Posts tagged “reiki

Today is Father’s Day 🧸

Today is Father’s Day but I don’t miss my biological father who physically kicked my mother in the stomach when she was carrying me in her womb. In fact I still don’t respect my own mother who is also deceased because what kind of mother remains married to a man who would attempt to threaten the life of her unborn child?

I’m posting this information not to garner any sympathy but to help people understand that not all of us here had desirable childhoods or pleasant memories of our parents during these traditional Hallmark card American created Holidays.

I’m not even a tad bit sentimental or regretful today because both my parents failed me and they were in a sick codependent relationship with one another and when my mother found out my father was schizophrenic she was even considering an abortion and deeply worried that I myself would develop schizophrenia like my father since it is after all hereditary.

Well my father had a complete nervous meltdown when my mother became pregnant and she told me he had kicked her hard then spent several months in treatment in the hospital for his mental condition.

Medication and talk therapy can only do so much for anyone suffering from delusions and I knew my father became a completely different person when he got angry with me or my mother. You could literally see his dark, black pupils become so enlarged his brown eyes became pitch black and he no longer looked human.

My father was very abusive to me…I have good memories of him when he showed genuine compassion towards me but his cruelty outweighed anything good he showed me and If I could go back in time as a young child I’d love to relive all those scary instances but ideally I would have left my home physically and spent more time outdoors or at the library and escaped his blind rages.

Not every father is ideal for the position of parenting so only a handful of lucky people out there had good, healthy relationships with their mothers and fathers. At the very least some of us as children were blessed to have a good role model either in the form of an uncle, a teacher or a close family friend.

I myself spent a good part of my childhood and puberty hiding in fear from my father who was not only diagnosed with schizophrenia but truly possessed by demonic entities. I’d love to understand what on earth I must have done in a previous incarnation to deserve such a frightening childhood but I know it shaped my character and made me a more sensitive child more empathetic than my peers.

I remember also being bullied by children my own age from five years old to age 16. At times I’d defend myself and the children would eventually learn to steer clear of me if I decided to defend myself properly. Most of the time I didn’t do anything to defend myself and I’d just cry quietly to myself at home. If my mother found out I had been bullied she usually didn’t have sympathy for me at all; in fact she genuinely became angry at me and wanted to know how I could let any of these peers take advantage of me or beat me up.

I learned to avoid and isolate myself from children in my school and at times I’d fight back when enough was enough and I had had my fill. I certainly didn’t mind fighting back and I at times learned how to adequately defend myself from my father’s tantrums and misdirected anger.

I never celebrate Father’s Day here on my Facebook wall but I know it’s a special day for at least a few blessed people out there in social media who knew what it felt like to be deeply loved unconditionally and respected by their fathers.

I leave this here on my wall not to garner sympathy but to help others understand that we don’t all celebrate this Holiday. Some of us don’t to this day understand why we ended up with the parents we had. I know a psychic reader I hired last year acknowledged to me what I had already known. My father was indeed a Channel for Spirits…all Spirits even Malevolent Spirits. He couldn’t control what he received so the doctor’s misdiagnosed his clairvoyance and prescribed him with pills and other medications that no doubt made his visions that much worse and skewed his reality further.

My parents were VESSELS …they were important in that they brought me here. I’m alive and I myself am clairvoyant and clairsentient and clairaudient. I know how to ground my own energies and I’ve never allowed any entity to ” take over the steering wheel ”

I can filter what it is I wish to receive and I function well on my own independently . I truly do not desire nor crave anyone else to “compliment” or “complete” me. I’ve had so many things taken from me but I’ve endured it and I’m content. I would never refuse genuine help if it were offered up to me but I learned the hard way that help is rarely offered unless there are “strings” attached.

My upbringing made me more sensitive and strong. I learned not to expect too much from anyone and I learned as I got into adulthood that people you date can abandon you when you need them the most especially if you let your guard down and bared your true feelings to them.

Anyone can disappoint you at anytime. The key to being truly happy is self reliance, self respect and unconditional self love. You must be there for yourself and learn to hold your own hand during the darkness.

