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Today is Father’s Day 🧸

Today is Father’s Day but I don’t miss my biological father who physically kicked my mother in the stomach when she was carrying me in her womb. In fact I still don’t respect my own mother who is also deceased because what kind of mother remains married to a man who would attempt to threaten the life of her unborn child?

I’m posting this information not to garner any sympathy but to help people understand that not all of us here had desirable childhoods or pleasant memories of our parents during these traditional Hallmark card American created Holidays.

I’m not even a tad bit sentimental or regretful today because both my parents failed me and they were in a sick codependent relationship with one another and when my mother found out my father was schizophrenic she was even considering an abortion and deeply worried that I myself would develop schizophrenia like my father since it is after all hereditary.

Well my father had a complete nervous meltdown when my mother became pregnant and she told me he had kicked her hard then spent several months in treatment in the hospital for his mental condition.

Medication and talk therapy can only do so much for anyone suffering from delusions and I knew my father became a completely different person when he got angry with me or my mother. You could literally see his dark, black pupils become so enlarged his brown eyes became pitch black and he no longer looked human.

My father was very abusive to me…I have good memories of him when he showed genuine compassion towards me but his cruelty outweighed anything good he showed me and If I could go back in time as a young child I’d love to relive all those scary instances but ideally I would have left my home physically and spent more time outdoors or at the library and escaped his blind rages.

Not every father is ideal for the position of parenting so only a handful of lucky people out there had good, healthy relationships with their mothers and fathers. At the very least some of us as children were blessed to have a good role model either in the form of an uncle, a teacher or a close family friend.

I myself spent a good part of my childhood and puberty hiding in fear from my father who was not only diagnosed with schizophrenia but truly possessed by demonic entities. I’d love to understand what on earth I must have done in a previous incarnation to deserve such a frightening childhood but I know it shaped my character and made me a more sensitive child more empathetic than my peers.

I remember also being bullied by children my own age from five years old to age 16. At times I’d defend myself and the children would eventually learn to steer clear of me if I decided to defend myself properly. Most of the time I didn’t do anything to defend myself and I’d just cry quietly to myself at home. If my mother found out I had been bullied she usually didn’t have sympathy for me at all; in fact she genuinely became angry at me and wanted to know how I could let any of these peers take advantage of me or beat me up.

I learned to avoid and isolate myself from children in my school and at times I’d fight back when enough was enough and I had had my fill. I certainly didn’t mind fighting back and I at times learned how to adequately defend myself from my father’s tantrums and misdirected anger.

I never celebrate Father’s Day here on my Facebook wall but I know it’s a special day for at least a few blessed people out there in social media who knew what it felt like to be deeply loved unconditionally and respected by their fathers.

I leave this here on my wall not to garner sympathy but to help others understand that we don’t all celebrate this Holiday. Some of us don’t to this day understand why we ended up with the parents we had. I know a psychic reader I hired last year acknowledged to me what I had already known. My father was indeed a Channel for Spirits…all Spirits even Malevolent Spirits. He couldn’t control what he received so the doctor’s misdiagnosed his clairvoyance and prescribed him with pills and other medications that no doubt made his visions that much worse and skewed his reality further.

My parents were VESSELS …they were important in that they brought me here. I’m alive and I myself am clairvoyant and clairsentient and clairaudient. I know how to ground my own energies and I’ve never allowed any entity to ” take over the steering wheel ”

I can filter what it is I wish to receive and I function well on my own independently . I truly do not desire nor crave anyone else to “compliment” or “complete” me. I’ve had so many things taken from me but I’ve endured it and I’m content. I would never refuse genuine help if it were offered up to me but I learned the hard way that help is rarely offered unless there are “strings” attached.

My upbringing made me more sensitive and strong. I learned not to expect too much from anyone and I learned as I got into adulthood that people you date can abandon you when you need them the most especially if you let your guard down and bared your true feelings to them.

Anyone can disappoint you at anytime. The key to being truly happy is self reliance, self respect and unconditional self love. You must be there for yourself and learn to hold your own hand during the darkness.

By the way I do not give readings to anyone.  I sometimes might give my clients advice and pick up information they may need to hear from their Spirit Guides or “higher power “; but I don’t want to “probe” anyone I don’t know personally and interfere in their journey.

My psychic abilities have lead me to understand that I should place complete faith in myself first because of my own bodily signals or slight panic attacks.  I learned from firsthand experience that if I do not honor my own intuition I will be misled or reap the consequences of being completely taken advantage of by people who don’t have my best interests in mind.

I have experienced what it feels like numerous times not to be listened to and not to be taken seriously especially by people who were in a position to guide me or offer me help.

I suggest that if any of you reading my blog get a nagging gut feeling within you that some path isn’t right for you that you honor yourself first and pay close attention to your body’s signals.  If you feel nauseous or sweaty or truly ill before a decision you’ve made you may need to change your intended course of action and back away and try another alternative plan.

No one will be able to predict an outcome for you because we always have free will and the ability to change our minds frequently.  In honor of Father’s Day seek out answers within you more often.  Never question your own intuition and never put all your faith in one entity or one set way of doing something.

In honor of Father’s day learn to create sacred space within yourself first. When you wake up each day keep track of your thoughts.  Are you sending comforting thoughts to yourself and your physical body or are you silently criticising yourself ?

You alone carry all the answers within you and you alone intuitively understand how and where to begin the process and long journey of self healing and renewal.

