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December 23, 2019 No comments

Why you should boycott the Eros Guide♥️

I’m having a hard time staying cheerful this week. I’m sure all of you out there in social media are used to mostly cheerful, uplifting and inspiring messages; but I’m not a fake person. I’m a very honest transparent woman who has literally been involved in the healing arts and sensual massage practice for over 25 years. Many of my peers can’t say the same of themselves though.

Today I noticed a ton of visiting goddesses from San Francisco visiting Chicago this week especially for the holidays. Trust me the majority of these women are in my age range from mid 40’s to 50 yet they are posting fake chronological ages because they are not forced by the Eros Guide to share their true chronological age. I also wish to mention that San Francisco has much better weather than we currently have here in Chicago but the reality of the situation is the tantra and sensual massage markets are extremely over saturated for these visiting Goddesses who come here and charge almost twice to three times what I charge my guests. You have to understand that if these women were not struggling financially in their own market they certainly wouldn’t wish to suffer the colder climates here not to mention incur costly travel fare and hotel fees.

They are all allowed to continue using The Eros Guide and announce their visits to Chicago consistantly and their ads are never banned or modified like mine were in the past when I once was a paying advertiser on the eos guide.
I of course was permanently banned two years ago because my supervisor who was in charge of my ongoing advertisement decided I could no longer use certain key words because I was in violation of their new terms.
When Lisa (my eros supervisor) called me I was visiting St. Louis, Missouri with my two pets and spending most of what I earned on our hotel costs, storage fees and other ongoing bills I must pay.
I was in the midst of a very bad menstrual cycle and I suffered a lot of blood loss during each of my cycles while traveling abroadI was very tired and in absolutely no mood or mindset to argue with anyone.
Lisa asked me to give her new text or rather she DEMANDED that I change the words on the spot that she had physically removed from my tantra advertisement. I asked her to let me replace the words later in the day when I could return to my hotel room and correct the text on my laptop.
I asked her what she had against me and why the Eros Guide allowed my competitors to post paraphrased text from poems; yet I myself was never allowed to use a line of poetry and include credits to the author’s works.
I asked Lisa why the Eros Guide played favorites. I told her I’m most definitely not an escort service and that I was a Sex Educator and a formally trained professional, licensed tantra massage therapist.
I told Lisa that I don’t sell sex; rather I teach people how to feel more sexual energy within their entire body through breathing techniques and intentional interactive guided touch. I told her I never engage in sexual intercourse with any of my clients and that I’m not a GFE or girl friend experience like most of the women that currently advertise there.
The next day Tim from the legal department announced they had now banned me for life. I had paid handsomely for many years to an entity known as Dark side productions A.K.A the Eros guide; yet Tim said that based on my tape recorded phone conversation with Lisa I could never advertise with Eros again.
Why is this devastating? Because Eros guide was created in San Francisco, California and it appears it’s no more than a 3rd party source or Brothel which caters to the Eros guide administrator’s personal group of friends.
In the past I had noticed my ads and tiny banners would receive a total of 2,000 clicks from visitors to my website per week; so I’m assuming my ongoing presence on their website was harmful and direct competition to the staff of the eros guide team. The Eros Guide was formally created in San Francisco and the staff’s close personal friends consistently visit Chicago from San Francisco every major holiday season and during our Conventions.
I logged onto the Eros Guide today and noticed most of the ads are from visiting tantra Goddesses who only live in Chicago part time and only visit our city during major conventions and holidays.
I’m no longer allowed to advertise on the Eros Guide and I’ve even asked another site called Sacred Eros if I could be included but Betty Martin who owns Sacred Eros told me I could not advertise with her because she had issues with my cc card in the past when I had been the victim of cc fraud living in new Orleans.

It’s the lack of overall loyalty here in Chicago that is the brunt of the problem though. You see as we all know men tend to enjoy variety. They stick with a woman for a limited amount of time and then they like to explore other options. If these visiting goddesses were truly busy in San Francisco with their loyal group of clients then trust me they would have no desire to wish to visit Chicago during the dead of our typically brutal winter seasons. It isn’t so much that these Goddesses have more knowledge of tantra; it’s simply that their clientele lost interest and now they rely on travel to other cities to stay busy.

