selfish”.
A true goddess does not jump to conclusions when her lover withdraws his affections and isolates himself in his thoughts. A goddess is a healer who conspired to honor herself and seek the truth from her lover establishing healthy boundaries so her lover can follow her conscious lead. Women are natural healers and Shamans. We need to take back our power that we gave to someone else and realize that we should never be afraid of disapproval just because society dictates that women must act or look a certain way to appease others.
My path is a Conscious path to awaken my heart and my student’s heart through Conscious touch, Sacred breath and a contract to heal and not harm.
Please visit my main website and enjoy the beauty I have created for you!
Goddess Diana of http://www.tantrabutterfly.com 
Women’s role as dispenser of ‘spiritual attainments’ was undertaken not just for pleasure, but out of compassion for the world. One example of this is the story of King Dombia and low-caste female tantric Dombiyogini, who transformed themselves into Buddha’s through their sacred union. Dombiyogini composed many songs of realization (vajra-songs). In one song she celebrates how communion between female and male Buddha’s generated waves of harmony, nectar that satisfied “the spiritual hunger in the hearts of living beings everywhere.”
I challenge you as a Conscious, evolved, Spiritually evolved Being to wear a Chastity Belt during our first or second session together.
One of my most satisfying and energetic healings took place two years ago in the city of Chicago when I met with a physician whose wife demanded he wear a Chastity belt when she had to travel on weekends.
Let me share my story with you and hopefully during your next lingham healing you might consider this intense experience in holding back pleasure and being a more mindful Shiva ❤
Learning to Heal the Lingham by wearing a Chastity Belt!
yes you seem very puzzled. Lingham honoring and Lingham worship is interpreted typically with hands on healing and a more assertive yang touch but you can also use mindful meditation, chanting, subtle breathing and pure Reiki to bring energy flow to the lingham.
I speak from first hand knowledge because of the requirements of one particular student whose wife insisted he must wear a Chastity belt on weekends away from
her.
This man came to me about two years ago to my temple space in Chicago with one special need. He said he would be allowed to enjoy one of healing ceremonies but his wife required him to wear a Chastity belt at all times when she is not in his presence. I told him there is no need for me to place his hands on his lingham and through joined breathing and kegel exercises I could bring him to state of heightened arousal through my Goddess presence, my voice, my toning and Reiki.
He was very curious to see what energies we could achieve together and he had never had a tantra healing before so his curiosity was peaked and I agreed to honor his boundaries for our shared Sacred Space.
He was a delight for me to work on and I truly did feel honored as a Goddess. I wore a tiny hip skirt with coins to shield part of my yoni and focused on contracting and relaxing my kegel muscles and opening up my Shakti flow so he could feel my intense Goddess energy. The act of constantly contracting and restricting your yoni opens up your own divine female energies and if you focus on the breathing deeply into your heart chakra while contracting and relaxing your kegel muscles you can open your heart to receiving your own Goddess energy and help transmute that message of Sacred Goddess love and Goddess yoni healing into your partner’s energy body.
At one point during our time together he gasped and warned me that my hair was slightly brushing against his lingham by accident through his Chastity Belt so I held my hair back in a pony tail and allowed him to simply feel the gentle breath from my mouth arouse and heal his lingham with my warm heart and throat chakra energies.
I encourage him to deeply breath my Goddess energy into his heart chakra slowly and with the intention of sending my energy into his heart chakra. I had him constantly contract and relax his lingham through the Chastity belt allowing him to forcefully send him Shiva energies up to his heart and his higher chakras.
He was able to send and protract all the sensual pleasures of his lingham into his third eye, his Crown Chakra and his heart center all through mindful meditation.
Although we were both challenged by the limitations of “no direct or forceful touch” this was a very rewarding ceremony for me and I did feel completely honored as a strong Goddess being mindfully present and perhaps even more energetically connected through this sensory deprivation than my more traditional Lingham honoring sessions.