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Here’s to a bright new 2019 ♡

Health goals

Hello everyone who happened to find my blog either out of happenstance or because you followed the link directly from my main website http://www.tantrabutterfly.com!

If you aren’t familiar with astrology I myself always loved reading up on both Eastern and Western astrology ever since I was a teenager and my enthusiasm for Occult studies, Astrology and the Paranormal never wanes instead just like the waxing of the new Moon my curiosity always grows.

During our new moon last week I made sure I focused on some new goals for myself so I lit a very special manifestation candle because candle magick is especially powerful and magically infused as the moon gains in strength.

I trimmed my wavy hair just a bit at the ends to promote healthier growth and I did some self marketing to increase the potential for new clients discovering my offerings online. I also realized that my physical health should be examined more closely. I tend to love sweets especially good chocolate so I did a bit of personal research and read up on the proper way that fruits should be consumed for optimal health and that fruit consumption should be strictly on an empty stomach!

I read up on how fruits are better absorbed when you eat them raw and always before any other food group never after. In other words fruit should be eaten as a dessert rather fruits should be eaten early in the day prior to any other meals you intend to consume. I’ve naturally followed this new diet regime and I must say not only does my stomach feel better but my skin seems to glow more!

Ginger, turmeric and carrot juice

I have also made more of an effort to drink more raw vegetables so it’s much easier to make sure my new health goals are met painlessly and with very little effect on my part.

Tonight and tomorrow our super moon will be in Virgo which translated into Layman’s terms simply means we’ll be shedding layers and unhealthy, unrealistic expectations of what we should be and just be easier on ourselves.

Part of this super moon energy will be our willingness to part ways with toxix situations and or people interfering in our progress to achieve self awareness and contentment. We will stop comparing ourselves to others and become more self accepting rather than materialistic.

This year is also the year of the Boar in Chinese astrology which to me is wonderful news because I was born during the year of the Goat and Boar, Goat and Rabbit make up a triad of creative, peace loving, and emotionally based signs that go very well together! I am prepared to see beautiful changes unfold for 2019 and I hope all of you reading this message will be more mindful of creating small, positive changes in your life rather than focusing on what you don’t have.

If you focus on tiny projects that you know you can potentially accomplish then the impossible goals that no longer serve you won’t seem that essential to your personal happiness.

Goddess Diana
Www.tantrabutterfly.com
I am always available for sponsorships to your city or you can schedule sacred time for yourself here in Chicago while I’m still here.

Eros Guide continues to Ban established providers from advertising on their site

Yes! It’s that time again and I encourage all customers who use the Eros guide to contact them directly and ask why their favorite, well known and established providers are being BANNED from advertising for life.

And I am also requesting all current advertisers to FIRE eros guide for a period of one to three months because eros guide counts on your revenue to exist.

I have noticed an increase of angry women all over the nation and in Canada complaining that their ads are being removed and banned for silly reasons. My theory is that eros guide has started playing favorites and using their advertising forum exclusively for themselves and their close personal friends because the site became over crowded since 2012.

Over the years the eros guide kept changing their format and requesting providers to use less characters in their ad or different words for fear of being shut down by the government for using suggestive sexual language.

I was warned every six weeks to remove certain words till I realized I was being picked on because I used words that were similar to other women in the industry but they were not being monitored as closely so I began realizing a sick trend where Eros guide representatives had special “friends” advertising, newer, younger women and fresher faces brand new to the field.

In fact I was often told my banners were receiving close to 1500 clicks directly to my website which proves I may have been direct competition to new women without a trusted brand name or website. One thing specifically that always infuriated me was the fact that eros guide allowed anyone with or without education to post ads under the category of Tantra and most of these women were just call girls. I do not mind call girls on the site but I do mind when men who do not understand anything about tantra call these women up who do not even have a tantra website and based on their experiences decide that tantra means sex.

Eros guide uses cam girls and pop up sites that now distract new clients from being able to even navigate the site. I was always told by my clients that they found it confusing and that is why we started noticing a huge drop in business and calls.

I am now going to copy and paste a fresh complaint from a woman in the sex industry who was also banned from the eros guide and she was also not given a good excuse. She received an email from one of the eros guide customer service reps and so I am sharing you this copy from the rip off report so you can see for yourself what is going on with the eros guide.

Here is the copied text:

I HAD A EROS ACCOUNT SINCE 2013 AND TODAY THEY EMAILED ME THIS:

Hello Mary,

I hope this email finds you well.

We want to inform you that it has come to our attention that your account associated to another account which has been closed in the past for policy violation, therefore this account will also be closed.
When the decision to close an account is made, it is a permanent one.

We wish you well with any future endeavors.

Regards,

Eli
Customer Service Representative

WTF is what I said?! I have never had any issues, nor any payment issues with EROS since 2013. I have used my account religiously and made a ton using EROS as I have gained a lot of regular clients. When I called EROS.. first, they were completely rude. The b***h who answered, Julia, was a complete rude b***h. She told me my account was linked to closed accounts and nothing they can do about it and that I CAN NOT EVER POST WITH EROS AGAIN! They refused to refund me the money I just put up on my ad too. $350 UGH

I am dumbfounded on why? I have never changed anything about my EROS account. Never. When I started in 2013 I got so busy that I needed assistance so I did have a company I use to answer my calls but its been the same co. for 4 years. Nothing has changed on my end except 2 things: my photos, and my tour schedule obviously needs to change. That is it.