Men in general tend to like variety over consistency. I’m not saying all men do; but the majority of men I have seen as clients are now hiring these women who “just visit Chicago” temporarily. In fact I know that one Goddess who goes by two different aliases rents a loft space near The United Center and she splits the cost of this space between her and her other tantra colleagues who all come from San Francisco. These women take turns renting the space on a weekly basis but no one lives there full time. These women are merely here to hustle their services; makes as much money as they can within a time frame and return to San Francisco which is where they reside full time.

It’s hard for me to stay afloat when I’m not afforded the same opportunities that these women are given. I’m no longer allowed to market myself on these two websites and the clients that live here are less keen and inclined to stay loyal to the people that live here permanently.

I’ve been abnormally slower than I should be. It could be many factors like lack of professional SEO services and the fact that tantra sites I once used no longer exist on the internet. The market here for tantra is now completely and utterly oversaturated with competitors that don’t live here full time but just visit Chicago temporarily to SEIZE AND PLUNDER and fatten their wallets to be able to afford their expensive loft properties in San Francisco, California.

I truly hope people understand the stress I’m under now. I have fewer websites to advertise on and there is now an oversaturation of tantra goddesses who visit and or have permanently relocated to Chicago.
It’s been a tough holiday season for me just trying to subsist and what hurts most is I myself am not allowed to advertise on the same equal leverage as everyone else who just visits here.

I wish to add one more important fact. Perhaps you aren’t aware of this but The Eros Guide was raided by homeland security two years ago at their headquarters in North Carolina. Every woman that was still advertising actively on that site had their legal names, social security numbers and physical addresses shared by these people who raided the Eros guide. I also need to let the general public understand that Eros Guide will most definitely agree to cooperate with the FBI and any court of law and share their data base and the advertiser’s names with the police and with the Feds. If you continue to contract the services of women on the Eros Guide then you need to know their personal information is being shared with the authorities and with the Eros Guide’s consent.

Please understand I’m not a mean spirited person. I do however understand the dynamics now of how this game is run. THE EROS GUIDE is here first and foremost to serve themselves. MANY of the advertising team members were or currently are escorts themselves. If the team members at Eros take notice that any individual is attracting a huge portion of clicks they may choose and will decide to deactivate any known competition. If you haven’t noticed, the Eros Guide was barren for a while. They got rid of more than half the regular and loyal advertises like me from ever being able to advertise again. New people and or close friends of the eros guide staff are only permitted to advertise there now. New rules were always being made by the Eros Guide legal team and every phone conversation we ever had with our representatives were being recorded without our knowledge or consent.

When you continue to advertise with the Eros Guide you must understand that your physical identity state cards will be shared with law enforcement services and the Eros Guide must comply and give your information away to these entities.

When you as a client contract the services now from women who currently advertise on the Eros Guide then you are hiring a circle of women who probably already have a close friendship with the staff team members of Eros so in essence you are most likely indirectly contracting the services of a state wide brothel.

I’m wishing everyone here a safe holiday. Knowledge is power. Two years ago after the Eros Glllllllllllllllluide banned me I consulted with a professional psychic. She told me that being banned was a blessing in disguise because she saw exactly what was going to happen when homeland security invaded the Eros Guide’s main headquarters. She said I was spared so much trouble and that the women who advertise on the Eros Guide are technically just “window dressing” for the higher crimes and money laundering currently going on that these people hide from you the consumer and me the former advertiser.

Everything I shared with you today comes from my heart and from my personal knowledge after having dealt with these dishonest group of people. If you don’t believe most of what I’ve written today all you need to do is go on Google and type in The Eros Guide RIP off Report in your browser.

The Eros Guide is no longer owned by the same group of people I originally advertised with back in the 1990’s. There are so many innocent providers who have paid the Eros Guide faithfully for many years that are now formally banned for life for reasons unbeknownst to us. The original staff is probably long gone or may have changed the way they do things; but regardless they have cheated a lot of people and played favorites to their personal friends and colleagues.

Goddess Diana http://www.tantrabutterfly.com

I am an independent tantra educator and massage therapist. I use reiki, intuitive touch, chakra balancing, tantra yoga massage, sound healing, chanting and aromatherapy during my tantra massage ceremonies.