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Photo: Learning to Heal the Lingham by wearing a Chastity Belt! yes you seem very puzzled. Lingham honoring and Lingham worship is interpreted typically with hands on healing and a more assertive yang touch but you can also use mindful meditation, chanting, subtle breathing and pure Reiki to bring energy flow to the lingham. I speak from first hand knowledge because of the requirements of one particular student whose wife insisted he must wear a Chastity belt on weekends away from her. This man came to me about two years ago to my temple space in Chicago with one special need. He said he would be allowed to enjoy one of healing ceremonies but his wife required him to wear a Chastity belt at all times when she is not in his presence. I told him there is no need for me to place his hands on his lingham and through joined breathing and kegel exercises I could bring him to state of heightened arousal through my Goddess presence, my voice, my toning and Reiki. He was very curious to see what energies we could achieve together and he had never had a tantra healing before so his curiosity was peaked and I agreed to honor his boundaries for our shared Sacred Space. He was a delight for me to work on and I truly did feel honored as a Goddess. I wore a tiny hip skirt with coins to shield part of my yoni and focused on contracting and relaxing my kegel muscles and opening up my Shakti flow so he could feel my intense Goddess energy. The act of constantly contracting and restricting your yoni opens up your own divine female energies and if you focus on the breathing deeply into your heart chakra while contracting and relaxing your kegel muscles you can open your heart to receiving your own Goddess energy and help transmute that message of Sacred Goddess love and Goddess yoni healing into your partner’s energy body. At one point during our time together he gasped and warned me that my hair was slightly brushing against his lingham by accident through his Chastity Belt so I held my hair back in a pony tail and allowed him to simply feel the gentle breath from my mouth arouse and heal his lingham with my warm heart and throat chakra energies. I encourage him to deeply breath my Goddess energy into his heart chakra slowly and with the intention of sending my energy into his heart chakra. I had him constantly contract and relax his lingham through the Chastity belt allowing him to forcefully send him Shiva energies up to his heart and his higher chakras. He was able to send and protract all the sensual pleasures of his lingham into his third eye, his Crown Chakra and his heart center all through mindful meditation. Although we were both challenged by the limitations of “no direct or forceful touch” this was a very rewarding ceremony for me and I did feel completely honored as a strong Goddess being mindfully present and perhaps even more energetically connected through this sensory deprivation than my more traditional Lingham honoring sessions. ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤
The healing work I do is in service first and foremost to the Goddess and The Wounded Warrior.
What is a wounded Warrior? The wounded warrior is healer who selflessly sets aside time to his closest friends. He is a shaman, he is a poet, he is a thoughtful friend and he will go out of his way to make sure you are comforted during a crisis.
And here is where I come in the picture. I am a Muse or a divine priestess of unconditional light. Now
this does not mean that I am a punching bag for what ails you but I am here to assist in any way even if only to make you relax in the present with me and focus on sensory pleasures through essential oil scents or the lightest stroke of my fingertips on your skin.
Sensual healing or abandon in Eros is a gift we must receive. It keeps us alive and it gives us hope if we can find something joyful to look forward to. In order to give your very best you must restore and balance your own energy and to deprive yourself a natural impulse is to deny that your body even exists in this space and time. We ground our senses through the first chakra known as the base chakra. When we get a true sense of our sexual energy we cord firmly to the present and we align ourselves to the very core of the Earth. We are like trees. We need water, sunlight and a pristine environment that sends us unconditional love. We branch out when we feel secure and loved.
Goddess Energy is healing energy and it is the fountain of hope and youth. When you are able to achieve full body orgasm you remain vital, active and refreshed. Your skin glows and your mind becomes clearer with your truest intentions. During Tantric yoga we learn that the initial intention directs our focus and our energies. Don’t simply exist in your present reality. Learn how to master your sensory gifts and expand your consciousness. Set aside some ME time and be decadent!
Ideally I recommend women schedule a two hour healing with me for their first journey into tantra and Yoni empowerment.
Why do we need so much time? Because women were born with the natural ability to have multiple waves of orgasmic bliss and thus we are very blessed and very fortunate –we are naturally tantric!
Our goals may all be varied. Perhaps you are out of tune with your own body’s needs. Maybe it has been a long time since you experienced the pleasure of touch without limiting goals and expectations. Some of us are very blessed and we can achieve full body bliss naturally with little guidance. Some of us are very much attune and in the moment as we open up to receive full body pleasure with expectations.
But what do we do if are not multiorgasmic? How do we express our unique needs to our partners unless we uncover our hidden treasures and our strong divine feminine presence?
We all want to feel feminine and empowered. We want to carry ourselves as Goddesses and we want to explode in passion for our lovers being overcome in the joy of Goddess hood.