Eros failed to tell me anything on what I was linked to and I believe this is a RANDOM excuse they are using to scam girls and take their money or just getting rid of girls from the site. No one I know is linked to a closed account or banned from EROS. But I just heard from another GF that EROS is doing this to random girls. WHY?

They suck. I believe EROS is a scam and they’re running on some sort of weird reasons on why they are shutting and banning girls from their site. NOthing I have done since 2013 has changed drastically. NOTHING.

Men if you miss your favorite providers then stick up for us and do and say something! Women if you are worried you will be next in line and will be randomly dismissed from the eros guide then put your ad offline for a month or two in silent protest.

I hope eros guide changes for the better because it used to be such a wonderful place for me to be discovered by some wonderful men, women and couples.

I hope for the best but right now I am obligated to share all of this information with you so you understand that the original owner of the eros guide must have given it up to new people who just do not seem to play fair or “get it”.

In the meantime I pray people still know I am full active even though I personally have been banned from using the eros guide for life.

My site is still up and running http://www.tantrabutterfly.com and I am always available to work with couples, single men and single women who need to rejuvenate. Please visit me and receive soothing tantra massage, reiki, chakra balancing, sensory exploration and exquisite touch.

Goddess Diana of Tantra Butterfly
312-339-7707

Astral travelling while receiving Sacred Spot Massage during Kundalini Shakti

Maya Derren The relector (meshes)I promised I would write a brief essay on a couple of experiences I had with clients who did actually go into a lucid/dream trance and were able to coherently share bits and pieces after our session so we could both enjoy the story of their “whereabouts” in the astral plane!

The first incident and the most profound took place during a trip I made to visit San Diego, California a few days after my mother died of cancer. At the time I was living in New Orleans and visiting my mother once a month in Chicago while keeping my client base in Chicago. I decided to visit San Diego and walk along the ocean and I attracted one individual who said he’d always wanted a session with me and was following my website for a long time but we were never in the same city during his business travels.

He admitted to me that he practiced yoga and meditation for a long time now and he enjoyed vision quests, transcendental meditation and tantra yoga was now part of his path so he told me he was very comfortable with me exploring his sacred spot and to feel free at the end to do this since he had no boundaries and was excited to try anything.

I had some beautiful music and in the background a man was taking you on a journey to the depths of the earth and you could hear sounds of the cave and dripping water from caverns.

At the end when I was triggering his sacred spot I noticed he actually convulsed steadily and his eyes rolled back till all I could see were the whites of his eyes. He was no longer with me and I did not know how to pull him back in but I figured I would just let him ride and not panic. After his eyes were rolled back for a considerable time he spoke in an Ancient language that sounded like Ancient Hebrew or Aramaic but it was incredibly real and lovely to listen to. Again I refused to panic and I just held the space for him to do what he needed to do.

Finally after he was triggered into full body orgasm he came back to me gradually breathing deeply and I asked him if he remembered speaking in tongues.

He looked blankly at me and said he had no recollection but could I share with him what he was saying. I said I can’t translate ancient hebrew but it was beautiful like a reverent chant and I really was not sure of the language origin but it was pretty so i was not scared.

He did say he had visions during his awakening and he said it involved two different goddesses. The first Goddess that encountered him danced around him in circles and she had a gold body and long, blood red hair. She danced and left. The second Goddess was the white goddess and she had long, silver hair and as she danced around him he realized she was going to become famous and author many books on tantra yoga.

I did not know what to say but I thanked him for sharing his story with me. I do know one thing with regards to tantra yoga. If a student comes to you with a pre knowledge of proper breath and the yoga postures then he or she will have a more profound experience rather than just telling you they felt some “heat”. He obviously trusted me enough to go into the astral plane and just zone out there for a while so I was very grateful to be a witness to his journey!

My second experience with astral travels occurred years later in the city of Chicago. I met a really nice, slightly out of shape man with a huge teddy bear heart. He was just so open and caring and when he arrived at my apartment he hugged me and he kept saying repeatedly that he felt like he has known me forever.

He also gave me permission to work with his prostrate and again I noticed he got very quiet at me towards the last half hour of our session. We were still together and I could still feel his energy near me but somehow his breathing became much heavier sounding and when it was again time for his full body awakening his entire body became electrical like a wire overflowing with energies. I did bring him back to reality and I encouraged him to speak about his journey.

He told me he saw the two of us in a very dark room, dimly lit only by the light of candles. He was wearing a heavy ceremonial crown upon his head and he felt the vibe was joyful and festive rather than being sombre. He knew for a fact we were together enjoying a joyous occasion in Ancient Egypt. I was so excited to hear this and I wanted to know what I looked like because when I participated in a DNA activation ceremony in Boulder, Colorado I heard a song of the Goddess Isis during my activation ceremony so I knew I was of her DNA lineage and she had importance to me.

He said it was too dark for him to see my face clearly but he knew it was me from my energy and my vibration. Well you can’t believe how excited I was to share this experience with a new client whom I had never met before! I felt deeply grateful that he was able to remember such detail as he traveled back into one of his past lives with me.

If anyone needs to know why I am so passionate about assisting people with the Sacred Sensual energies I think it is the unknown and all the wonderful unexpected surprises you can find and feelings of deja vu when you meet new clients who seem familiar to you on your path.