You are welcome to visit my website http://www.tantrabutterfly.com for a comprehensive list of ceremonial options or you may arrange to meet me for a paid coffee consultation and discuss your goals and budget with me prior to your first tantra session with me here in Chicago.

Goddess Diana 312 339 7707

June 17, 2019 No comments

Today is Father’s Day 🧸

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Today is Father’s Day but I don’t miss my biological father who physically kicked my mother in the stomach when she was carrying me in her womb. In fact I still don’t respect my own mother who is also deceased because what kind of mother remains married to a man who would attempt to threaten the life of her unborn child?

I’m posting this information not to garner any sympathy but to help people understand that not all of us here had desirable childhoods or pleasant memories of our parents during these traditional Hallmark card American created Holidays.

I’m not even a tad bit sentimental or regretful today because both my parents failed me and they were in a sick codependent relationship with one another and when my mother found out my father was schizophrenic she was even considering an abortion and deeply worried that I myself would develop schizophrenia like my father since it is after all hereditary.

Well my father had a complete nervous meltdown when my mother became pregnant and she told me he had kicked her hard then spent several months in treatment in the hospital for his mental condition.

Medication and talk therapy can only do so much for anyone suffering from delusions and I knew my father became a completely different person when he got angry with me or my mother. You could literally see his dark, black pupils become so enlarged his brown eyes became pitch black and he no longer looked human.

My father was very abusive to me…I have good memories of him when he showed genuine compassion towards me but his cruelty outweighed anything good he showed me and If I could go back in time as a young child I’d love to relive all those scary instances but ideally I would have left my home physically and spent more time outdoors or at the library and escaped his blind rages.

Not every father is ideal for the position of parenting so only a handful of lucky people out there had good, healthy relationships with their mothers and fathers. At the very least some of us as children were blessed to have a good role model either in the form of an uncle, a teacher or a close family friend.

I myself spent a good part of my childhood and puberty hiding in fear from my father who was not only diagnosed with schizophrenia but truly possessed by demonic entities. I’d love to understand what on earth I must have done in a previous incarnation to deserve such a frightening childhood but I know it shaped my character and made me a more sensitive child more empathetic than my peers.

I remember also being bullied by children my own age from five years old to age 16. At times I’d defend myself and the children would eventually learn to steer clear of me if I decided to defend myself properly. Most of the time I didn’t do anything to defend myself and I’d just cry quietly to myself at home. If my mother found out I had been bullied she usually didn’t have sympathy for me at all; in fact she genuinely became angry at me and wanted to know how I could let any of these peers take advantage of me or beat me up.

I learned to avoid and isolate myself from children in my school and at times I’d fight back when enough was enough and I had had my fill. I certainly didn’t mind fighting back and I at times learned how to adequately defend myself from my father’s tantrums and misdirected anger.

I never celebrate Father’s Day here on my Facebook wall but I know it’s a special day for at least a few blessed people out there in social media who knew what it felt like to be deeply loved unconditionally and respected by their fathers.

I leave this here on my wall not to garner sympathy but to help others understand that we don’t all celebrate this Holiday. Some of us don’t to this day understand why we ended up with the parents we had. I know a psychic reader I hired last year acknowledged to me what I had already known. My father was indeed a Channel for Spirits…all Spirits even Malevolent Spirits. He couldn’t control what he received so the doctor’s misdiagnosed his clairvoyance and prescribed him with pills and other medications that no doubt made his visions that much worse and skewed his reality further.

My parents were VESSELS …they were important in that they brought me here. I’m alive and I myself am clairvoyant and clairsentient and clairaudient. I know how to ground my own energies and I’ve never allowed any entity to ” take over the steering wheel ”

I can filter what it is I wish to receive and I function well on my own independently . I truly do not desire nor crave anyone else to “compliment” or “complete” me. I’ve had so many things taken from me but I’ve endured it and I’m content. I would never refuse genuine help if it were offered up to me but I learned the hard way that help is rarely offered unless there are “strings” attached.

My upbringing made me more sensitive and strong. I learned not to expect too much from anyone and I learned as I got into adulthood that people you date can abandon you when you need them the most especially if you let your guard down and bared your true feelings to them.

