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Today is Father’s Day 🧸

Today is Father’s Day but I don’t miss my biological father who physically kicked my mother in the stomach when she was carrying me in her womb. In fact I still don’t respect my own mother who is also deceased because what kind of mother remains married to a man who would attempt to threaten the life of her unborn child?

I’m posting this information not to garner any sympathy but to help people understand that not all of us here had desirable childhoods or pleasant memories of our parents during these traditional Hallmark card American created Holidays.

I’m not even a tad bit sentimental or regretful today because both my parents failed me and they were in a sick codependent relationship with one another and when my mother found out my father was schizophrenic she was even considering an abortion and deeply worried that I myself would develop schizophrenia like my father since it is after all hereditary.

Well my father had a complete nervous meltdown when my mother became pregnant and she told me he had kicked her hard then spent several months in treatment in the hospital for his mental condition.

Medication and talk therapy can only do so much for anyone suffering from delusions and I knew my father became a completely different person when he got angry with me or my mother. You could literally see his dark, black pupils become so enlarged his brown eyes became pitch black and he no longer looked human.

My father was very abusive to me…I have good memories of him when he showed genuine compassion towards me but his cruelty outweighed anything good he showed me and If I could go back in time as a young child I’d love to relive all those scary instances but ideally I would have left my home physically and spent more time outdoors or at the library and escaped his blind rages.

Not every father is ideal for the position of parenting so only a handful of lucky people out there had good, healthy relationships with their mothers and fathers. At the very least some of us as children were blessed to have a good role model either in the form of an uncle, a teacher or a close family friend.

I myself spent a good part of my childhood and puberty hiding in fear from my father who was not only diagnosed with schizophrenia but truly possessed by demonic entities. I’d love to understand what on earth I must have done in a previous incarnation to deserve such a frightening childhood but I know it shaped my character and made me a more sensitive child more empathetic than my peers.

I remember also being bullied by children my own age from five years old to age 16. At times I’d defend myself and the children would eventually learn to steer clear of me if I decided to defend myself properly. Most of the time I didn’t do anything to defend myself and I’d just cry quietly to myself at home. If my mother found out I had been bullied she usually didn’t have sympathy for me at all; in fact she genuinely became angry at me and wanted to know how I could let any of these peers take advantage of me or beat me up.

I learned to avoid and isolate myself from children in my school and at times I’d fight back when enough was enough and I had had my fill. I certainly didn’t mind fighting back and I at times learned how to adequately defend myself from my father’s tantrums and misdirected anger.

I never celebrate Father’s Day here on my Facebook wall but I know it’s a special day for at least a few blessed people out there in social media who knew what it felt like to be deeply loved unconditionally and respected by their fathers.

I leave this here on my wall not to garner sympathy but to help others understand that we don’t all celebrate this Holiday. Some of us don’t to this day understand why we ended up with the parents we had. I know a psychic reader I hired last year acknowledged to me what I had already known. My father was indeed a Channel for Spirits…all Spirits even Malevolent Spirits. He couldn’t control what he received so the doctor’s misdiagnosed his clairvoyance and prescribed him with pills and other medications that no doubt made his visions that much worse and skewed his reality further.

My parents were VESSELS …they were important in that they brought me here. I’m alive and I myself am clairvoyant and clairsentient and clairaudient. I know how to ground my own energies and I’ve never allowed any entity to ” take over the steering wheel ”

I can filter what it is I wish to receive and I function well on my own independently . I truly do not desire nor crave anyone else to “compliment” or “complete” me. I’ve had so many things taken from me but I’ve endured it and I’m content. I would never refuse genuine help if it were offered up to me but I learned the hard way that help is rarely offered unless there are “strings” attached.

My upbringing made me more sensitive and strong. I learned not to expect too much from anyone and I learned as I got into adulthood that people you date can abandon you when you need them the most especially if you let your guard down and bared your true feelings to them.

Anyone can disappoint you at anytime. The key to being truly happy is self reliance, self respect and unconditional self love. You must be there for yourself and learn to hold your own hand during the darkness.

By the way I do not give readings to anyone.  I sometimes might give my clients advice and pick up information they may need to hear from their Spirit Guides or “higher power “; but I don’t want to “probe” anyone I don’t know personally and interfere in their journey.

My psychic abilities have lead me to understand that I should place complete faith in myself first because of my own bodily signals or slight panic attacks.  I learned from firsthand experience that if I do not honor my own intuition I will be misled or reap the consequences of being completely taken advantage of by people who don’t have my best interests in mind.

I have experienced what it feels like numerous times not to be listened to and not to be taken seriously especially by people who were in a position to guide me or offer me help.