It takes a strong sense of self to put yourself in such a vulnerable and open position and if you can let yourself zone out and can fully trust your body takes you places and your spirit tunes into Universal flow so easily and so readily. Being receptive to these sexual energies is a gift and involved maturity, trust, joy and complete openness. One thing both of these men had in common was inner joy and a blind belief in the miracles of energetic healing. Both men trusted me with their sacred energy implicitly without holding anything back and without any cynicism.

If anyone wishes to learn more Sacred Spot Massage there are wonderful authors everywhere on the internet who compile a collective of stories but you can only “conjecture” when you read a book. If you are brave enough and willing to let go then I welcome you to take your first step with Sacred Spot Massage and we can go as slowly as you need working within your comfort zone and your boundaries.

Please visit my site http://www.tantrabutterfly.com and if you feel ready and if you do feel a connection to me I would be flattered to be your first Tantra Muse on your new path to self discovery and greater body awareness. Your third eye takes it’s own sweet time to awaken and Sacred Spot Massage assists you in your awakening process with gentleness and arousal of all your erogenous zones.

Goddess Diana Sensual Muse
http://www.tantrabutterfly.com
(312)339-7707

An open letter to the free speach coalition regarding violations by eros guide

Dear Audience I am sharing a private letter I have just finished sending to the Coaltion of Free speech. I believe it is hypocritical and ironic that within the past five years eros guide has been involved in eradicating certain harmless words used by their advertisers such as the words “child” edge play eros and many other coin phrases that are no longer permisable via the written word.
The eros guide (erosguide.com) is now taking ludicrous measures that violate civil liberties and create drama for their paid advertisers. Under this new “tyranny” a supervisor can now pick through your account deleting key phrases and whole sentences and paragraphs of written advertising text from Paid advertisers or they can deconstruct and take words out of context to contort your original meaning without any care or concern of your intended meaning. You will not be given a chance to correct certain words or phrases if you they decide to pick on you.
Once your ad is picked apart and you are given a call or email you will have to redo your text then risk their punishment which is simply being deactivated and banned from further advertisement permanently.
OUR civil liberties and right to free speech is now being threatened by eros guide team members who proudly boast of being members and supporters of the coalition of free speech.
Your phone conversations are recorded by the eros guide team who will judge you by your words and opinions and concerns after they ask you for your input. I myself was victimized by key members of the eros guide staff and my words were taken out of context and distorted. I was then banned for sharing my concerns and valid feedback. I don’t consider the eros guide to be a supporter of free speech I consider the eros guide (erosguide.com) to be deeply confused about what they wish to convey and in deep fear of freedom of speech.
Here is my open letter to the COALITION OF FREE SPEECH:

Dear Free speech Coalition,
I was a former advertiser banned from the eros guide for using certain Key words in the body of my text that they deemed inappropriate. I own a blog of my own GoddessDianaTantrabutterfly.com and my own private tantra website http://www.tantrabutterfly.com so I am very concerned that the eros guide boasts on its website that they are “proud” members of the free speech Coalition when they have been banning long standing and loyal advertisers for small words that are used out of context.
I was cajoled and harassed this past year every 3 to 4 weeks by supervisory staff that work for the eros guide. I was told not use the term “play with your inner child” so I changed that phrase to “play with your inner psyche”. I was told that I could use the term Yoni worship then six weeks later Lisa from the eros guide called me and pleaded with me not to use Yoni worship so she allowed me to use the word YONI training which is beyond ridiculous.
I was told I could no longer use the phrase “edge play” even though other tantra women in my industry were allowed to use much worse and edge play was used frequently.
I was warned that because I used the word multiple waves of bliss I would have my account deactivated and banned. I was warned never to use the term “eros” because eros guide holds all the legal rights to the word eros no matter how you phrase it.
They banned me after I expressed my worries and the next day Tim from the legal department called me and said based on the tape recorded message that was taped live during Lisa’s phone conversation with me I was deactivated. I lost all my lovely text as they did not send me a copy they simply destroyed all the lovely paragraphs of live text I had without having any consideration about my rights of speech. I was not given a copy of my text or my legal disclaimer or my pictures. They destroyed all traces of me and my prior existence banishing me without fairness or warning or respect for my rights.
I would love to speak with you about the violation of my freedom of speech and written words. I feel that you should not keep the eros guide on your membership list as a result of their misconduct and violation of civil liberties.

Yours Diana GrossmanDream-the-company-of-wolves-29634391-1280-716

Eros guide deleting Accounts for fear of being shut down permanently

This will be my final posting this evening regarding the DE EVOLUTION OF the eros guide otherwise known as http://www.erosguide.com which is a website created for the sole purpose of marketing women and men in the sex industry.

We all know what GFE means right? I had a brief chat with Lisa who has been mismanaging my online Eros guide account for over a year. To my dismay the eros guide assigned me a brand new marketing manager who encouraged me to always always take advantage of their VIP escort services even though I explained to her I am not an escort so technically I should just be listed under the categories of Tantra and Massage Exclusively.

In the past the eros guide had a very simple template that allowed the average advertiser to write pretty much what they wished and load up lovely pictures and longer versions of text. They then ruined a good thing by constantly updating and revising their outdated text to change http://www.erosguide.com into an arena that shows of web cam girls and porn star experiences online rather than legitimate massage and tantra healing.