By the way I do not give readings to anyone.  I sometimes might give my clients advice and pick up information they may need to hear from their Spirit Guides or “higher power “; but I don’t want to “probe” anyone I don’t know personally and interfere in their journey.

My psychic abilities have lead me to understand that I should place complete faith in myself first because of my own bodily signals or slight panic attacks.  I learned from firsthand experience that if I do not honor my own intuition I will be misled or reap the consequences of being completely taken advantage of by people who don’t have my best interests in mind.

I have experienced what it feels like numerous times not to be listened to and not to be taken seriously especially by people who were in a position to guide me or offer me help.

I suggest that if any of you reading my blog get a nagging gut feeling within you that some path isn’t right for you that you honor yourself first and pay close attention to your body’s signals.  If you feel nauseous or sweaty or truly ill before a decision you’ve made you may need to change your intended course of action and back away and try another alternative plan.

No one will be able to predict an outcome for you because we always have free will and the ability to change our minds frequently.  In honor of Father’s Day seek out answers within you more often.  Never question your own intuition and never put all your faith in one entity or one set way of doing something.

In honor of Father’s day learn to create sacred space within yourself first. When you wake up each day keep track of your thoughts.  Are you sending comforting thoughts to yourself and your physical body or are you silently criticising yourself ?

You alone carry all the answers within you and you alone intuitively understand how and where to begin the process and long journey of self healing and renewal.

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Tantra massage healing benefits 🎈 For men & women 🎈

Hello beautiful and attentive beings who follow my playful and informative blog! I decided to share with you the fact that tantra has nothing to do with sexual gratification rather it’s about using your sexual energy as medicine!  When you actively concentrate on sending your sexual energy everywhere rather than locally you empower and awaken all dormant erogenous zones not excluding any areas of pain trapped in your physical body.

 

If you decide to try a tantra session here with me in Chicago I’d be delighted to help you achieve a state of complete lightness of being where you literally feel weightlessness and a complete detachment from the heaviness of your physical body.

The main focus of a tantra healing is to empower you to transcend the confines of raw carnal energies that carry a lower baser vibration keeping you trapped in a cycle of sexual craving.  Our main goal is to give you tools so when you are with your loved one you are not merely focusing on what you can feverishly take but rather you create a mutual flow of bonding equally with one another’s rhythms so there is balance rather than a seize and conquer lower energy vibration.

When we are in session together you do nothave to prove anything to me or prove anything to yourself. During your tantra exploration you learn to part ways with all things heavy and unsatisfying!  In fact I’m going to teach you the art of complete detachment and the bliss of being here with me in the moment without feeling as if you are connected to the passage of time.

Our tantra ritual will begin with communication and you are not being judged nor is your performance being measured.  Tantra is not about having an earthquake orgasm nor are you defective for suffering from erectile dysfunction or lack of sensitivity if you are a woman who has never even experienced full body orgasm.

Tantra increases your sensory perception and enhances your intuition and your awareness of your light bodies such as your chakra system and your aura.  Tantra engages diaphragm breathing and ocean breath.  Your breath will be much deeper and slower altering your brain waves and opening up blockages in your third eye enhancing your ability to feel and Intuit what others are feeling and thinking.

What kind of touch will you hope to expect?  Do you want to feel the intense power of lightly caressing strokes as i barely graze over your skin and body hairs!?  That’s all it takes to get you out of your mind and into the celestial soup…a realm of creative life force that is limitless.

Tantra will increase your metabolism so the main sign of a successful tantra massage session is a feeling of peacefulness and an opening of your appetite.  Don’t fight that urge…eat and enjoy your food because your senses have been fully activated and awakened so you will feel greater bodily pleasure after our session is over.

Tantra heals your heart and satiates that skin hunger you feel when you are starved for touch.  Don’t punish yourself when you’re in between relationships.  Focus on sending yourself a lot of self love, eat to  bolster your energy level, exercise and include tantra massage as a bi monthly or monthly balm to soothe heartache because you still have needs and this is not a time to abstain or self inflict punishment on yourself.