But what do we do if we came from repressive childhood experiences? What if we were not honored but simply “controlled” by our parents and we were not made to feel safe or powerful? This complicates our sexual aura and we might have challenges picking partners who reflect our powerful Goddess energy. If we feel powerless and misunderstood how can we attract a man or a woman in our lives who can honor our creative life force?
Tantric yoga is the empowering of your yoni. A goddess reawakening is like a Baptism and we are allowed to really feel for the first time in our lives. Our gentle yonis can become numbed if our backgrounds did not allow us to receive the gentle touch we deserve.
The work we do together is necessary work and one of these days you might wake up realizing time has gone by too quickly and you still have needs and strong desires that have not been fulfilled or explored.
Women are sensitive, caring, sensual creatures. When we are fully awakened our sexual energy has the power to create more abundance in your life and make you a far more intuitive being with a grounded confidence and assuredness. When you are allowed to release your pent up sexual energy in the form of amrita you gradually awaken your pineal gland and you heal your endocrine system without the need for medication. We can poison our bodies with negative self thought and medications or we can become empowered healers and shaman women who are fully in control of our bodies and our choice in partners.
When you focus on the moment and we learn circular breathing techniques we become fully alive and we have the potential to achieve orgasms anywhere and everywhere in the body if we learn to release guilt and expectations of ourselves and others. Even the mere touch of a feather will send mind blowing waves of electricity throughout your being. We learn to activate our chakra system with light, water touch a touch so powerful it supersedes the need for a deep tissue massage.
When you focus on healing your yoni your physical pain subsides and your pelvis is freer and less tight to the touch. When you have a juicy yoni and a relaxed pelvis you activate the waters in your second chakra and this is known as “stirring the waters”. It is not necessary for you to engage in sexual intercourse in order to heal your trauma. It is a conscious touch activated with your conscious breath that allows you to open up the opportunity for kundalini shakti or full body awakening.
Sometimes due to social conditioning women are expected to be vocal or orgasm on command or simply fake it for the sake of not injuring the fragile ego of her lover. Some women have shut down their sexual drive because of their religious belief systems or a sense of guilt or a feeling that sex is not important. Some unfortunate few have never known the pleasure of gentle foreplay in a non rushed and loving environment. Here is where tantric yoga becomes the healing agent of the Divine feminine. We have a right as women to state our sexual needs so that we can be honored and held sacred in a state of complete honor and non judgement. We have the right to receive pleasure without feeling guilty. We deserve this and bliss is our birth rite!
Tantric massage focuses on openness and teaches us how to accept our bodies and be fully present and relaxed during the sacred act of receiving pleasure from ourselves or from our partner.
Did we even begin to mention that this pathway can change our outlook on life and can change your opportunities for enhanced confidence and more creative flow? You are a sexual being. You are a fully energized being with Kundalini Shakti energy just waiting to be active and empowered. Our possibilities are endless and our bodies should be honored and explored as sacred temples. If you can learn to control and connect your breath with your body and your sexual power you can lose yourself for that one moment in time and taste unbridled passion. I am not saying this will happen all at once in session. In fact I am not even promising you can achieve all this in the span of a year. Since we are constantly changing and evolving we can explore our orgasmic potential and realize we are expanding heart and yoni consciousness safely and intuitively ON OUR TIME and no one else’s time table.
Our heart chakras hold the key to our Yoni. When we massage around our breasts and tap our sternums we awaken our fragile emotions. We circumvent the yoni initially starting with our hearts and holding hands because our inner palms are an extension of our heart chakra energies.
In a Tantric Massage, your whole body will be sensually awakened. As we know, it takes time and a full body approach to arouse women fully. As a woman’s positive sexual pole is in her heart, around your breasts will be massaged to open your heart, which then opens the channel between your heart and your yoni. Only then would a woman be ready for yoni massage, and only if she wants it. It may take a couple of sessions before you feel ready, and that’s ok.
The main goal of a tantric massage is to help you learn more about your body and to help you establish healthy boundaries on touch. You will be in complete control during our shared time together. You will actively give a voice to all your needs and goals. I am here to help you uncover trauma with gentle and intentional touch. Our vaginal walls can collect tension, stress, scar tissue and armouring from years of neglect or abuse. If we send out harmful thoughts to our yonis our yonis contract energetically and become shut down. The purpose of our time together is to help you open up these wounds and help you get rid of unneeded and unhealthy negative self talk. We don’t necessarily look for a full body orgasm when we honor and heal the yoni but we do send healing light and try for a tender approach so that you feel honored and you can slowly get in touch with your feminine desire.