Lisa and Tim of the legal department insinuated that my text which included Yoni worship and yoni honoring is vile and illegal. Yet in the meantime I pointed out to Lisa yesterday on the phone that the term GFE technically implies that a man engages in unprotected sex with a woman who is pretending to be his girl friend for the hour or hours and that paid sex is technically not a true girl friend experience because a real boy friend and girlfriend do not expect to paid at the end of the day but your average eros guide advertiser who is marketing herself on the eros guide as a GFE or a porn star is accepting payment in exchange for sexual intercourse.

I had an in depth discussion with Lisa from the Eros guide team yesterday understanding that our phone conversation was being tape recorded. It will just be a matter of years or months before I see that the eros guide team will probably be forced to close down permanently because they will no longer be allowed to hide their “fuzzy terms” such as GFE or “porn star experience” for that much longer.

In a panic the Eros guide has started harassing providers like me who are not technically prostitutes because the eros guide is coming up with a brand new image of unattainable porn star hot and heavy experience catering to the high end hobbyist who relies on the erotic review before contacting an escort from the eros guide.

All you have to do is google up http://www.erosguide.com and they use key words such as escort, Vip escort and GFE. There is no hiding the fact that the eros guide is the number one escort site supporting people who are in the sex industry and for $300 or more an hour you can hire an “entertainer” and pretend she is your girl friend because that is how the eros guide is now mostly making its money. All of these activities are illegal yet the eros guide legal department had the nerve to accuse me of engaging in illegal activities because I told Lisa they are favoring Vip escorts and GFE’s and trying to get rid of people like me who have actually had formal training in alternative healing and Tantra massage.

If anyone from the adult industry is reading my blog tonight you must understand the eros guide is calling the “kettle black” because they are accusing me of engaging in illegal services for wanting to actually teach men how to honor the feminine energy via goddess worship and yoni worship but they are allowing porn stars to offer illegal services to men for a price that is astronomical.

I can not understand the hypocrisy of the Eros guide but in due time they will eventually lose the faith of your typical viewer and with their “new standards” soon most advertisers will lose their accounts that have been fully paid for just like me.

I had been an advertiser with the Eros guide for over 15 years and I honored all their bizarre requests taking down beautiful text I had written with love, shortening up my text, using alternative words for my text, and then removing perfectly beautiful pictures of me when they accused me of complete nudity. I know soon enough the eros guide will receive the proper karma they deserve.

WWW.erosguide.com is now a shady enterprise at best. They have increased the rates of all their ads yet the amount of quality calls has drastically fallen due to all the bad changes they have made. They have literally turned the Eros guide into a three ring circus and their hypocritical treatment of their advertisers hopefully will cause them their eventual shut down which hopefully will happen sooner than later.

Goddess Diana
http://www.tantrabutterfly.com
Shaman, Muse, Energy healer, Tantra Yoga
instructor and educator
no illegal services implied
I am simply here to service the Goddessalbino girl with bear

Providers Beware Eros guide Scams Paid advertisers !

Dear Audience,
It is now becoming a popular trend for representatives from http://www.erosguide.com to deactivate older accounts that have been active since 2005 and earlier. I have been a very loyal advertiser for many years and would have liked to have continued my relationship with the eros guide but it seems that the legal department namely TOM of http://www.erosguide.com and Lisa of http://www.erosguide.com has promptly banned my paid account even though I had agreed to let them remove my text from my website explaining what Yoni worship is.

I was deleted and deactivated for now reason today since I agreed to their text changes and I agreed to many things over the years they decided to do to my account.

I copied and pasted another complaint made from an unhappy advertiser who wrote a letter to the legal department and i wish to share this on my blog so others will be warned that http://www.erosguide.com is no longer an appropriate place for anyone from the sex industry to join.

Please read the following:

To the Legal Department and the CEO and President of the Eros-Guide

I am contacting you, because yesterday, April 12th I received a phone call from a supervisor called “Sharon” or “Sharol” I don’t know how she spells her name exactly.
But she is an older lady.
She said that my account has been deleted yesterday, because I put the phrase “15 minutes French” in my ad today. This is a special that I intended to run for 2 weeks.
Yes, this morning as many mornings since 2007 I placed an ad and I did put the phrase “15 minutes French” in the ad indeed.
My attorney and I do agree that that may be interpreted as an ambiguous phrase, but we do not agree that it is a direct expression for sexual language
or an offer for sexual services.
There are already a lot of advertisers out there who had problems with you in the past and I intend to make sure that we join together to file a class action suit followed by creating an another website to put our ads. We need to ask the court dissolve Darkside Productions.

As it is I am from Europe, lived in France and learned French in Paris through a language program, “15 minutes French”, which I also attached to the e-mail I sent to Eros-Guide yesterday.
And the language CD can be processed here:

Here is a sample of the CD.program:

The expression”15 minutes French” is very broad and indeed can be misunderstood.
However for me and other people who took this language program it comes naturally and by no means is interpreted as anything sexual.
In fact if the supervisor never studied or gave French lessons, she might be out of practice and we highly suggest her to start with this language program, 15 minutes at time.
It can do wanders and it may save her job. She only has a job, because of the French lessons that I and other of your clients distribute to your distribution chanel,
http://www.eros-guide.com

I would like to politely ask the Eros Guide to give us 24 hours to edit my ad.
That is to put back my account today and give us by tomorrow say 5pm, to edit the ad in an acceptable form. Then, your supervisors can revise the ad to make sure that does not violate your guide lines and if does not, I would like to see my ad up in Eros-NY section by midnight today, April 13th.
I understand that Eros-guide revises the ads before final submission, so if yesterday the supervisor who is mentioned above saw the expression she should of send me an e-mail or a phone call and warn me about it and give me some time to edit my ad before she made that decision to have my account suspended. I believe that Eros Guide owes me with that favor.
As a 4 year client and at least a 2 year prospective client you are still about to receive a lot of income from me, even if I only choose to spend $300 a month on your website, but most months I spend more. As a loyal client, I expected to get a phone call saying that I have 24 hours to edit my ad and took out the ambiguous expressions, or my account will be suspended. I believe it was very unethical to suspend my account without warning.