Tantra massage reduces your stress level naturally lowering your blood pressure as we breathe together in unison.  Your cortisol levels drop and your heart rate is much slower as i teach you ocean breath and rebirthing breath.  Breathing is the key ingredient we both partake of together as we circulate positive, loving energy back and forth between our major energy centers.

I hope I’ve inspired all of you to read more on tantra yoga because standing all on it’s own the practice of tantra keeps you light filled and positive about your body and you will appreciate touch for the sake of touching not because you expect an end result for yourself or your partner!

Do you wish to learn more?  Please read my main website http://www.tantrabutterfly.com !  My site is constantly evolving and there are so many wonderful options if you decide to go forward with your first tantra session here in Chicago.

I do accept sponsorships so let’s brainstorm together and set a few uncommon goals because you are unique and you may need a slight different approach  than the person sitting beside you at work or in any social setting.  You have your own story to share and tantra may affect you differently than another person who might be an advanced Yogi or energy worker.

I can be found on Facebook so feel free to like my three public pages tantra butterfly, goddess Diana and camouflage butterfly.  I have another online blog  here… http://www.Tantrabutterfly.blogspot.com 🎈

Support me by referring me to anyone you think will be a good energy match for my website because we all attract what we are in the present moment and a lot of the people i met were a product of pure kismet and soul connections.

Spread the positive healing aspects of tantra yoga everywhere you go and to anyone who is experiencing challenges or full body kundalini awakenings!

Goddess Diana http://www.tantrabutterfly.com

Sensual muse, reiki master, adept, massage therapist and couples tantra coach

312-339-7707

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Another wonderful thing about Tantra!  You don’t have to prove your worth to me because i accept you at face value.  I am not ashamed of the work i do or the path i represent and so for these reasons i always use my real legal name so please expect me to ask the same of you!  There is no stigma for wanting to reclaim your sexual energy and power back.  You will not be judged by your lack of knowledge but if will want you to share details of your past history so we both are on equal grounds.  Im have to be your friend, healer and teacher and i will honor your boundaries just as you will honor mine as we co create sacred space.

A full day of tantra with goddess Diana 💓 in Chicago 🐦

So hypothetically, you randomly found me while doing a Google search using two key words–tantra and massage respectively.  You may have searched under alternative healing, chakra balancing, sounds healing and reiki.  Tantra includes all of these aspects and if you want to really delve into the realm of tantra yoga and tantra massage here in Chicago, I’d strongly advise you to plunge in and indulge yourself in a five hour or full day and night of sensory overload 🌒!

I’m professionally trained to help you reconnect to your power centers which includes a full body awakening 🐯 called kundalini Shakti 🐍.  You will be engaged in sound healing, fresh fruit, trigger point massage and a chakra bath that I will prepare for you so you feel embraced and safe.

Our tantra journey will begin with an intimate conversation so I can understand all your goals fully 🎈.  We will be holding hands, touching our heart centers, chanting and laughing.  Laughter is the most healing and empowering medicine and you will feel your pelvic muscles loosen up as I use my intuition to help you create more flow and energy in your power centers we call chakras.

Tantra is about mutual touch, mutual trust, mutual connection and breaking through all the stumbling blocks currently preventing you from acquiring abundance and creativity.  We work together creating a space of healing and gentleness.

Five hours of tantra is as effective as five separate tantra sessions and it will help speed up your awakening through pranayama, third eye activation and an open heart center which helps you heal past the cellular level helping you find the courage to make dramatic changes in your physical and emotional bodies.

Please take some time to read my main website http://www.tantabutterfly.com because i want you to read about my journey as a healer, reiki master, and tantra educator.  Read the testimonials and see if you feel a connection to the words I’ve written over the years.

Each tantra session in Chicago and other cities is unique and we focus on issues you wish to heal or maybe you are innately curious and you wish to let down your guard and help co create sacred space with me.

I welcome your questions so you may email me at butterflyshadows@aol.com or tantragoddessdiana@gmail.com or simply call me at 312-339-7707.

Tantra will change your body, electrify your spirit and help you regain your sense of connectedness.