Hello Loverly Ladies….Have you been touched lately?
Are your Lush, rivers flowering or have they been neglected?
Did you know a loved yoni can attract the most positive and attentive energies towards you? Are you stuck in a career or cross roads in your life where you are not sure of your footing anymore? Who isn’t a bit “stuck” now in again. We can not always be “in flow” or in a state of gr
Are your Lush, rivers flowering or have they been neglected?
Did you know a loved yoni can attract the most positive and attentive energies towards you? Are you stuck in a career or cross roads in your life where you are not sure of your footing anymore? Who isn’t a bit “stuck” now in again. We can not always be “in flow” or in a state of gr
ace so that is where tantric yoga fits into your ritual of healing. We have Reiki for smoothing out our aura bodies. We have true, trigger point massage to drain the exhaustive and toxic waste from our muscles. We have sound healing to bring tears to your eyes. We have deep breathing and re birth breathing to help you along with your daily anxieties and panic attacks. And we have Conscious touch which allows us to be better in alignment with our bliss.
Tantric yoga like any other Yogi ritual is a dance you learn. We share a Sacred Space where we can simply unfold and get “lost” in our Divine Feminine Essence.
We are not “weak” by exploring our Goddess side we are actually far more strong than our Masculine energies and we can move more energy and influence with our tenderness more so than our roughness.
Let me be your patient Guide and reawaken your Divine Feminine energies again.
Open your yoni in a safe sacred space. Perhaps it has been a while since you were tenderly touched. Perhaps your yoni needs the remembrance of a soft voice or gentle encouragement again that she can come out to play.
Tantric yoga like any other Yogi ritual is a dance you learn. We share a Sacred Space where we can simply unfold and get “lost” in our Divine Feminine Essence.
We are not “weak” by exploring our Goddess side we are actually far more strong than our Masculine energies and we can move more energy and influence with our tenderness more so than our roughness.
Let me be your patient Guide and reawaken your Divine Feminine energies again.
Open your yoni in a safe sacred space. Perhaps it has been a while since you were tenderly touched. Perhaps your yoni needs the remembrance of a soft voice or gentle encouragement again that she can come out to play.
Women tend to naturally “tantric” in nature so once we teach you how to send positive thoughts into your yoni you will be in a state of emotional release and the time we spend will feel un rushed and soothing to you.
Women tend to need two full hours of tantric healing whereas a man typically can be satiated with a full 90 minute healing. I always recommend women schedule two hours for a thorough reawakening to bliss session and if you feel your husband or partner should participate and be fully present we can invite him as my assistant during a slow moving four handed massage.
Your joy is our shared journey and each healed Yoni yields so much Divine life force we are each powerfully activating Universal Shakti Pat ♥
Part of the Art of True Tantric Yoga is the choice that the Dakini has in hr life. Part of the art of selectively and hand picking your Dakini is to honor her boundaries and establish your goals and desires.
Do you feel at easy with the person on the phone you are talking to?
If not this is probably not going to be a good or healing experience for the dakini or the seeker who is wanting to connect with their sensual pleasures.
I have boundaries even though I teach couples tantra.
I am a moving, healing, sentient being who requires mutual trust and connection.
I simply desire everyone call me with an open heart and an open mind and a need to learn something powerful.
But let us uphold each other’s boundaries and when we do decide to meet let us use real names not fake stage names and not fake google numbers.
if you can’t be mature about your needs don’t expect me to be able to work with you on your bliss.
Bliss is everyone’s true birthright to explore and this is not some crazy, hedonistic, sex orgy but a real opportunity to explore your inner divinity in a Sacred setting with real boundaries.
I am sharing you a true account so you can gain some understanding of the work I do and the sometimes childish behavior I must encounter on my path.
I don’t find it flattering at all to know that after spending in depth time answering someone’s questions I was used as their private sick fantasy or “joke”. To dishonor me and dishonor the work I do is simply not in alignment with the work of the Goddess.
A REAL LETTER SENT TO ME BY A LOST and CONFUSED SOUL
by Diana Grossman on Saturday, August 11, 2012 at 1:27pm ·
Dear audience,
I choose to share this open letter sent to me this past Thursday by a prospective
couple who misunderstood what I have to offer.
I had spent 30 minutes on the phone with her husband “frank” on his google
subscription number which might have been my first big mistake.