That being said I have a message for the president and CEO of the Eros-Guide
If you have supervisors like this old jaded lady, who suspends an account of an account holder, who was a costumer since 2006 and intend to be a costumer for a few more years, you might be loosing a lot of business. And I have friends who advertised on Eros Guide and their account has been suspended without warning.
So it might be a lucrative idea to replenish your staff with people who are helping you bringing in more business as oppose to reduce existing cash flow.
We all know that all your employees are there for the mercy of our business. If there is not enough business you cannot afford to hire these individuals and if this economy they would be starving or remain unemployed.

And I also have a message for the supervisor who deleted my account today;
“You only have a job because of the mercy of my and other Eros Guide advertisers French lessons. If not for us you will be unemployed. You are only there because of us.
You are at the mercy of our cash flow and if you suspend clients account we need to take our business somewhere else. That doesn’t only put your livelihood in danger, but it also put the livelihood of your boss in danger, which of course puts the entire stuff’s livelihood in danger.

Sincerely yours,
Ivanka Carrington

Parting ways with The Eros guide

Dear Audience,
A few months ago I noticed a drastic change on the Eros Guide and mostly the quality of calls I received were now a lot more inappropriate due to a change of template style and a new woman that had been assigned to my Eros Account.
A new marketing representative by the name of Lisa had been assigned to go over my account and she would literally call me multiple times during my work week mentioning the Premier Services Section and how it would benefit my Ad campaign if I chose to offer ILLEGAL SERVICES namely Vip Escort and GFE. Lisa would ask me if I was satisfied with the changes the Eros guide was making and she invited me to share commentary. When I was brutally honest and calmly told her the site was wonderful when they were more streamlined Lisa would get irrationally upset with me and PUNISH me for sharing my viewpoint.
I would always receive a nasty call the next day from one of the Eros guide Representatives whether it was Tim from the Legal department or Stormi who is in charge of marketing and Sales.

They would delete text from my ads which included the word Yoni. I mean the word YONI based on Sanskrit simply means birthplace or womb. Yoni is a sacred word and to me Yoni means flower. The eros guide basically called me up yesterday when I was having a bad day. Lisa was quite rude to me as I was waiting to visit a doctor and I was in the middle of a medical emergency. The eros guide should be ashamed of itself. They now victimize women in my industry and because I chose to use the word YONI Worship which in Tantra means HONORING THE DIVINE FEMININE AND HONORING THE GODDESS IN ALL OF US I have had my account deactivated completely even though I was an advertiser for over 15 years.

The Eros guide now only wishes to promote Cam girls and GFE and VIP Escorts but because I chose to keep my ads pure and only stay within the bounds of True authentic Tantra healing energy work and True Massage related services Lisa chose to harass me for the past 7 months constantly barraging me with inane requests to change certain “words” that she deemed inappropriate or illegal. They even removed a text that stated that I would be able to train men to sustain full arousal and full body waves of energetic bliss using a technique known as Edge play. Now everyone that uses the Eros Guide knows Edge play is a word known in the field and is perfectly acceptable and legal with no sexual connotations.

When I recently looked up the Eros guide online I also noticed they received a number of major complaints from people in my industry who were also very displeased with services rendered from the Eros guide. If you take the time to look up THE RIP OFF REPORT you will see many providers of healing services similar to mine have been ripped off by the eros guide having paid good money to the Eros guide only to have beautiful text removed and pictures removed from off their site or advertising removed completely even though the advertising was paid for in full.

I suppose I am deeply grateful that after all these years I have been penalized now by the Eros guide because I chose to be true to myself and not wish to become a CAM GIRL or a GFE OR an ESCORT OR shall we say A PIECE OF MEAT.

The Eros guide has changed their advertising tactics and is now appealing to a completely different audience mostly men seeking BDSM or PROSTITUTION RELATED SERVICES. I won’t be sorry if the FEDS choose to shut down the eros guide permanently for insinuating illegal services online so real hard core PORN QUEENS are allowed to post but not real healers. The energetic vibration of the Eros Guide has now been lowered to a much lower vibration and a much shadier audience of men who are seeking a quick fix. Everyone knows that GFE means unprotected sex. The literal term of GFE according to Lisa of the Eros guide means she is going to pretend she is your girlfriend but everyone in the sex industry can google up the catch phrase GFE and understand that literally and technically GFE means french kissing which leads to herpes simplex II, unprotected sex which means you are not using a condom and GFE also implies oral sex which of course leads to a host of diseases like syphillis not to mention other sexually transmitted diseases.