Goddess 🌹 Diana of http://www.tantrabutterfly.com

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Astral travelling while receiving Sacred Spot Massage during Kundalini Shakti

Maya Derren The relector (meshes)I promised I would write a brief essay on a couple of experiences I had with clients who did actually go into a lucid/dream trance and were able to coherently share bits and pieces after our session so we could both enjoy the story of their “whereabouts” in the astral plane!

The first incident and the most profound took place during a trip I made to visit San Diego, California a few days after my mother died of cancer. At the time I was living in New Orleans and visiting my mother once a month in Chicago while keeping my client base in Chicago. I decided to visit San Diego and walk along the ocean and I attracted one individual who said he’d always wanted a session with me and was following my website for a long time but we were never in the same city during his business travels.

He admitted to me that he practiced yoga and meditation for a long time now and he enjoyed vision quests, transcendental meditation and tantra yoga was now part of his path so he told me he was very comfortable with me exploring his sacred spot and to feel free at the end to do this since he had no boundaries and was excited to try anything.

I had some beautiful music and in the background a man was taking you on a journey to the depths of the earth and you could hear sounds of the cave and dripping water from caverns.

At the end when I was triggering his sacred spot I noticed he actually convulsed steadily and his eyes rolled back till all I could see were the whites of his eyes. He was no longer with me and I did not know how to pull him back in but I figured I would just let him ride and not panic. After his eyes were rolled back for a considerable time he spoke in an Ancient language that sounded like Ancient Hebrew or Aramaic but it was incredibly real and lovely to listen to. Again I refused to panic and I just held the space for him to do what he needed to do.

Finally after he was triggered into full body orgasm he came back to me gradually breathing deeply and I asked him if he remembered speaking in tongues.

He looked blankly at me and said he had no recollection but could I share with him what he was saying. I said I can’t translate ancient hebrew but it was beautiful like a reverent chant and I really was not sure of the language origin but it was pretty so i was not scared.

He did say he had visions during his awakening and he said it involved two different goddesses. The first Goddess that encountered him danced around him in circles and she had a gold body and long, blood red hair. She danced and left. The second Goddess was the white goddess and she had long, silver hair and as she danced around him he realized she was going to become famous and author many books on tantra yoga.

I did not know what to say but I thanked him for sharing his story with me. I do know one thing with regards to tantra yoga. If a student comes to you with a pre knowledge of proper breath and the yoga postures then he or she will have a more profound experience rather than just telling you they felt some “heat”. He obviously trusted me enough to go into the astral plane and just zone out there for a while so I was very grateful to be a witness to his journey!

My second experience with astral travels occurred years later in the city of Chicago. I met a really nice, slightly out of shape man with a huge teddy bear heart. He was just so open and caring and when he arrived at my apartment he hugged me and he kept saying repeatedly that he felt like he has known me forever.

He also gave me permission to work with his prostrate and again I noticed he got very quiet at me towards the last half hour of our session. We were still together and I could still feel his energy near me but somehow his breathing became much heavier sounding and when it was again time for his full body awakening his entire body became electrical like a wire overflowing with energies. I did bring him back to reality and I encouraged him to speak about his journey.

He told me he saw the two of us in a very dark room, dimly lit only by the light of candles. He was wearing a heavy ceremonial crown upon his head and he felt the vibe was joyful and festive rather than being sombre. He knew for a fact we were together enjoying a joyous occasion in Ancient Egypt. I was so excited to hear this and I wanted to know what I looked like because when I participated in a DNA activation ceremony in Boulder, Colorado I heard a song of the Goddess Isis during my activation ceremony so I knew I was of her DNA lineage and she had importance to me.

He said it was too dark for him to see my face clearly but he knew it was me from my energy and my vibration. Well you can’t believe how excited I was to share this experience with a new client whom I had never met before! I felt deeply grateful that he was able to remember such detail as he traveled back into one of his past lives with me.

If anyone needs to know why I am so passionate about assisting people with the Sacred Sensual energies I think it is the unknown and all the wonderful unexpected surprises you can find and feelings of deja vu when you meet new clients who seem familiar to you on your path.