Typically people who are seeking thrills only entertainment call me from a google
number and typically include an alias.
frank told me the last time he set up a couples session a young woman came to his
home wearing jeans and informed them an additional $50 would be required for their
1.5 hours session so that he would need to cough up $250 for 90 minutes of a couples
massage.
I explained to him my pricing and asked if it was affordable.
I offered workshop training and said I would be overjoyed to use each person as a
class demo so that each person of the four could enjoy an authentic healing.
I never never said I was on the menu.
I never said I would be dressed up as an escort or hooker.
I never said I expected tips for extras.
I said I offered chanting, Reiki training and true breathing techniques and that they
would all have a turn as the class demo and I would even observe how they understood
my demo by giving each one a chance to work on each other so that if they had questions
they could have time to inquire and stop me if they did not understand what we were doing.
I suggested that each person join me for the hands on healing and each member of the group
will assist me so that the receiver will actually give us all feedback and we can learn from
the receiver.
I never never said I would be engaging in sexual intercourse as it is not an offering on my
menu.
Since “Susan Gibson” decided to “get off” on my energy for that day without my permission
I decided in fair energy exchange and I am sharing her letter to me with all of you
for my own private AGENDA AS A TOOL OF EDUCATING AND ENLIGHTENING ANYONE and
everyone who chooses to read my notes today .
I will also be uploading this on my blog today as fair and equal exchange of energy since
they basically wasted my time for their private entertainment and titillation AT MY
EXPENSE.
Diana,
You talked to my Husband Frank last night about a tantra class/massage for us and another couple. First off, I am not sure what you two talked about in detail, but I should thank you because when I got home last night, he meet me at the door and we never made it out of the hallway, something that has not happened in awhile!!
What you are suggesting for an eveing sounds very exciting, and I want to pursue this more, but we need a little more time before we can do this with the other couple. We need to talk about this a little more since this will be a level of intimacy we have not done before. Yes we all have been to nude beaches together and nude on our back deck and in our hot tub, but not to this level. The most we have done is our husbands talked her and I into kissing and playing a little with each other for them to watch, but we would need to talk some more since I am sure there will be intercourse between all 5 of us. If I am wrong on that, please let me know. I know this is not sex, this is much more and I am open, in fact very aroused about doing this, so let make sure its going to be well received by all.
Sorry if I am rambling, this is new for me to talk about. We may have you come for just us next week sometime, and we will talk to the other couple about it more this evening. Just need to be sure we are all on the same page first.
BTW, I love the Blue Hair!
Diana Grossman
Aug 9 (2 days ago)
to Susan
My dear friend. I do not engage in sexual intercourse with anyone 🙂
I do allow mutual touching, healing, kissing of the chakras if that is
something YOU would enjoy.
I am very pure and pristine. I am not a hooker or escort service but
a genuine shaman. Yes I am not angry
with you at all for implying we shall have sex. This is not a fivesome 🙂
I am happy to see you tonight or this weekend or just you and your
husband next week if that is what YOU
prefer.
I have been reviewed on message boards by low class people and people
who have valued me.
Because I do not engage is sexual intercourse some people chose to
write the cruelest remarks about me
online and the one true blue clients who loved what I had to offer (a
real healing) wrote some wonderful
reviews of me online.
It is a pity that tantric yoga is not fully understood and this is
truly the fault of HBO. Yes we can have the
potential to have multiple orgasms and you can share a greater bonding
with your friends and your husband
with singing, breathing, mutual touch and real healing.
I told your husband the truth about what i offer. I told him you
would all have a turn at being a class demo meaning I will work on
each one of you. Then I would have all of YOU join me and assist me
in the massage so
the receiver of this sensual and therapeutic massage will be
thoroughly in bliss and loved and that person will give us good feed
back or suggestions for how we can all help heal them more.
It is a profound experience. If you have questions for me call me
today. I am low key today and I ended up
not working early this morning as I planned. A lawyer (chickened out
so to speak).
This is supposed to be enjoyable and not complex or creepy. We are
not “molesting” each other or having an
orgy this is hands on healing and I take my work seriously since this
is what I enjoy doing.
I was a born healer and touch is what I do best. I will teach all of
you how to give an authentic healing tantric yoga
massage that stimulates and calms the energy down.
Do reach out to me today and discuss this with your friends. You have
my permission to have them call me and or you have my permission to
forward this email to them.