If Lisa is implying that someone like me who really wants to promote whole body health is simply not legitimate then I wish to post on my blog for all to read that Tim from the Legal department banned me from every advertising my massage services and my tantra healing ceremonies because I chose not to be part of their VIP ESCORT SECTION. I once made the mistake of purchasing their VIP program and Lisa harassed me with upgrades trying to get me to purchase premium services, banners and other wasteful services that truly never made my phone ring ever because they have shortened the text on their templates and they have certain words banned on their site so the viewer is completely confused about what is offered.

Today they deactivated my Tantra and Massage account because yesterday during a tape recorded conversation with Lisa I mentioned to her that I am a true tantra teacher. I love teaching men how to honor and worship the Goddess and that YONI is a perfectly beautiful word to use. I stuck to my guns. I told her I am not offering sex to any of my clients nor do I wish to offer sexual intercourse but I prefer the sacred art of sustaining my energy and practicing celibacy keeps me emotionally balanced and better able to receive my new guests with a happier frame of mind.

My experiences with the Eros Guide these past two years has been very combative, humiliating and a true waste of my time, energy and money. They have constantly changed their template and changed their service to strictly online interaction. Each time they asked me for feedback I told them the truth and I stated their original template and design brought me the most work from the most desirable group of people. Now it appears backpages is the new source for anyone to find out about my services. I even asked other women in my field if they were still receiving calls using the Eros guide and they were quite honest with me and said since Eros has changed its template and standards and changed its content they are lucky receive 3 inquiries a week. I noticed that most of my calls from people on backpages or google search engines but no longer from the Eros guide. I even asked clients from New Orleans how they found me and they told me they had never heard of the eros guide. I asked a client of mine from St. Louis if he even uses the Eros guide and he said he found the women to be a bit overpriced and nasty to him on the phone so he stopped searching for women from the Eros guide since the Quality of women who advertise their has gone down too.

I even notice that AGENCIES posing as independent contractors such as THE KEY NAME penelope Waters is now posing as an independent contract so not only is Eros guide now playing favorites to Agencies they are now excluding small private tantra educators from using their site to promote their legal services. It appears to me that Lisa is now formally playing favorites and promoting professional agencies, professional GFE’s and professional prostitutes on their site and now getting ride of trained massage therapists and trained Tantra educators.

If you go online and view the women who are currently on the Eros guide they will even show you their TER id’s. Everyone who is a professional hobbyist knows that TER stands for The erotic review. The erotic review board is a place where hobbyists can rate and review their experiences with a professional porn star and with a GFE or a Prostitute. I am not prejudiced against the industry but I am stating a fact that because the Eros guide chooses of their own free will to ban someone like me yet promote porn stars who include their TER reviews I am going to assume I no longer fit into the mold that the Eros guide is now leaning towards.

It appears to me that if you are a VIP escort, GFE, professional BDSM or Madame you are going to be welcomed into their fold and allowed to post your services online for all to see but if you are a trained professional like me with over 16 years of experience with tantra yoga training and massage you might be banned from being included into their new “look.”

I was penalized today by Lisa and Tim from the Legal department of the Eros guide because I was upset that they decided to remove two beautiful sentences delineating Yoni worship.
I am no longer allowed to advertise with the Eros guide because I chose to defend myself and use the word Yoni.
kitty valentino
Yours Goddess Diana of
http://www.tantrabutterfly.com

Are you following your passion?

Hello I can’t help but waking up feeling positive about life even though at times I wonder where I am headed! I try and make every city I visit my home so for right now while I am here in New Orleans, Louisiana I am considering this my home even if I leave in a month or two.
I don’t start every tantra session the same. Sometimes I feel someone might be so open we just sit in front of each other with our foreheads touching and breathing circular breaths together just so we can slow down and get a sense of being ONE person instead of two separate beings. I don’t always get that clear signal from someone and if so just a wonderful deep tissue massage starting with the shoulders and neck can be comforting enough for anyone to let down their guard.

Sometimes a couple will hire me or rather a really caring husband with wonderful intentions will want me to come over and work on his wife’s energy but we always have to respect the fact that the yoni must be healed only when the Goddess in question is safe, comfortable and ready to learn.

So I have a question for you! Are you living your passion? Most people who are passionate about the work they do thrive when it comes to relaxing and extra curricular activities because they have already possessed skills and enthusiasm in their day to day ritual. I find that most men or women who are in their complete power are very comfortable working with their sexual energy and most of the time they want their husband and wife to participate more in life which includes tantra massage and tantra sex.

I can instantly detect when a man or a woman is comfortable sharing their sexuality with me and they want a “tune Up”. We can learn from being in any situation and we can always get better at a skill when we possess PASSION. I am passionate. I wake up and remember all my dreams and share it with people on my face book page because I do want to learn and I do want to process anything negative or positive from my past and present.

If I am fully aware of what I need to learn I can be more present for you. Some people can try and relax and be present but they find it a deep challenge. Some people are embarrassed to express their needs even to someone they deeply love. Some people are afraid to give up the control and relax so they might smoke, drink, fidget, constantly check their cell phones for messages and pretty do anything BUT connect with their friends, their healer, or their close family members. This is cheating everyone. It’s cheating yourself if you avoid the NOW.

Being full present and accepting who you are NOW and trying new things without any sense of fear or judgement is a challenge but a challenge that is very important for you to achieve and meet head on.