It takes a strong sense of self to put yourself in such a vulnerable and open position and if you can let yourself zone out and can fully trust your body takes you places and your spirit tunes into Universal flow so easily and so readily. Being receptive to these sexual energies is a gift and involved maturity, trust, joy and complete openness. One thing both of these men had in common was inner joy and a blind belief in the miracles of energetic healing. Both men trusted me with their sacred energy implicitly without holding anything back and without any cynicism.

If anyone wishes to learn more Sacred Spot Massage there are wonderful authors everywhere on the internet who compile a collective of stories but you can only “conjecture” when you read a book. If you are brave enough and willing to let go then I welcome you to take your first step with Sacred Spot Massage and we can go as slowly as you need working within your comfort zone and your boundaries.

Please visit my site http://www.tantrabutterfly.com and if you feel ready and if you do feel a connection to me I would be flattered to be your first Tantra Muse on your new path to self discovery and greater body awareness. Your third eye takes it’s own sweet time to awaken and Sacred Spot Massage assists you in your awakening process with gentleness and arousal of all your erogenous zones.

Goddess Diana Sensual Muse
http://www.tantrabutterfly.com
(312)339-7707

Tantra and Traveling and Escaping out of yourself ♬♫♪

Diana retro harlow red couchHello everyone! Well since I left the city of Chicago October 1st I have been offering tantra in New York city, Boston, Cambridge Ma, and NOW I am in Indianapolis, Indiana on my way to head over to New Orleans, Louisiana. Life is about Journeying and having fun! How on earth will we ever meet new people unless we venture out of our comfort zones anyway?
I have been setting up sacred space, introducing new guests to tantra and enjoying new sights with my pets since October 1st. I am not a fan of winter so it was my personal decision to choose New Orleans, Louisiana to spend the winter season and hopefully get reintroduced to the culture there since I love historical architecture and the slower paced lifestyle of the South in general.
Boston was wonderful. I met so many kind and creative people in Boston and I do not regret venturing out of Chicago for these experiences. I do get scared when I leave Chicago since Chicago is what I KNOW and I have lived most of my younger life and adult life in the city without ever relying on a car. However I like to shake things up in my life and it gives me such a thrill to live on the edge like this.
Tantra is about taking chances and exploration. What defines YOU? Do you define yourself by your ability to make good friends or are you more of an Isolationist and you like to get things done for yourself without relying on others?
Tantra is a bit of both. Tantra explores WHO YOU ARE AND HOW YOU DEFINE YOURSELF! We grow as we explore our sensual nature. What ever it is that you are good at Tantra will improve the flow of your life because you learn to breathe and when you breathe you activate NOT just your sexual energy but you activate your intuition.
I can’t say everyone feels something the first time they see me for a session but most people who are sensitive to touch and energy will shift layers only on ONE session. I breathe and chant with my dog daily and I practice pranayama daily so when we concentrate on the the breath we are focusing on the present .
It is a challenge for everyone these days just to live in the moment. Sometimes people have a tendency to be on a very tight schedule when they see me. They might have to pick up a child at violin or soccer practice. Their phone might be left on just in case their partner has an emergency. I wish people could just let a little bit more when they see me. My sessions are reasonably priced but the information and experiences that can be experienced is profound if you can LET GO of all external influences, worries and thoughts.
Tantra YOGA is after all YOGA. This is not some random silly excuse to a sensual flirt or tease this is actual CONCRETE healing profound energy work and I want everyone to get the most out of our time together.
It’s not fair to you and it’s not fair to me to keep a cell phone on. You deserve a treat.
Tantra massage and Tantra Yoga are healing tools. I heal myself profoundly each time I give a session. Yes I might go through states of worry, anxiety and panic during the day but this is a normal progression when you are reaching to Bliss. Tantra massage and Tantra YOGA are bliss explorations. You Test YOURSELF. You keep pushing your comfort level on what you might wish to learn and explore. You learn more about yourself. You learn how to touch someone with true intention.
Some clients who visited me for Goddess Worship were under the false assumption that this work is easy. NO it’s not easy. You are going to learn how to breathe maybe for the first time in your life. You are going to learn how to breathe, slow down your pace with you r lover, touch with heart intention and honor your beloved. Goddess worship is about making your lover feel so special she is empowered and energy is released in a very positive flow that makes both of you feel more trust and relaxation. There is a shared glow, a shared trust, a shared love and devotion that follows.
I am here in the moment enjoying my 2 day stay here in Indianapolis and I intend to attract the right people who might appreciate me. If I don’t attract the right people then simply it was not meant to be but trust me I learned something anyway. This is the first time I drove in a car with a complete stranger who became a really good friend to me and my pets. Tyler picked me up in Boston just two days ago and he fit me, my belongings, my pets and pet food in his tiny mini cooper. He writes an online blog that involves his own personal journey and he is also a great web designer. Both of us were excited to travel on this journey together that will eventually end in New Orleans. We are both staying with his friends Bre and Leslie in Indianapolis and I have had so much fun laughing, getting a bit of work and simply walking my dog in a new neighborhood.
I have lead a Tantra lifestyle ever since I knew how to talk. What is Tantra to you? Tantra is energy it’s not some cute catch phrase for sexual awareness it is YOU. We have one life we have many lifetimes to uncover what we need and want. Just shake off your fears and be in the moment.
I intend to relish every moment. My intention for you is that you let go of your fears and be prepared to experience tingling, joy, shaking, fear, panic the whole gamut of who you are.
I hope I meet you where ever you are in your life. And I hope I continue to travel for many years to come and be in this field that brings me so much joy and challenges.
Goddess Diana
http://www.tantrabutterfly.com
312-339-7707
I even offer personalized phone readings if you can’t see me in person. Enjoy your life. Spend your days wisely and travel more. Travel outside. Try tantra yoga once and take a break from it for a while but I bet you when you reach out and try tantra again it will carry a different meaning for you. 