I suggest that if any of you reading my blog get a nagging gut feeling within you that some path isn’t right for you that you honor yourself first and pay close attention to your body’s signals.  If you feel nauseous or sweaty or truly ill before a decision you’ve made you may need to change your intended course of action and back away and try another alternative plan.

No one will be able to predict an outcome for you because we always have free will and the ability to change our minds frequently.  In honor of Father’s Day seek out answers within you more often.  Never question your own intuition and never put all your faith in one entity or one set way of doing something.

In honor of Father’s day learn to create sacred space within yourself first. When you wake up each day keep track of your thoughts.  Are you sending comforting thoughts to yourself and your physical body or are you silently criticising yourself ?

You alone carry all the answers within you and you alone intuitively understand how and where to begin the process and long journey of self healing and renewal.

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Chicago Tantra Massage is for Anyone ready for a healing Journey

I feel the need to write today mostly because I am always spot on correct when I read an email from a new potential client and know deep down they simply wanted to VENT to me but they honestly weren’t Emotionally prepared to begin a tantra ceremony in real life.

In all fairness tantra isn’t for everyone and everyone is motivated by different reasons to try a session whether it’s strictly curiosity, too much personal stress in their life or they love healing connection.

Half the people that reach out to me are high achievers who know what they want and how to get it. They love their partners, love their career and they want a session as a treat because they feel they deserve it.

Other people are involved in reiki, yoga, music and creative pursuits so they crave chakra balancing, and breath coaching along with the sensual touch.

I also receive requests from single mothers, caregivers, independent business owners and men whose wives are chronically ill.  These people are under a lot of stress and so they contract my services as a means of letting go and treating themselves.

Other people want and deeply desire tantra but they don’t fully understand what tantra is. They send me “novels” instead of a brief emails which to me is a “red flag” because it’s almost as if they are trying too hard to convince themselves and me that they are ready to jump in without having spoken to me on the phone or meeting me in person!

I’m not a guru and I truly don’t feel like conning anyone into the false idea that one or even several tantra sessions will shift you from previous abuse into a new paradigm of being victorious.

On the contrary I do believe if you personally have been molested or victimized or similarly violated emotionally and or sexually you need to visit a real counselor like a licensed psychiatrist or talk therapist first.

Sexual molestation is a very harmful blow to your psyche and I certainly don’t wish to trigger anyone who has been molested and hasn’t done some inner healing work first.

I know while reading these emails who is emotionally able to receive kundalini Shakti and who is lying to themselves by the way they express themselves through the written word. I also know that most sexual molestation victims typically can’t reach out on the phone to even talk to me in real time because they may not be ready to start the healing process just yet.

I do receive many earnest emails from new clients who won’t ever call me and that to me speaks volumes because if they can’t use their own throat chakra to express their goals and desires to me or anyone then their personal power is being blocked and it isn’t part of their truth to want a real shift or change to occur.

When I read emails I’m not expecting anyone to really follow through until I hear it in their voice first.  I can always tell who is ready to relax and be healed and who is just too nervous and kidding themselves .

I myself have had a few disappointments with psychic readers who just weren’t tapping into my consciousness. These readers might be great with other people who aren’t as self aware as I am but I do know what it’s like to seek real help and realize no one has the ability to fix me…I have to fix myself.

One tantra session with me will clear away some cobwebs of debris and make you feel more hopeful, motivated and refreshed; but then you yourself are responsible every day afterwards to pursue your own self healing journey, whether it’s counseling, journaling, self reiki, better diet, walks in nature or positive visualization.

Whenever anyone was traumatized I always suggest we meet eachother for coffee first and get together so I can take notes and ascertain what is the very best session I can offer to someone I don’t personally know. I will charge a small fee however because I’m a professional and I’d like to be honored for my time. The fee is nominal and is used as a deposit towards reiki, chakra balancing or tantra for a future session.

I do not feel it’s fair of anyone to expect me to give a free psychic healing or free consultation through email alone or a long phone conversation because it means the new client is feeling me out.  I can’t convince anyone that the time is right for a tantra ceremony or tantra massage.  I’m not dissuading anyone from plunging ahead but when I receive too much information in my first email from a complete stranger and no phone call after I respond to them then I know I’m being lied to.

Only a handful of people who have tried tantra before know that every teacher or tantra yogi presents their sessions individually and if the teacher is any good he or she will use their intuition along with a couple of goals from their new student as a guide.

If I suggest a meet and greet over coffee it’s because I do want to get to know you as a friend so that when we have our first tantra session you won’t be worried or self conscious or scared.

When I meet new guests for coffee it’s because I feel that person needs a nudge and because I feel that individual needs to vent and share more of their story with me.  I only charge $50 for our initial consultation fee and it’s used as a deposit towards any session you choose.