I am not an escort i don’t have sex with anyone (but the stupid
message boards online sometimes lie).
I can only say you would have a fun time and hopefully learn some
valuable skills. This is not complex it’s meant to be simple, organic
and easy on the body!!!
If I don’t hear from you today hopefully call me when you have some
time to chat.
Thanks so much,
Goddess Diana
On Thu, Aug 9, 2012 at 8:45 AM, Susan Gibson
The yoni is a Sacred Temple
Yes this month was my Birthday (the entire month not just the day). And for that matter every day is my Birth day because each day we wake up we give birth to new ideas, the potential for new understandings, new experiences, new friends and lovers and new manifestations.
Our travels don’t always go as planned or as smoothly and care free as we wish; but each day is a chance to surrender what you think you know and simply let go of your ego and realize you don’t everything you think you know.
How can you know what is in someone’s heart? We only know what someone tells us and this is their truth and sometimes we don’t always share 100% of our heart’s intentions to protect ourselves from pain.
Sometimes we hear pleasant news. Yes the one we love does truly love us and we can forge ahead, making grand schemes and feeling secure that no matter what lies ahead there will be our lover waiting with a kind ear and encouraging words and some sensual play.
But what if you hear bad news? What if your lover says the following:
I love you but I am not IN LOVE with you?
What does that mean to you? Does this mean they are not completely devoted to serving and supporting you on your journey and you are wasting your time being hopeful when feelings are not returned? We all love to degrees and our experiences and understanding of love is uniquely our own to taste.
Perhaps you love blindly. You know what you like and you forge ahead recklessly knowing it’s worth the chase and this person “will grow” to love you just as you fervently love them. Yes you have that gut intuition and you know they will change. But sometimes people won’t change. Sometimes it is not you it’s just that they don’t know who they are but they know they need that support system from within and it’s nice that you are there and it’s nice to know that you do love them but see that is the crux of the problem. How can you truly love someone if you have no peace in your heart? How can you love someone anyone if you are never comfortable in your own skin or never fully present and comfortable in your present environment.
We carry our problems and our peacefulness with us in little precious mojo bags. We are who we are and we see ourselves in the reflection of our perceived beloved.
Is your lover emotionally present for you? Can your lover accept you, accept your flaws your frailty your changing moods and support you unconditionally without faltering or critiquing you harshly?
Sometimes we think we are in love but we are just in love with the idea that someone might find us appealing and desirable. If you can float on a pink, cushy cloud of hope 24/7 with or without a Sacred Other you are being fully Conscious of your Divine Other. You are your Divine Other and there is no one like you in this entire Universe.
Yes it feels so good to be made love to and to connect your energy with someone who does respect you and honor you. Yes it’s good to receive a phone call daily and or nightly and hear your beloved’s voice reassuring you that you are special and your presence in this Universe is so appreciated.
But what if that love dies slowly and painfully yet you are not ready to let go so you do everything you think possible to change your looks or change your routine to impress the object of your affection.
You are determined to start and refresh your love and entice your lover back to you. But It can be a harsh game and a harsh learning lesson that the only one you can count on this Universe is you. You have to wake up each morning and honor your unique truth. You are responsible for your creative fire and flow. You are the gem that has that unique chance to change people and to change yourself.
So treat each day as a birthday. You are here to receive both pleasure and pain. No one can make you feel any emotion. No one is more important than you and no one holds that secret recipe or key to unlock your bliss. You can choose to be your sacred other and stay grounded and loved or you can be miserable and a complete wreck when someone’s eyes no longer shine for your presence.
I’d rather be surprised. Sometimes I am a bit grumpy and at other times I wake up knowing I will seize every opportunity I so richly deserve. Do what you like. Wear what you please. The only one who can never abandon you completely is yourself. If you can live with yourself and honor your mood changes and know this is a mutating process you can love the changes and accept each one and each challenge as they come along.
Happy Birthday to YOU!
Dear Compassionate Audience I am sharing my experience of a healing that somehow was not meant to be. I guess it is the tenderness in me that wishes to give every wounded soldier a try. Sometimes on the phone you can be deceived into thinking that there is good energy match between you and a new student of tantra.
Some newcomers to Tantric yoga are truly sincere and they are not simply seeking an entertainment purposes only session nor are they seeking an empty, carnal experience.
I am sharing my hurt today because again I am not a perfect being and I can attract a client (not a genuine seeker) but a client who wants to experience something not in my realm but rather an escort romp.