Anyone can disappoint you at anytime. The key to being truly happy is self reliance, self respect and unconditional self love. You must be there for yourself and learn to hold your own hand during the darkness.

By the way I do not give readings to anyone. I sometimes might give my clients advice and pick up information they may need to hear from their Spirit Guides or “higher power “; but I don’t want to “probe” anyone I don’t know personally and interfere in their journey.

My psychic abilities have lead me to understand that I should place complete faith in myself first because of my own bodily signals or slight panic attacks. I learned from firsthand experience that if I do not honor my own intuition I will be misled or reap the consequences of being completely taken advantage of by people who don’t have my best interests in mind.

I have experienced what it feels like numerous times not to be listened to and not to be taken seriously especially by people who were in a position to guide me or offer me help.

I suggest that if any of you reading my blog get a nagging gut feeling within you that some path isn’t right for you that you honor yourself first and pay close attention to your body’s signals. If you feel nauseous or sweaty or truly ill before a decision you’ve made you may need to change your intended course of action and back away and try another alternative plan.

No one will be able to predict an outcome for you because we always have free will and the ability to change our minds frequently. In honor of Father’s Day seek out answers within you more often. Never question your own intuition and never put all your faith in one entity or one set way of doing something.

In honor of Father’s day learn to create sacred space within yourself first. When you wake up each day keep track of your thoughts. Are you sending comforting thoughts to yourself and your physical body or are you silently criticising yourself ?

You alone carry all the answers within you and you alone intuitively understand how and where to begin the process and long journey of self healing and renewal.

August 3, 2015 No comments

The true intention of tantra massage is Not about achieving orgasm; it is about activating your ability to feel pleasure!

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Everyone wants to know what it feels like to achieve a full body orgasm but few people understand that the true intention of tantra massage is to attain greater body awareness, mindfulness and a better connection to your own body. How do we learn to let go of our expectations? We learn to let go of our goals by simply focusing on our body. If you can be still and relax in the moment during a tantra healing or a tantra massage your body will feel “safe” and you are then giving your body permission to do what it needs to do to let go and feel blissful.
Bliss can either be attained through a yoga class, meditation, tantra massage or any pleasurable activity that takes you away from your ego or your mind. Yes I know this sounds very esoteric or erudite but tantra massage is so much more important than just a bodily response to pleasure.
It is true that we trigger all our pleasure zones or centers during a teasing tantra massage and light touch can be just as healing as a deep sports tissue massage. Never underestimate that a light, sensual stroke can uplift your spirits and heal your heart center in a way that is far more profound than a swedish massage. I recommend that if you are to fully appreciate a light touch you let go of all your prior expectations of what you have heard about tantra.
Some people are under the misconception that tantra is just about the sensual pleasure and the art of Eros; but true tantra is a spiritual journey and a real oasis you can return to often anytime you wish to balance out your body’s desires to be held sacred and your raw sexual energy. I would not go into a tantra ceremony with a long list of goals but focus on the breath and the results you achieve gradually over a few month’s time.
One needs to be patient with their tantra teacher and once you realize that the orgasm is simply a wonderful after affect of the energetic process of sensual awareness you can overcome your sense of fear and your lack of confidence with others.
You approach a tantra massage with an open heart and a willingness to learn more about yourself and your boundaries. If a touch is exceedingly pleasurable this is where you want to stretch out the breath and try and enjoy the sensations without guilt and without judgment. Do not think of having an orgasm. The major goal here is to feel a sense of being out of your body and out of your own mind. Do not think, do not doubt and just let the sensations unfold slowly. When you begin to feel numbness or tingling or warmth that is a good sign that your energy centers are beginning to communicate with each other and your sexual energy is traveling through all the different conduits slowly. Do not be disappointed with yourself if you only feel numbness. Do not worry if nothing seems to be build into the ultimate pinnacle of pleasure. You should relax and breathe in every sensation allowing the energies to flow where they need to be because energy tends to congregate in those areas of your body that needs the most healing.

Tantra is about renewal, regeneration and being fully present in each moment. We need to be patient with ourselves no matter how much or little we feel during a tantra ceremony. It is important to know that our body’s are wise and our body’s have an innate knowledge of what we are ready to experience regardless of whether we are able to achieve orgasm or not.