I also encourage everyone to read my website at least once so that they can ask me educated questions rather ask me what my fees are. My fees are determined by the session you choose.  I have many choices on my website from cuddle therapy to reiki to advanced tantra, to Goddess Worship.  I have basic sensual massage all the way up to a full day of spa tantra retreats for people who have the time and the budget.

My ideal candidate is anyone emotionally mature to enjoy a journey of chakra balancing, therapeutic bodywork, reiki, aromatherapy and kundalini tantra massage.  I do not solicit anyone who isn’t psychically ready because that’s a waste of time for everyone involved. I’m not a free, unpaid, advisor.  I am not obligated to continue emailing anyone who can’t simply pick up the phone and find ten minutes out of their day to talk to me like a mature adult.  I do not need to read your life’s history in order to give you a good healing.  I do understand it takes a lot of trust to begin any alternative healing journey and that’s why I recommend meeting me for a paid consultation if you have any doubt prior to meeting me.

I needed to write this article today because I do get frustrated and disappointed when new guests make prejudgments about my skillset or my motivations.  My motivation is to work with new clients who will benefit from my healing touch and who will appreciate and enjoy my services.  I do this work because I’m good at moving energy and I love healing through touch.  I do not however like being used as a free psychotherapist.  I do not need to read through lengthy emails from people who are fooling themselves and trying to fool me.  I do offer paid talk therapy and paid coffee consultations for anyone that has even a shred of doubt.

I hope this article helps you understand that tantra is just one of many healing paths to help you achieve self awareness and balance; but you yourself have to continue following your own path of magic and self love.

If you know you are ready for one of my tantra massage ceremonies here in Chicago please call me today at 312 339 7707.  If you want to meet me for coffee this week in Chicago or nearby suburbs I will work around your schedule and have a real time honest discussion with you so you can make an educated choice and give you advice.

My main website is http://www.tantrabutterfly.com so spend an hour reading it prior to calling me in person.  If you want to break the ice by sending me a brief email you can use my primary contact form or either of these email addresses:

Butterflyshadows@aol.com

Tantragoddessdiana@gmail.com

Introduce yourself briefly using your real name so I know you are sincere and so I know you are a legitimate new student of tantra.

You do not need to send me your life story; in fact I discourage you from divulging too much information because part of our tantra ceremony will include us meeting together and chatting briefly before our tantra massage even begins in real time.  We will have ample time to talk about anything you wish once we have our first tantra session together.

Do not be worried if you do not have prior experience in energy work. You are contacting me because you are either curious about what tantra truly is or you’ve had tantra massage and you absolutely love it so you wish to repeat your positive experience with me as your guide.

I’d be delighted and excited to meet you here in Chicago which includes the suburbs of Schaumburg, O’hare, Oakbrook, Elk grove Village, Rosemont and the Magnificent Mile near River North.  I will travel anywhere to you within the city of Chicago or neighboring suburbs.

When you call me directly let me know who you are and briefly introduce yourself to me .  Everything we decide to do will be planned based on your time constraints, budget and personal goals.  FB_IMG_1557631910360

Kundalini Awakening is different for everyone but always uniquely yours to experience

What is kundalini Energy? Unless you have had a lucid dream or unless you have awakened in the middle of the night with an out of body experience it’s hard to understand exactly what a kundalini activation feels like.

I have had several kundalini experiences and MOST of them were non sensual in nature. I do have good memories of a rather soothing kundalini activation right after I received a good sports massage that was not sensual at all but rather healing. After my therapist left the room I received warm, soothing vibrations of gentle electricity along each of my vertabrae. I was unable to move my limbs or even open my eyes. I heard a gentle humming vibration buzzing and sounds in the room became muffled. I was a bit scared but realized it was me. My own energy was surging and I just had to go with it and relax without being scared and without judging. I must admit it is a bit scary when you feel your limbs are going numb or tingling but if you simply allow the energy to flow it can be revitalizing, uplifting or emotional. You might find yourself especially raw or over emotional for a day or two afterwards so I am not saying it’s fuzzy and cotton candy enjoyable. Sometimes a kundalini awakening is raw and jagged and jarring. You feel like you are becoming more irritable but if you see it as a process or a building block towards enlightenment then it is a trip worth taking and it is completely organic in nature.

During tantra we breathe a lot together. In fact during a session I will often take a moment to breathe deeply into my heart so I can activate my heart more fully and give more of my heart energy to my guest. I will encourage my guest to breathe fully so that energy is not just trapped in one chakra or space but circulates everywhere.