During one of my prior visits to the city of Chicago I received in excess of 20 text messages, 10 emails and no true voice voice phone call from an anonymous man or shall I call him “child” begging me for a late evening out call Goddess Worship ceremony at 1am to his hotel near O’hare airport. I explained to him that I prefer connecting with everyone more personally and could he kindly call me from a non blocked number rather than sending me numerous text messages and numerous emails. He used a very suspicious account and referred to himself as a Mr. Jack Meoff. I am not kidding you. I guess I should have just hit the delete button based on his choice of a screen name.
He shared with me a message board affiliated with adult’s only fun for adult boys and his ID membership MO is IB6UbwbeB69ing@gmail.com Wow. I was pretty scared to even respond to something so graphic but hey I have a light hearted side and I have a great sense of humor so I figured I would see if this man might be persuaded to receive a luxury bathing session at my space and actually receive a more authentic healing and the extra benefit of my beautiful flute music, a roomier more elegant setting and bubble bath for two.
He said he was trying to impress clients and finally he took some time out later that night on a Sunday to reach out to me and he said he was entertaining his clients at Gibson’s Steak house. He was very open about what he did for a living and I asked polite questions. He then asked me my pricing for three hours of Goddess healing and I told him all prices were clearly posted onto my site. He told me what he could afford so I charged him a sliding fee to be kind.
At about midnight I arrived at his hotel which was a run of the mill hotel chain near O’hare. Once he saw me he initially seemed happy but I could tell how nervous and tired he was. He was very tired and run down and he said what he needed more than anything was a really good deep tissue massage so he paid me $400 for three hours.
I was a bit upset considering he did not have any extra money to compensate me for a late night out call to his hotel nor did he realize my cab fare cost me $65 of that money so in essence I was mistreated and taken advantage of from the beginning.
Apparently I know this man suffers from a disorder of ASPD which is a psychosis and only certain people with this disorder appear oh so charming but he was also a liar. He deceived me into thinking he had a desire to learn how to pleasure the Goddess but all he wanted was a nude massage which anyone from off the street could have given him.
I donated extra time to him since he said he was not doing so well financially and he went on to complain about his home town in Detroit, Michigan and said how dangerous that city was. I listened intently and we shared a lot of laughter. If I had realized he wanted to be in complete silence I would not have replied to him but allowed him the silence he desired.
I found out only today that this person IB6UBWbeB69in wrote a false review of that evening . He posted a negative and false review of me on The Erotic Review insinuating that I was a chatter box, my rates were exorbitant for what you are getting (even though he decided against tantra) and that he visited me to a hotel room at my location and I had multiple cats. As far as I can say I left my cat at home in Chicago and this gentleman is not only rude but Psychopath who enjoys hurting women, and boldly lying to get his way.
I contacted him at his email address and he swore he never wrote the article even though his screen identity matches his email address perfectly.
Again I am not always able to read people as closely as I wish. I always try and help when I can and I try to adjust my offerings so I can meet a variety of people. I had no idea that my generosity would be taken advantage of.
here is what this man had to say about me. It appears my one large cat multiplied like the Movie “The Matrix”.
here is what he wrote about our shared time together:
IB6UB9WEB69ING’S REVIEW OF DIANA
appearance
VIP only
performance
VIP only
attitude
VIP only
atmosphere
VIP only
general details
OK first off be forewarned she has cats, I was unaware of this and did not expect it as it was a nice hotel.
OK Cat one big black one I saw and I assumed others.
Easy to contact and talk to on the phone, wants to talk to get to know you and talks quite a bit
I perhaps should have taken this as a clue the session despite promises of being quiet and relaxed
was her non stop chatter.
Anyway arrived at her hotel easily, clean upscale location. I was greeted at the door with a hug like
we were long lost lovers. We got comfortable and the session started with a massage.
VIPS read on, Non VIP I do not think I would repeat due to the cost and service provided as well
as the excessive chatter.
The Juicy Details
Since none of this did happen I decided to share this with anyone anyone at all who understands the nature of someone who likes to get what he wants, connives and lies over the phone then back stabs as an out right act of passive aggression because he can not communicate his needs in a healthy way.
Perhaps he was expecting an escort to come over in heavy make up and high heels. Perhaps he wanted something only an escort related service would provide. He lied on a general message board and slandered me . My next step is to obviously go through my phone records and permanently block him then warn others in my field against working with him or trusting his antics.