Avoidance of being in the NOW is crippling. It’s like you are separating yourself and fragmenting yourself so every one if your life is only receiving and understanding a small part of you.

Tantra massage addresses the organic you, the sensuous you, the timid you, the ornery you, the relaxed you, the authentic you! When you receive a tantra healing it’s similar to peeling the skin off an apple. In order to get to the sweet, juicy meat of the fruit you have to be patient and peel away that tender outer skin that outer shell of you.

I hope to meet you where ever you are on your journey and maybe it will take a few more months or a few more years. The journey is about being Passionate and Accepting yourself and accepting unconditional love and healing touch from your partner no matter what you look like and no matter what your goals are.Valentino and Diana nudes

Tantra and Traveling and Escaping out of yourself ♬♫♪

Diana retro harlow red couchHello everyone! Well since I left the city of Chicago October 1st I have been offering tantra in New York city, Boston, Cambridge Ma, and NOW I am in Indianapolis, Indiana on my way to head over to New Orleans, Louisiana. Life is about Journeying and having fun! How on earth will we ever meet new people unless we venture out of our comfort zones anyway?
I have been setting up sacred space, introducing new guests to tantra and enjoying new sights with my pets since October 1st. I am not a fan of winter so it was my personal decision to choose New Orleans, Louisiana to spend the winter season and hopefully get reintroduced to the culture there since I love historical architecture and the slower paced lifestyle of the South in general.
Boston was wonderful. I met so many kind and creative people in Boston and I do not regret venturing out of Chicago for these experiences. I do get scared when I leave Chicago since Chicago is what I KNOW and I have lived most of my younger life and adult life in the city without ever relying on a car. However I like to shake things up in my life and it gives me such a thrill to live on the edge like this.
Tantra is about taking chances and exploration. What defines YOU? Do you define yourself by your ability to make good friends or are you more of an Isolationist and you like to get things done for yourself without relying on others?
Tantra is a bit of both. Tantra explores WHO YOU ARE AND HOW YOU DEFINE YOURSELF! We grow as we explore our sensual nature. What ever it is that you are good at Tantra will improve the flow of your life because you learn to breathe and when you breathe you activate NOT just your sexual energy but you activate your intuition.
I can’t say everyone feels something the first time they see me for a session but most people who are sensitive to touch and energy will shift layers only on ONE session. I breathe and chant with my dog daily and I practice pranayama daily so when we concentrate on the the breath we are focusing on the present .
It is a challenge for everyone these days just to live in the moment. Sometimes people have a tendency to be on a very tight schedule when they see me. They might have to pick up a child at violin or soccer practice. Their phone might be left on just in case their partner has an emergency. I wish people could just let a little bit more when they see me. My sessions are reasonably priced but the information and experiences that can be experienced is profound if you can LET GO of all external influences, worries and thoughts.
Tantra YOGA is after all YOGA. This is not some random silly excuse to a sensual flirt or tease this is actual CONCRETE healing profound energy work and I want everyone to get the most out of our time together.
It’s not fair to you and it’s not fair to me to keep a cell phone on. You deserve a treat.
Tantra massage and Tantra Yoga are healing tools. I heal myself profoundly each time I give a session. Yes I might go through states of worry, anxiety and panic during the day but this is a normal progression when you are reaching to Bliss. Tantra massage and Tantra YOGA are bliss explorations. You Test YOURSELF. You keep pushing your comfort level on what you might wish to learn and explore. You learn more about yourself. You learn how to touch someone with true intention.
Some clients who visited me for Goddess Worship were under the false assumption that this work is easy. NO it’s not easy. You are going to learn how to breathe maybe for the first time in your life. You are going to learn how to breathe, slow down your pace with you r lover, touch with heart intention and honor your beloved. Goddess worship is about making your lover feel so special she is empowered and energy is released in a very positive flow that makes both of you feel more trust and relaxation. There is a shared glow, a shared trust, a shared love and devotion that follows.
I am here in the moment enjoying my 2 day stay here in Indianapolis and I intend to attract the right people who might appreciate me. If I don’t attract the right people then simply it was not meant to be but trust me I learned something anyway. This is the first time I drove in a car with a complete stranger who became a really good friend to me and my pets. Tyler picked me up in Boston just two days ago and he fit me, my belongings, my pets and pet food in his tiny mini cooper. He writes an online blog that involves his own personal journey and he is also a great web designer. Both of us were excited to travel on this journey together that will eventually end in New Orleans. We are both staying with his friends Bre and Leslie in Indianapolis and I have had so much fun laughing, getting a bit of work and simply walking my dog in a new neighborhood.
I have lead a Tantra lifestyle ever since I knew how to talk. What is Tantra to you? Tantra is energy it’s not some cute catch phrase for sexual awareness it is YOU. We have one life we have many lifetimes to uncover what we need and want. Just shake off your fears and be in the moment.
I intend to relish every moment. My intention for you is that you let go of your fears and be prepared to experience tingling, joy, shaking, fear, panic the whole gamut of who you are.
I hope I meet you where ever you are in your life. And I hope I continue to travel for many years to come and be in this field that brings me so much joy and challenges.
Goddess Diana
http://www.tantrabutterfly.com
312-339-7707
I even offer personalized phone readings if you can’t see me in person. Enjoy your life. Spend your days wisely and travel more. Travel outside. Try tantra yoga once and take a break from it for a while but I bet you when you reach out and try tantra again it will carry a different meaning for you.