Last night I felt a more intimidating activation that was more forceful in nature. I was awakened from a lucid dream to a “back massage” and my spinal column felt as if there was a hand held back massage machine going over each area of my spinal column. By the time the vibration hit between my shoulder blades I even felt my heart palpitating! Obviously the kundalini energy I was storing these past few months was released and the energy was deeply felt by me to the point where my own heart chakra was being awakened and healed.

If you think Tantra massage and Tantra yoga is for “entertainment” purposes only then think twice. If you think you are ready to be awakened and make progressive baby steps towards becoming more spiritually and physically alive and awakened then tantra is a viable tool that will allow you to let go of what you don’t need. You will find that your priorities are changing and you will find yourself being more open to engaging in new activities and new routines or people and places.

Because kundalini energies can express themselves differently depending upon your energy level and where you are right now you can expect that your own sensitivities will be much different from mine because you are unique and my journey is not yours. I can only promise you that you will eventually be able to have a “safe” kundalini activation when the time is right for you for you to receive YOUR OWN unique ENERGIES.

If you feel ready to begin your first tantra healing with me I can be reached at (312) 339-7707. I strongly advise you to combine tantra massage, tantra kundalini yoga, white tantra and reiki together so that you feel more benefits. You will potentially become more open minded and less fearful of trying new ways of being and existing. You will definitely become more aware of your body and potentially become more in tune or psychic. I am open to working with you in tiny baby steps or you can explore a full day of tantra with me and learn all the basics in one day.

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The Art of Becoming or evolving into a Sacred ♡♥ Intimate ❤

What to you is the true definition of Intimacy? What does the word Sacred mean? I believe that if you infuse an act with love and meaningful intentions that is creating a state of Being holy or Sacred. The word Sacred is used in many religious cults and belief systems. When we call someone or something sacred we immediately create a Silent act of consecrating that person or that belief system with an out of this body experience or Spiritual connotation.

I myself would rather be referred to as a Sacred Intimate rather than a “provider” yet we all use the word “provider” because we are of Service and we can be of use to someone as a service during a time of need. I see myself as a Sacred healer, a shaman, a muse, a confidante and a Guide but I still have human needs and I still possess weaknesses, ego struggles and inner conflict just like every one else on this Earth.

I strive to create a sense of play, sacredness, enthusiasm and Reverence during my daily walks with my dog or errands or healing tantra massage ceremonies. The term ceremony is an act of creating a time out of body experience that establishes boundaries, communication, symbols and intention. I am not just giving a “session” I am giving of myself. I want to infuse our time together with all of my positive energy and connect with you in a way that you feel “touched” and held sacred.

Sometimes it can be a struggle for any two people to connect and form a bond of intimacy. The act of having a conversation is intimate and just as important as sitting in silence, gazing quietly into your partner’s eyes. I allow you to simply be you, in the moment with me. I am offering much more than a deep tissue massage or a few hours of pampering; I am actually offering you the capacity to heal fully and transcend through trauma or pain to full joy.

You can always contract the services of an escort if you crave a bit of touch but you can make a conscious choice to select a Guide with real skills in the healing arts who can offer you not only a bit of companionship but true tools and skills you will learn and be able to integrate with all your future partners and relationships.

A Sacred Intimate wants to see your heart soar and take flight. A Sacred Intimate possesses intuition. She can see clearly into your pain or your craving to be seen and touched. She will cherish you and make you feel free to experience unconditional love for yourself. She is the Empath, the Mother and the Muse who awakens your Spirit and causes you to Question yur identity and current belief systems.

The Sacred Intimate is the Sacred Mother always smiling upon you and allowing you to make choices even if they are poor choices she never judges. The art of Sacred Intimacy involves safe boundaries. You both agree or make a Sacred pact and contract to speak to each other with complete attention and full respect. If anything triggers you or makes you feel unsafe or enraged you delicately request of the Sacred Intimate to stop and speak with you about your feelings as they are occurring. You share your joy, your memories and your fears. You explore these array of feelings with her because you know she will not judge you or the situation. If you feel the need to stop the session midway through you share that with her and you may want to continue at a later date or never again. Again there are no judgements here for as long as you are willing to try and be who you are in your authenticity.

Your agreement to begin your journey is all that your Sacred Intimate requires of you. If you are willing to at least let go of your fears and feel what the energy is like as opposed to just “imagining” what it can be like then that is all that matters. Try new things with your Sacred Intimate. Go outside and explore the city with your Sacred Intimate; you don’t have to be restricted or confined into one activity in an inside area. You are free to explore every sensual aspect of yourself.

I hope you join me this week in Chicago or maybe you might wish to sponsor me in your home city.

Goddess Diana
Sacred Intimate, Muse, Reiki Master, Massage therapist
and Confidante

Couples welcome!
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