I have no clue what made him take out all his anger out on me. I decided to share this with other Goddesses in the event this information helps them decide how to screen more carefully. I know I sometimes listen to my intuition and sometimes I am stubborn and I want to reach out, cuddle and make everyone laugh but I found out today the hard way that not everyone wishes to be healed. Some people want to be in a miserable, stuck place of anger and negativity.
Namaste and Goddess Bless
My next article will be about My ideal Student so this ends on a much more upbeat note!
- It is YOUR responsibility not anyone else to hold sacred your truth and to clearly express yourself.
- What exactly Would you like to share with others? In a room full of vibrant people how do you make sure
that your needs are being met in a reasonable and sound way so that your unique voice can be heard in the din?
- Well being a Leo I have absolutely no issues in sharing my beliefs or LOUDLY exclaiming my feelings no matter how loudly I must shout. I call this my LEO primal scream. And Yes I have been known to scream if my needs are clearly being ignored. We all have a right to clear our throat chakras and if someone is blatantly taking advantage of you either through the written word or through verbal abuse you have every right to heal that imbalance and set the karma in motion for a complete healing to manifest.
- Some people are very very comfortable being in the spotlight. They have no innate fear of being noticed or being heard. Others are more hush hush and they will never dare to confront you (ever) yet the minute you have left the room they will of course share their meaty quips and slights against you with others.
- And how does that behavior serve anyone? The answer is that is SERVES NO ONE and it is not only completely selfish not to share your truths with others but silence cuts off all functions of the throat chakra and if you silence and shut down this chakra for too long not only will YOU NOT have your needs met but in time your body will indeed suffer from throat congestion and then of course this malfunction of the throat chakra will bleed into all the other chakra systems.
So how do I deal with inequality? I share that inequality with as many people as I please because we are all affected by karma and a twisted lie here and there bleeds into many aspects of your life and livelihood. Creating false information and slander about a person displays not only a strong lack of character but it is an unfair and inhumane way of creating chaos and an inequality that blocks love and blocks fairness.
So when I hear something incorrectly I ask someone I am listening to to please either speak up louder, explain what they are talking about or explain to me exactly where there are coming from because not everyone is gifted with words the first time around. Clear communication sometimes takes skill and practice. Clear and loving communication with the purpose of healing and not destroying is also challenging especially if we are annoyed with something or someone. How can we enable our throat chakras to radiate light? How can we heal a wrong? It’s difficult when we know some that some diluted people go out of their way to deceive because they delight in cruelty so if it comes to defending yourself like a tiger then in my opinion there is nothing wrong with reestablishing the balancing point.
When you catch someone in the act of lying –do something about it immediately. Question the person’s motives. Could there be misinformation about a matter or is the person purposefully and willingly drawing attention to themselves by knocking down someone elses credibility?
Here is how I heal my throat chakra: I sing, I chant, I breathe, I rage, I scream bloody murder and I write. Yes writing activates the throat chakra because writing is one of the deadliest weapons you can carry especially if you have a wide audience prepared to understand and prepared to re read and think for themselves.
I have my time for singing and chanting when I am in ceremony and I have my time for quiet reflection and writing when I have a seed of truth that needs to be shared and clearly expressed in a wider forum. Information can be a dangerous thing when it is in the wrong hands. Blindly believing everything we read is equally dangerous. You need to engage all your senses as you read. You need to tune into your own heart chakra and your own throat chakra and carefully listen to the words to see if this is YOUR truth or someone elses story or hysteria.
By all means speak up and clear the air. Visualize clear white, bluish light enveloping your throat and beaming from the inside out until your throat becomes a neon sign pulsing out to the Universe.
Do not be greedy share your voice with others. Share your burdens and concerns and questions in a clear, slow and definitive way. Be an example to others as you share yourself in a calm, healing, refined manner. If you are disappointed don’t pretend otherwise. Your throat will only benefit as you share your truths. In this way you are helping to Open up your throat chakra. Once you are used to an open throat chakra (you might never want to go back)! Be well ~~~> Express yourself with others and share the karma http://www.tantrabutterfly.com
Goddess Diana http://www.tantrabutterfly.com
Clearing the Throat Chakra and Balancing Karmic Debt with Panache ♡♥
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If someone misunderstood you or did not communicate with you in a loving way LET THEM KNOW
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