I love using “toys” crytals during my Chakra balancing sessions!

Chakra balancing is very similar to a good healthy work out for your body. Chakra balancing can be achieved with your own innate ability to feel and perceive your blocks or aches and pains in your body. If you understand that a chakra is a place to receive and send energy then each major chakra body we have correlates to a major organ or function in our physical body.

Simply put if you were a constant sufferer of headaches, migraines or stubborn sinus infections you would sense not only discomfort but a block in your 6th and 7th chakras which combined together involve your connection to your own inner ability to perceive what we consider Source and or your ability to intuit and use your gut intuition before making important decisions.

We can focus on colors that correlate to each of our major chakra bodies and we can use powerful visualizations, repeat affirmations, wear certain fragrances, wear special colors and use crystals to help balance our chakras.

When you feel out of sorts your chakra bodies become muddled so if you cleanse your chakras through the use of crystals, sage or salt baths you can slowly achieve and restore a sense of power, balance and positive well being. Reiki is an instant body balancing way to shift your energies and help your chakra bodies to communicate and realign themselves with each other. I love to use hot stones, crystals and organic aromatherapy essences to refresh the entire chakra bodies.

We are not seeking a “quick” fix in fact your thoughts play a huge factor on your ability to stay balanced and vibrating. Even if you undergo an extensive chakra balancing session but you repeat negative behaviors or continue to create negative thought forms you can get in the way of restoring your own healing.

Crystals especially pure amethyst, clear quartz, rose quartz and selenite create a powerful field of positive energies in your Chakra bodies. The simple act of laying still with a stone or crystal over your heart or stomach can restore a sense of calm and help you get rid of the “jitters”. Practice a bit yourself. Find a special selection of stones and crystals that you are naturally attracted to. You might find a certain color you gravitate towards or a special “feel”. Play with the stones and see how they make you feel. Do they give you more energy or less energy? Certain stones might be extra powerful for your body’s needs so look up the crystals that correlate with each of your chakra bodies or just pick the ones that feel GOOD to you.selenite pyramid

I would love the opportunity to create a special healing ceremony just for you. You may schedule a reiki healing without committing to tantra yoga massage or you can incorporate crystal healing with any of my tantra ceremonies.

Goddess Diana of
http://www.tantrabutterfly.com